Summary Update eh?

Dear blog… kesian kau lama ber-update! Hehehe. Aku takde alasan. Tak le busy sangat. Cuma mungkin penyakit MAFALASFAS yang menyerang.

By the way, too many things happened & happening. I will just summarize them here.

Aiman Tatut
Things getting better with Aiman after we played the bacaan Quran in the house regularly. Pas tu bulan puasa pulak, lansung takde kesan yang tak diingini. Betul lah setan-setan ni kena tambat semua. Cuma sekarang ni, when we start taking this for granted (ingatkan dah orait 100%), Aiman has started to complain “tatutttttt….” Just few days ago dia dok tunjuk-tunjuk ceiling, mata terbuntang-buntang (like trying hard to see an object in the dim light). Masa tu aku sedikit panik. Dalam hati terpikir, “Nak kena rasuk ke anak aku ni?” Dah lah masa tu Che Man takde. Dalam masa panik tu sempat lagi aku pikir soklan untuk draft action plan:

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“In case Aiman kena rasuk dek jin laknat malam ni”:
i) Berapa kuat aku kena menjerit untuk kejut kan jiran sebelah?
ii) Sapa yang aku kena telephone?
iii) Perlu ke aku siram air kat dia?
iv) Perlu aku lempang dia?
v) Ayat apa yang aku kena baca?
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Tapi lepas tu aku goncang-goncang badan dia. When he looked at me, aku sedar dia tak kena rasuk pun. So aku slow talk dengan dia. Try to convince him that he will be ok. Nothing will disturb him. Semangat dia lebih kuat. Dia berani, bla bla bla. Finally Aiman nodded him head and agreed to try to sleep.

I must start to play the CD again.

Pregnancy
One day my boss told me that I looked different. He said I put on weight quite drastically as if I’m pregnant. I told him recently my appetite very good, but I’m not pregnant. He told me he suspects I’m pregnant and I might want to check that.

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Few days after that, Che Man told me he legs cramped so badly the night before. I remember thinking, “That is MY symptom during pregnancy”. Straight away I went to pharmacy and purchased pregnancy test kit. Yada yada yada….. positive!

Ada hari aku mabuk teruk, ada hari tak berapa teruk, ada hari yang ok je. Pelik sikit pregnancy kali ni. Tomorrow is going to be 3 months. But many people commented my tummy is so big for 3-month-pregnant tummy. Some suggested I’ve miss-calculated, some said kembar and some even said I’m diabetic! OMG! Tonight I’m going for 2nd check-up and first scan. Hopefully everything will be fine.

Ramadhan 2010
The first week of Ramadhan aku dok bersungguh-sungguh lah. Walaupun awal pregnancy tapi tenaga baik betul. Berangan nak puasa sebulan. Masa minggu kedua mabuk-mabuk dah start. Not able to eat (walau pun tak puasa), getting up for sahur teman Che Man, forced to reach office at 7.30am, the mual, the muntah, the smell of food from PARAM anf the smell of people around me really bothered me.

So no Ramdhan buffet at hotels for me this year. Only once at BlueWave while assisting a charity event. No point paying so much and not enjoying the food. No PARAM-hoping. In fact the only PARAM I went adalah di PKNS Shah Alam. Tu pun sebab paling dekat ngan tempat kerja. Nasib baik lah some dear friends invited me for iftar at their places or at some restaurants. Soal Terawih lagi lah sedih nya.

In different note, family gathering were often. This maybe nothing for you all. But I know these two persons on perang dingin since so many years. Berkat Ramadhan, they sat side by side for iftar. Hiba sungguh aku. Pas tu, maybe for the first time in my life, I saw them solat berjemaah. Allah Maha Besar. Moga perang dingin yang dah berpuluh tahun tu tamat.


Aidilfitri 2010
I feel a bit better mungkin sebab aku leh mengunyah sikit at anytime bagi melegakan rasa mual. I was hungry all the time so aku makan je walau pun makanan semua rasa tak sedap dan pas tu kekadang muntah balik. But I enjoy the festive mood, the happy faces, the family gatherings, the extended leaves, the raya activities, etc. etc. After that, I missed so many open houses coz Che Man had to work. Same is going to happen this weekend. Anyway, raya deserve a different blog entry, so wait lah yek.

