Sob! Sob!

Camera aku rosak!

Benci!

Bersusah payah aku carik warranty card camera tu. Nasib baik jumpa. Bulan depan warranty expires. Nasib baik.

Tapi takde original receipt pulak. Dah bagi kedai tu masa claim free photos dulu agaknya.

Camna ni? Belasah jer lah.

The next day aku gi jer kedai tu.

Since Che Man ada conflict ngan pekedai tu dulu (long story... I tell you), I asked him just wait for me at some kopitiam. Aku cuma nak gi hantar camera for repair, bukan nak gaduh. He.. He...

AT THE SHOP

Aku : Saya beli camera ni awal tahun kat sini. Semalam tetiba dia rosak. Gambar bergaris-garis. Gambar yang ambil sebelum semalam, elok pulak.

Pekedai : (Checked warranty card aku. Nasib baik dia tak minta receipt. Checked camera) Ada jatuh kan ker?

Aku : Takde! Takde! (Betul… tak tipu)

Pekedai : Well… jatuh tak jatuh is not for us to say kan?

Aku : (WTF?). Tell me how am I going to prove it to you that camera ni tak pernah jatuh? (nada suara dah tinggi sket)

Pekedai : Ok. Ok. I’ll give you receipt lah. Nanti dah siap we all call.

Aku : Good. How long will it takes?

Pekedai : Two months.

Aku : Hah? (Terkejut beruk). Why so long? (Mata aku terbuntang)

Pekedai : First dia orang akan assess whether this is due to your negligence. (Part ni aku hangin betul la) Then, they need to determine the real problem. Order spare parts, repair, yada. yada. yada. yada.

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Sebal lah rasa hati aku tak de camera for 2 months. Terlepas la birthday aku, birthday Che Man and anniversary kita orang. Silap-silap terlepas hari jadi Aiman sekali. Itu belum lagi aksi-aksi spontan si Aiman. Sob! Sob!

I tried to talk to Che Man about getting a new one. Member geleng kepala jer. Tak merasa la nampaknya.

By the way, ini lah rupa nya gambar Aiman guna camera rosak tu. Nampak kat sini not so bad, but sometimes teruk betul lines tu. Sampai gambar pun senget-senget.

Aiman favorite past time - showing off his teeths.

Another two are making their way out from the top.

Face that Terrorize J*SCO Bukit Raja on Weekly Basis

He won't sleep.

He doesn't like to sit still in his stroller - He wants to stand up.
If we don't want to dukung him, he'll shout; calling for attention
He always get the attention - from people around us. We segan.

When we want to eat, he wants to eat too - our food.
When we want to drink, he wants some also.

He doesn't like people blocking his view - he'll scream at them.
When I tell him to behave himself, he'll give me this look:

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"Muka tak bersalah"

Tag - 38 Questions

Name one person who made you laugh last night.
· My son, Aiman. He was so sleepy last night but upon hearing my voice, he opened his eyes and tried his best to stay awake, only to fail miserably. His face looks so funny and I had a good laugh.

What were you doing at 0800?
· Fighting with Aiman in the car on the way to MIL’s – I was trying to trim his finger nails.

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
· Hi-tea with another 2 colleague while listening to their discussion on menopause.

What happened to you in 2006?
· I got married in February and got pregnant 4 months later. Was a wonderful year.

What was the last thing you said out loud?
· “Bodoh punya supplier! Pigi dah….!”

How many beverages you have today?
· One. Coffee. Tu jer.

What color is your hairbrush?
· Black. Why hairbrush?

What was the last thing you paid for?
· My Lunch. That was day before yesterday.

Where were you last night?
· i) Clinic Bandaran, ii) Restaurant Sri Bunga, iii) MIL’s and iv) Home.

What color is your front door?
· Cokelat. Tak nak tanya warna pintu bilik ker?

Where do you keep your change?
· In my purse, in my car, in my handbag & in my tabung.

What’s the weather like today?
· Drizzling

What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
· Chocolate. Nothing can beat this man…

What excites you?
· When I see people got exited upon seeing me. He.. he….

Do you want to cut your hair?
· Oh yes! I have not cut my hair since I gave birth to Aiman. More than 9 months now. In fact I went to saloon last Saturday to do just that, but after waited for 45 minutes, I gave up.