Eh?
Tetiba blank.

Does My Son See 'Things'?

Susah nak menulis when my head is thinking in broken English & broken Malay secara serentak. Nasib le sesiapa yang baca ni.

My 3 and half-year-old son Aiman acted strangely after we moved-in to our new house. It was somewhere in April this year.

The first time, he woke me up early morning. I thought he wanted his milk but he had this strange look on his face. I wrote about it here.

Another time, it was around 1am (dia memang biasa tido lambat). I was changing his diaper at living room. Aiman dok mengeliat-mengeliat sambil ketawa making it difficult for me change his diaper.

Me : Aiman, duduk diam-diam. Nak tukar pampers ni.
Aiman : (sambil ketawa mengekek dan mengeliat-ngeliat). Ibu tengoklah dia ni…..
Me : Dia? Siapa?
Aiman : Dia tu….. (tunjuk kat something next to me). Hantu tu…..
Me : Ishk…. Mana ada ?
Aiman : Itu lah…. Tengok lah Hantu tu…. (tetiba ketawa-ketawa dan megeliat seperti orang kena geletek).

I didn’t think about it much. He must be kidding only.

But things getting weird from thereon.

At times, when we stopped our car at traffic light that the surrounding area is dark, he said : “Eh….. hantu lah….. tu.. tu… hantu!”. Most of the time both Che Man & I buat dek je. Kekadang kita orang suruh dia diam and behave himself.

Another time, when we were about to leave our hotel room for check-out (one hotel in PJ), Aiman stooped at the entrance, badan dia mengadap bilik yang kosong and said:
“Bye Bye….. salam? Salam la…. " (Sambil hulur tangan macam orang nak bersalaman).

One night, we were at kampung. Sleeping in a room. I woke-up coz Aiman tetiba menangis macam orang ketakutan. Tangannya menukup muka. “Aiman tatut (takut)….! Aiman tatut!”. Setelah dipujuk-pujuk baru dia diam. Tapi masih mahu tidur sambil menekup muka dengan tangan.

Sejak pada tu, selalu sahaja dia terjaga dan menangis waktu tidur saying the same thing. Kekadang Che Man yang pujuk, kekadang aku yang jaga. Satu pagi tu Che Man told me about Aiman terbangun dan menangis dan sebut takut-takut lagi. Kali ni according to Che Man, his eyes kept looking up at one point only. Somewhere between our ceiling fan and ceiling light. Che Man told me he got seram also.

The night, it was my turn. Aiman was on the bed, prepared to sleep. Tiba-tiba dia seperti orang terkejut. Badan seperti tersentak. Perlahan-lahan dia merangkak ke hujung katil sambil kepala mendongak keatas. Aku ingatkan dia dok perhati cicak. I also looked up and just that I realized he was looking at somewhere between the fan and light. Serta merta aku teringat cerita Che Man pagi tu.

Sejak tu, tiap kali buka pintu rumah, tengok ceiling. Buka pintu bilik, kami automatically dongak tengok ceiling. Giler tul lah!

The crying, the staring and tido sambil tutup muka went on almost on daily basis for almost 2 weeks. During this time, my mother in law and sister in law told me that Aiman asyik buat hal. Menangis tak tentu pasal. Pas tu at certain times didn’t allow anyone in the house to switch on TV. He will cream ‘tatutttttttt!!!!”. But both Che Man and I didn’t open our mouth about his crying and staring at home. We simply didn’t know what to say.

One day during lunch at office, my friends were talking about their children and their current progress. So, I told them about what was going with Aiman. They were surprised that I ‘kept’ this development too long. Some suggested that Aiman might be able to see ‘things’. Some things might be scary things. One story led to another and I found out another staff had a same problem but later solved when he played MP3 of surah-surah tertentu from his mobile phone given by his boss. He also called an ustaz to ‘clean’ his (new) house.

Only then I realized that this was serious matter. I downloaded the MP3 and started playing it at home. Only then we informed Che Man parents about it. They looked for us a CD and a book ‘Ayat-ayat Pembakar Jin’ and we played them. (I’ll update the actually title and the writer later). Another friend at work gave me a poster of ‘Surat Rasullullah’. The poster entitled “Pengusir Jin Dari Kediaman” which we hang onto a door inside the master bedroom.