Are you over the age of 25?
· Yes. Must I write the figure? No need? Okey. Thank you.

Do you talk a lot?
· Tengok tempat, tengok masa, tengok orang. In general; YES.

Do you watch the OC?
· No. Should I?

Do you know anyone name Steven?
· No. Sorry Steve.

Do you make up your own words?
· Yup. Baby talk with my son. But many people advise me not to continue doing that. Takut anak pelat. But hey… this is the only time I can do this. So back off! I know la when to stop. Jealous?

Are you a jealous person?
· Not really. Sket jer kot…..

Name a friend whose name starts with the letter Á’.
· Asu

Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.
· Kamsiah.
Kamsiah & Asu are actually twin sisters. My good friends from hometown.

Who’s the first person on your received call list?
· Abg 2. That is my husband’s 2nd mobile number.

What does the last text message you received say?
· “Missed Call(s) from 03778***** (9:35am 13/12) ZMS-cara baru untuk SMS dgn ikon!, Percuma hingga 31 Dis. Untuk muat turun, taip ZMS hantar ke 22022”.

Do you chew on your straw?
· No! Yucks!

Do you have curly hair?
· No.

Where’s the next place you’re going to?
· Washroom.

Who’s the rudest person in your life?
· Me. I can be very brutal with my words when I am angry. Only I don’t say it out loud.

What was the last thing you ate?
· Something from dessert counter. I think it was a malay kuih macam sagu mata ikan, but colorful with hint on kelapa parut. Sedap hingga menjilat garpu.

Will you get married in the future?
· Erk?

What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past two weeks?
· Kalau movie from DVD – Die Hard 4. Kalau tu tak aci… then, I can’t remember. Rasanya dah 10 bulan tak gi cinema.

Is there anyone you like right now?
· Many.

What was the last time you did the dishes?
· The night before last night. I do dishes every night, but last night there was no water supply. So, biar jer la cawan-cawan bergelimpangan kat situ dulu.

Are you currently depressed?
· A little bit. Don’t ask.

Did you cry today?
· No.

Why did you answer and post this?
· Simply la. I need to appear busy ma…. but not in mood to do office work. What more, I like NiN who tagged me.

Tag 5 people who would do this survey.
· i) Wani, ii) Konot, iii) Alin, iv) Aishah and v) Jue.

Hati Sedang Risau

When I first receive the news, I was excited and anxious about it. I can 'see' a bright light enveloped the news. I waited for weekend to come anxiously.

At the end of weekend, I was a bit frustrated, that thing was not so smooth - even though I expected it already. May be I was too hopeful.

I gave myself another chance few days later. It ended-up alright but I know I should worry about another thing that bothering me for so long. Should we take action earlier there is no need for us to worry about. Now... is it too late? I tried to be positive and went ahead anyway.

This morning, I got the result. I am frustrated now. I know it’s coming and it has come. A reality that someone has tried to postpone too often. There is no need to get angry with someone. I had reminded this someone to settle it too many times already. Someone got to learn a lesson.

Che Man told me there is Plan B. He is working on it but it is not so promising. Despite the frustration that eating me inside out, I am still hopeful that we can still solve this problem as soon as possible. Key word : ‘as soon as possible’.

But what if we failed? What are the other alternatives? Should I just forget about it?

Maybe I am over reacting. I can't help it. Hati sedang risau.

Kami Kena Buli

..... oleh budak 9 bulan.

Aiman is getting better but not fully recovered.

Thank you for advices on how to handle the situation. Al maklumlah, first anak, mana la saya tau sangat. Panic tau la. In early stage, every time after minum susu, he will berak cair. Not only I have to change his diaper, I need to change his seluar, baju, alas tidur atau apa-apa lah yang in contact with his bontot at that time. Haru biru. Badan dia pun lemah, tak mau makan and meragam saja. Dah kurus anak ibu.

Now better.

Not every after minum susu dia berak, kalau ada pun tak banyak dan tak secair dulu (ok guys… if you are eating while reading this… you know what to do kan? Gross. I know!). Walau belum selera sangat nak makan, dia sudah makin energetic. Alhamdullillah. I NEED him to sembuh and sembuh fast.

Cerita lain lak.

When Aiman was 8 months, he could not crawl properly. He was on all fours but still, when he wants to move about, dia mengensot ala commando. Budak bertuah. I started to worry - Apesal la tak leh merangkak lagi ni? Then one day when I put him into his baby cot, he did these:

Tak mau baring. Terus bangun.

On his knees

Berpaut pada palang kayu & cuba berdiri

Adjusting his position

Doing his little dance routine

Pulak dah. Dia berdiri!. So we lowered down the cot’s base. But, we cannot put him in the cot anymore coz he keeps wanting to stand up. Kan baru jer belajar berdiri, tak stabil lagi. Few times, when he was practicing (with Ibu supervising him), dia jatuh-jatuh. Takut wei… kalau kepala dia kena kayu tu. Somemore, dia cuba panjat-panjat pagar tu macam dah terer sangat. So sekarang, kami tidurkan dia guna buaian and then alih ke katil in between me & Che Man.

Masalah lain pulak - Dia panjat kita orang.

Nak dijadikan cerita, this happened few days ago, Aiman slept at around 11.00pm and woke-up at 1.30am. After he drank susu, as usual he stayed up. Exited dah dapat berdiri sambil berpaut ni, dia panjat-panjat badan kita orang. Everytime after he managed to stand, he will do a little dance choreographed by himself – sangat cute okey…, then (bila dia dah penat or when we got irritated) we have to baringkan him again. This process continued until around 3.00am.

Tah camna aku tertido. Suddenly, “Bubbbbbb”, I heard something that scare the hell out of me and shortly I heard Aiman cried - so loud. I got up in panic and found him terlentang atas lantai! ANAK AKU JATUH KATIL! Uuwwaaaaaa! Panic. I took him to living room pujuk dia berhenti nangis. I checked his head, hands, legs and back for any sign of bengkak, patah and what not. Everything seems ok. Dia pun tak nangis lama.

I got to go to work that morning. So, I told MIL about happened and asked her to monitor him in case he cries for no apparent reason, to note any physical abnormality, vomit or anything perangai unusual. Until today, beside lebam kat forehead dia (alahai.. he must have had landed face down), he is fine - or should I worry? Should I take him to doctor?

My dear Aiman masih tak serik. Now is will sleep at around 11.00pm and get up at 1.30am and force us to play with him and panjat-panjat us or bantal; to stand and to do his little dance. He also uses our bed headboard as a support to stand, ended up kepala dia tertujah ke headboard – solid wood tu! He will only sleep at around 4.30am or 5.00am. Itu pun lepas Che Man puas buaikan dia. So, you know lah.... no one can really sleep these days.

He is 9 months today.

He has got 2 cute gigi bawah yang dia suka asah guna ASTRO remote control – somehow he always manages to find it; the remote control I mean. He can crawl now (finnally) and he loves his new skill coz he can get to our TV cabinet, sofa, kerusi, buaian or kaki meja faster and use them to support him while standing and dancing.

I put many big cushions kat lantai around my bed, just in case. My room is small. No space for us to bentang tilam. And to dismantle the bed and tidur bawah not really a good idea coz my sleep-fighter son will crawl to wherever he can find support for him to do his thing. I can’t imagine him doing that while we are sleeping (read : TER-tido).

No matter how he ‘tortured’ us the night or the morning before, every morning when I wake-up from my not-so-nyenyak sleep, I always feel happy & grateful because he is my boy. The one that makes me laugh, the one that makes me smile, the one that makes me cry, the one that makes me panic & worry and the one that makes me so grateful for being able to go through all these.

I guess I can only bersabar and appreciate everything that comes with 9-month-old boy.

Risau

I went through some of the things I blog-ed here. I could not find anything related to Aiman's development. Kalau ada pun cerita pasal dia tak mahu tido sampai buat aku nak naik gila. Teruknya aku.

So aku ambil beberapa keping gambar dia. Ingat nak blog about some new development just for my own record coz lately he has achieved so many things.

But still.....