Alhamdullillah. Since the first step, Aiman dah tak mengarut-mengarut lagi pasal ‘hantu’atau terjerit-jerit takut. I observed him walking into our room, suddenly stopped, look up and then looked lega. Maybe he doesn’t see it anymore. He is not scared of TV anymore. We changed the TV too…. Hahaahaha.

Belum habis lagi cerita ni.

One night, I had this port luck gathering cum housewarming party with some close friends. A couple, our neighbors who only come to stay at their house on weekend came to inform that one of my friend cars is blocking their entrance. So we invited them in for dinner sekali cum sesi berkenalan.

Cerita itu dan ini, tetiba uncle tu tanya Che Man whether or not “ada yang mengacau kat sini?” Selepas sedikit kekeliruan pasal maksud uncle tu, he told about some incidents. Pernah masa dia tengah sembahyang, dia terdengar wife dia menjerit ketakutan. Bila dia checked elok aje wife dia kat dapur buat kerja and she denied that she did scream. Another time, his son told him about a really big, really tall, really ugly creature he saw in their house.

Che Man and I think it is the same thing that scared Aiman all this while. Maybe the thing bukan duduk kat ceiling, tapi simply sangat tinggi, setinggi ceiling? Mungkin the thing dah pindah ke rumah dia pulak. Ye lah…. rumah sebelah tu kekadang je tuan rumah datang. Lagipun (dengan izinNya) makhluk tu dah terhalau dari rumah kita orang. Agaknya lah.

Tuhan sahaja yang Maha Mengetahui.

Aku terpikir nak buat entry ni, coz minggu lepas my SIL told me that Aiman suddenly informed her “Ibu… Ibu… (he calls her Ibu too), Aiman nampak Hantu hari tu tau…..”.

Korang jangan suh aku pindah rumah dah laaaaaa.

Dapat Dah

Ehem.... ehemmmm....

Korang nampak tak?

Nampak?

Pesal pulak tak nampak?

Aku tau lah tak sebesar mana pun......

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Ni haaaa.......

Nampak?

Wakakakakaa

Tak sia-sia aku letak entry sebelum ni.

(Entry ala-jakun-orang-lain-dah-lama-dapat-aku-selalu-je-paling-lambat!)

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Apa-apa pun, saya sudahi entry ini dengan ucapan

terima kasih dan sayang buat Che Man,

serta terima lah wajah seorang heart breaker

ehem... ehem....

TV & I - We have Issues

Che Man bought me this TV before we even got engaged long time ago. Ini mungkin termasuk dalam usaha untuk mengurat aku pada masa tu. Tapi tak kisahlah kan. It was quite a big investment at that time considering his disposal income and our relationship status at that time. Anyway, we finally got married and the TV is the only one set we have in the house.

Sesapa yang ada dalam gambar ni, jangan marah.

Ni je lah gambar TV tu yang aku ada.

Tak reti pulak nak potong gambar ni.

I posted lama dulu about this weird story – when the TV changed channels by itself when no one around. Yup! That story. But that only happened once.

Last year, the TV start buat hal lagi. Kali ni dia on and off displayed ‘contrast’, ‘color’, etc and the tuning bar will run as if someone is doing tuning or something.

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I was thinking, “Alamak…… TV ni dah rosak pulak!”.

It was so irritating. Bayangkan lah, kita dok syok tengok CSI tetiba keluar ‘contrast’ and the tuning bar pergi kiri kanan. Pas tu keluar tah apa-apa function lagi. Menyibuk pandangan je. But we stick with this TV coz there were other things which were more important to spend on other than to replace a bulky self-tuning TV.

Two months ago, we all pindah rumah. I noticed, the TV has no more problem. Suddenly terus elok je. Sampai ke hari ni. tak pernah functions tu keluar sendiri lagi. Bagus… selamat duit kami.

About 2 or 3 weeks after that we moved in, I woke-up at nearly 3.00am coz I think I heard my son called me softly. I think he did wake me up because when I opened my eyes, he was already sitting on the bed. I wanted to ask him to go back to sleep but then I heard something………
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Our TV was on!