Hari ni, masih tak dapat lagi blog about his achievements. Coz I want to blog about omething that makes me worry.Dah tiga hari najis Aiman cair saje. Tak tau naper. MIL said umur macam ni memang tengah nak ringan kan badan. Dua hari lepas takde la aku risau, sebab waktu beraknya masih teratur - walau pun cair semacam. Tapi malam tadi, I just cannot wait for siang to come. Everytime I gave him milk, dia berak cair, sampai takde najis dah... just yellow-ish water. Tukar diaper banyak kali. Dia nampak mengantuk sangat, tapi menangis almost all night long (until 5am!). Sakit perut agaknya. Macam kita kena cirit-birit. The last bottle I gave him at 5.oo am. Then aku pun tertido. Sedar kul 6.00pagi, I saw Aiman tido megiring sambil Che Man peluk dia. Botol susu yang kosong kat sebelah. Kesian anak ibu. Entah bila la dia tertido. Entah-entah dia menangis-nangis cuba kejutkan ibu tapi ibu tak sedar pun....

Che Man and i decided to take him to clinic tonite. Yup... TONIGHT not today! I hate the fact that I have to leave him all day long with MIL (in that condition) cause his father and I have to go to work. I have meeting early morning, so I asked Che Man to send me first to office, before send Aiman. Aiman was sleeping all the way to Shah Alam. Tak bangun pun bila aku cium dia. Terlentok jer dalam car seat. Mengantuk sangat nampaknya anak ibu. Berat betul hati aku nak tinggal kan dia camtu. Kalau la aku boleh tinggal kan saja meeting pagi ni dan bawa dia gi clinic.... kalau lah aku boleh duduk rumah jaga dia..... kalau la sakitnya tu boleh di transfer kan pada aku.....

I can't wait to go back. I want to bring him to see doctor. I hope, there is nothing serious.

Grateful

I know them through Che Man. It was in a month of Syawal; few years back. We went to their new-big-house at a new housing area. Apparently Che Man had not seen them for quite sometimes. They already have 2 daughters at that time. Their conversation was mostly about the couples’ carriers – they work at the same place. The husband works during normal hours, odd hours and long hours. Everyday. Part of it due to his nature of job. The wife who works in office will have to follow the husband working hours in order to solve their logistic problem. They however do not mind since the money is very good. Their daughters live with dear mother and only spend few days with them every week. We were amazed with the situation. I cannot imagine myself going through that on daily basis. However, the materialistic part of me envies them.

Che Man invited them to our house during last Syawal. They have 2 daughters and a son now. I am glad that this family stayed after everyone else left my house. We spent good one hour talking about our lives now.

The wife has stop working 2 years ago after gave birth to her son. The husband has been terminated from work about few months ago due to some crisis at work. They did not talk about how difficult life has been since the last few months – something I expect them to mention. They mentioned nothing like that. They are jovial couple. I forgot about how difficult life must be for them now when the husband cracked jokes after jokes.

The husband asked me to tapau serunding since his elder daughter loves it so much. She ate everything with serunding. Masalodeh, mee hoon goreng, spaghetti, nasi himpit, satay.

I asked, “Really? I tapau okey...?”

He said, “I am just joking la.....”.

Anyway, I made a mental note to act on that before they leave.

Time to leave. We walked them to their car – a car; we thought. Instead, it was a motorcycle. Five of them on a motorcycle. They left. Happily waved at us. Knowing where they live, they will be on the motorcycle for more than one hour.

We stayed outside of the house picking up some rubbish in the car porch when suddenly Che Man said “Kesian la. Tentu susah hidup dia orang skrang. Ye la... sampai ke tahap jual kereta”. That is exactly what I was thinking.

In the kitchen I was still thinking about them. How life can change drastically? How some people can still show happy faces when they are forced to change their lifestyles coz money is a big issue now?

It reminds me of myself – suka mengeluh about not having this & that, spend my precious time doing this budget & that budget (but never stick to it) and hate the fact that I HAVE to do budget at all, looking at other people’s nicer houses, cars, handbag, shoes, suits and at almost every better things they could afford and secretly envied them. Suka berangan that one day I’ll win something like more-jutaria contest and bring back RM1million in cash.

Why not grateful for whatever I have now?

Then, I realized I was staring at a Tupperware filled with serunding and packets of nasi himpit that I forgot to give them.

Sigh.

I hope they keep the house.

Sigh.