TV ni kat living room. Kita orang dalam bilik tidur. Mungkin kah Si Aiman keluar dan buka TV? I doubt it. Pintu bilik masih berkunci dan aku tahu Aiman tak kan berani keluar bilik gelap-gelap begitu.


Betul ke bunyi TV? Siap letak tekup telinga kat dinding nak pasti kan yang aku dengar tu memang TV. Bunyinya macam suara mat saleh baca berita but I can’t catch the actual ‘news’. Pas tu aku pi dok mengedap bawah pintu bilik kot kot boleh nampak cahaya dari TV kat ruang tamu, but I saw nothing. Si Aiman pun duk menjalar depan pintu ikut aku mengedap.

Terpikir gak aku “Ntah ntah ada penyamun masuk, pas tu buka TV untuk tarik perhatian kami, so that we’ll open the room door!”. Takut gila aku memikirkan kemungkinan tu.

Pas tu si Aiman punya pandai, pergi selak langsir tingkap. Aku pun pergi jenguk jugak. Cuma nampak pintu pagar yang masih berkunci dan kereta kita orang. Takda apa-apa movement yang meragukan depan rumah. Belakang rumah tak tau la kan.

Aku tekup pulak telinga kat dinding kot-kot bunyi tu datang dari rumah sebelah kiri (rumah sebelah kanan masih tak berpenghuni). Rasanya tak. Takkan orang sebelah ni dengar berita kul 3.00 pagi kot ? Kalau ye pun, selama ni aku tak pernah dengar bunyi dari rumah tu. Nak dengar suara pun tidak, kecuali lah kat dapur bila pintu belakang kami sama-sama terbuka.

Bunyi TV masih ada lagi. Aku tak boleh kata bunyi lain. Memang betul-betul macam bunyi TV lah. Tapi takda bunyi tapak kaki ke hapa. Adalah dalam 10 minit aku tunggu.

Aku berkira-kira nak kejutkan Che Man tapi aku sendiri tak pasti dengan logiknya bunyi TV yang rasa-rasanya dari dalam rumah senditi. Later I decided to go back to sleep and hoped no penyamun in the house. Aiman made no fuss, join aku tido.

The next morning, nothing happened.

What is it with me and this TV?

Bang, bulan depan beli LCD (or LED or HD or Full HD) TV yek?

Tetiba.

What is Happening?

I don't know lah........

Rumah

We were off from work yesterday. That’s explained why the happy status in the FB on 15th. (well, before that makhluk perosak status lah).

Went to our house and saw this.

Dinding car porch dah bertukar bentuk

Jiran aku buat renovation nampaknya. Walaupun sedikit sentap sebab they all sentuh wall kita tak bagitau, tapi tak kisah sangat lah. Dah siap nanti tu, cantik lah kot. Tapi aku tengok wall tu cracked. Dah tu simen dah keras berterabur habis kena tiles & ceiling. Bila Che Man tanya supervisor dia, bila nak cat wall belah kita org tu, dia jawab dengan kasar. “Lepas semua siap, kita orang cat lah!”. Cilakak betul. Orang tanya baik-baik, dia main kasar lak. Kalau ye pun takkan biarkkan simen berterabur kat belah lain sampai kering. Dah la takde courtesy, tak cermat pulak tu.

Actually, mamat tu bengang ngan kita orang sebab tak ambik khidmat dia. The day dia approached aku tu je cakap, “Kak… kita sesama Melayu, boleh bincang lah…..”. Kepantangan aku orang guna approach camtu.

Aku ada gak considered dia tu, tapi aku ter-jumpa beberapa komen yang tak baik pasal khidmat dia dalam community forum B.andar B.ukit R.aja. Jenis yang tabur janji macam-macam, quality kerja tak bagus, kerja lembab asyik nak kena follow-up je. Bila aku tengok wall yang merekah tu, aku syukur takde kena-mengena dengan dia. Pekerja dia, kerja waktu pagi je. Pas kul 1 petang, stop kerja, mandi, ampai kain bagai, pas tu tido sampai petang. Sekali tuan rumah datang, mengelupur.

Anyway…..

A tailor for curtain came as scheduled. She went and measured every window and I went “Eh…. We all tak order curtain untuk window ni la”. She answered me that she wants to keep a record, in case I change my mind later. Confident je minah tu. Cukup le. I didn’t give much attention on curtain or budget for curtain. I thought, whatever la…. Cannot be so expensive what..... Sekali ambik kau…… double the budget. Only after that I checked, my initial budget was a bit too low la. terpaksa la aku terima hakikat yg aku tak pandai buat budget.

Then, installers for kitchen cabinet came. These guys stopped & parked their lorry at the car porch, angkat tangan to acknowledge my presence, unloaded things and started doing their job. Setiap sorang ada kerja sendiri. Tak nampak pun they all borak-borak, hisap rokok, rehat. Kerja je..... tak bunyik-buyik.

Pelik gak aku. Tak ke dia orang nak confirm kan alamat rumah tu dulu, design atau apa-apa material yang dia orang bawa. The only thing they said, “Ada penyapu tak?” and “Sudah siap Kak”. It took them 4 hours to complete the installation.

Sebelum

Selepas

While all other things happening, Che Man was fixing lights & fans in the house. Nasib baik Che Man boleh buat. Mendengus-dengus gak le member tu dalam kepanasan. Suka hati. Janji siap. Kalau tak, nak kena upah orang pulak. Duit lagi. Only we unable to fix one light in the hall. The ceiling is a bit too high, tangga tak sampai. I think we have no choice but to pay someone else to do it for us. This weekend baru boleh settle kot.

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Laki sapa nih?

We brought a can of paint to paint the fence and gate. Kekonon nak sama kaler ngan our grille. Aku le yang patut cat tu. Aku cakap ngan Che Man, aku takut duduk luar sorang-sorang. Takut kena kidnap. The actual fact: it was so hot outside. Makcik tak sanggup. Elok-elok datang tadi brown light-light, kang balik glossy black lak.

It seems my both side neighbors are Malay families. Sempat jumpa yang sebelah kiri, rumah sedang renovate. Maybe masuk end of the year. Yang sebelah kanan pulak, tak sempat bertegur, nampak dia orang datang & pergi je. Tak lama lagi masuk rumah kot.

Tengah aku lepak ada satu mamat Chinese ni datang bagi flyer. Boleh tempah curtain katanya. Kalau nak, tang-tang tu jugak dia nak measure. Ayooooo…. Sampai macam ni sekali orang carik business sekarang. Tapi bagus gak strategy ni.

So sekarang, lampu tinggal sikit lagi. This weekend kena sambung pasang lampu, cat pagar, basuh rumah. On next Monday pasang curtain. Then boleh pindah sikit-sikit. Dah standby 2 quotes untuk lorry. This week kena tukar alamat surat-menyurat pulak.

Tuan rumah sekarang pun dah mintak buang kan ‘For Rent’ punya signage depan rumah. Terlalu ramai yang call katanya, sampai dia pening kepala. Cadang nya nak pindah 28hb ni walaupun landloard kata we all can keep the keys till 15hb.

Oh ya... Jangan di tanya bila house warming sebab duit tinggal RM65 je. Adehhhhh.....

My February... kind of...

Sebelum 2 followers aku blah, elok rasanya update blog ni.

Banyak yang nak rekodkan but so little time and energy. So, for my own record, I wanna summarize this entry into few topics.

Birthday & Wedding Anniversary
My birthday & Che Man’s birthday jatuh selang sehari on the first weekend of February. It went quietly except for many birthday wishes I received through FB. Thank you so much people. Tak dapat pun nak reply and say thank you satu-satu. But you know I love you all very the strong kan?

The whole Saturday on my birthday, Che Man had to work from morning to late night. Takde mood nak potong kek pun. Sampai sekarang tak redeem lagi voucher kek yang hotel bagi tu. So, I thought, cake-less ler we all. But, the next day balik kampung and my dear sister made us a very rich very yummy chocolate cake for tea time.

Both Che Man and I took day off to spend our day at spa and dating on our 4th anniversary in the 2nd week of February. Che Man who was skeptical on the spa thingy at last sangat menyesal kerana tak ikut my suggestion to have the 4-steps full body treatment instead of 1 hour couple massage. Tu laaaa… lenkali dengar gak cakap bini. Hal-hal macam ni lelaki mana tau, kan? We also went to movie, makan and shopped.

Muka gumbira dapat minum root bir dua gelas sekali

Aiman
I extended my leave after the anniversary celebration and took opportunity of Chinese New Year public holidays to stay home with Aiman. My aim was to train Aiman untuk pergi toilet everytime nak kencing and berak. Except for 2 incidents – one on the floor and another one on sofa, the few days training went well. Never in my life I felt so happy to see him terberak. Hahaha. Tapi amat-amat letih coz kejap-kejap nak kencing budak bertuah tu. I think Aiman felt the same coz my MIL told me that Aiman mengamuk-ngamuk nak pakai diaper later that week. Aduhai…. Dah beberapa hari ok, dia buat hal pulak tak nak continue. Came another weekend, I tried again but he refused to wear his pants without diaper. Seperti biasa, Aiman menang. Mendidih je darah aku tengok dia screaming, kicking, shouting. So pakaikan dia diaper and went to the zoo.

Ala.... takyah la gi toilet.... sini je lah....

New House
We finally received the house keys on 22nd. So we have about a month to arrange everything including to move into the new house. Must empty the rented house by last weekend of March.

After the handover from developer, straight away we confirmed some works with a contractor. Then we went and searched for kitchen cabinet and lights and fans. Well, actually not that fast la. We have done the surveys many times already. So that day was to confirm things la. It was very exciting and tiring activities.

So now the plaster ceiling is done, the hacking of the kitchen concrete slap done, kitchen plumbing relocated, grille done, lights and fans purchased, kitchen cabinet selected and measured. What left – to install the kitchen cabinet, fix lights & fans, paint the main gate, order curtain & blinders, clean the house, to source for 3 ton lorry untuk angkut barang, to purchase racks for store room, fix curtain & blinders, pack things up and move it! Move it!

Allo? Kenapa itu ceiling manyak tinggi?

Wa tarak rasa tu angin kipas pusing-pusing wa punya kepala atas

Rumah wa tarak aircond ma....

I also have put ‘FOR RENT’ signage in front of my rented house. I hope my nice landlord will receive fews calls on that. I have made claim for late delivery of property from the new house developer. The house was delivered about a month later than promised, but have not received any news yet. Yes, I’m kiasu like that, but I need the money to install aircond plak. Panas giler kan sekarang ni?

WORK
February was a short month. Rushing many things this month. Then, there was an annual dinner. Aku dah lama berazam dan dah lama berjaya tidak involve directly with annual dinner preparation. Bagi chance la kan kat budak-budak muda untuk buat semua ni. But this year, ntah macam mana termakan pujukan pulak terus jadi invitation and program manager. Invitation tu ok, but program ni sangat leceh. Nasib baik ramai yang volunteer tolong. But annual dinner deserve a different entry lah. So later with photo maybe.

Rokers Unite..... hahahaha

There are some changes in the organization structure. There some problems and issues that need urgent attention. There is refurbishment project coming. My boss is particularly busy running here and there to sort & solve things. I have no choice but to chase him *semput*

FAMILY
There are many issues that bothering me now. It seems, since last year satu-satu hal datang menjengah. Just to think about it makes my heart beats faster. Mostly about my younger sisters. You guys dah dewasa. I don’t want to keep talking about the same old stories. I don’t want to bagi nasihat itu dan ini as if I have a perfect life. But I love you all so much and I want you all to be happy. But I really hope you will do what you guys suppose to do. If you have to make life changing decision, pleaseeeeee discuss it with other family members with open heart and mind. The key word is : B.L.E.S.S.I.N.G.

My in-laws are busy now with wedding preparation for Che Man’s younger brother. I feel like I have not contributed anything meaningful in the process. Sibuk dengan hal & masalah sendiri je. I want to improve this situation. Kesian MIL & SIL, dapat menantu and in-law like me eh?

All in all, syukur pada Allah, I managed to stay alive & healthy till I am now 33 years old. My relationship with Che Man is stronger and happier. Aiman is growing fine, healthy, comel, bijak, entertaining and all that. We are going to experience new home and new place. I have made a list on how to improve my work performance and work attitude. Now, I felt fresh, motivated and excited about work all over again. I only hope some issues in my family resolve one by one.

Alhamdullillah.