There are many happenings in my life for the past few months. I didn't blog about many things for past few months too. I thought I can do delayed-entries later. Simply because, I think it is important for me put records somewhere.
But, after some HUHA that happened in my life lately, I feel like closing this blog. Recently when I read my previous entries, aku rasa sebak giler. (I even crying while typing this). All these while, things that I wrote, were things that happened in FRONT of me. Rupa-rupanya there were things that happened BEHIND me. Should I get to know earlier, those entries surely will be different or may not even exist.
I am type of person who like to talk about things. If I can't talk, I'll write. Simpan-simpan tak berapa gemar. For sure I wish I can talk or write about what happened. But till now, I find it very difficult to do so. At one time, I feel like I should talk to someone, at another time, I feel like I better not. At one time, I feel like I should publish it here, another time my another self telling me "Don't you dare!" So here am I. Typing this pathetic-what-the-hell-pompuan-ni-is-talking-about entry, feeling stupid and sad all over.
Now I understand, why some people feel the need to close their blog, or at least start a new one.
I promise myself that I want to start fresh. I don't want to be sad anymore. I desperately want to be the-happy-Nomi again. Those things that happened has already happened. Nothing I can do about it now. I promise myself, I should concentrate on current and future issues. There are so much to do now anyway.
But...... Can I?
Can I just forget it? Can I just move on? What if it happens again? Do I just press the 'reset' button and start fresh?
I keep asking myself.... why?
WHY? WHY? WHY?
No one could answer me. Even the one who knows the answer, will not answer me. My heart bleeding.
Orang kata 'masa menyembuh luka'. Kalau begitu, biar lah masa ni cepat berlalu.
... and this entry is going nowwhere.
6 comments:
Whatever it is, aku doakan kau tabah menghadapi semua dugaan hidup.. kuatkan hati, kuatkan semangat...
salam nomi, don't be sad. be strong ok. i don't know what happened, just want u to be strong n keep being happy dear. take nomi and your 2 lovely sons.
Nomee - Aku punya turn plak hugs ko kuat2. Jgn simpan, nanti lagi rasa lara. Tapi if nak citer, citer dgn org yg ko rasa comfortable ok. Nak start fresh blog pun ok, asalkan bagitau la what's the new url coz I love reading your writing. Take care beb!
Salam Kak Nomee.. yupss... kdg2 dugaan yg Allah bagi ada byk cara namun tak lain tak bukan hanya nak uji hambanya dan Allah takkan bagi ujian yg lebih dari kemampuan hambaNYA.. kerana apa ujian itu diberi? kerana Allah sedang melihat akak.. Allah sdg memerintahkan Malaikat menulis sesuatu tentang akak... jadinya sebelum malaikat menulis.. dia perlu tahu sejauh mana tabahnya kita dgn ujianNYA.. wallahualam... :)
Izwa @ Thank you dear.
Zureen @ I feel humble after reading your comments here. I've read your blog and I come to realize that my problem is nothing as compared to what you are facing. Semoga you terus kuat.
Amy @ *hug Amy lama-lama*
Yadi @ Aku setuju sgt dengan komen kau. Apa sangatlah milikan di dunia ni sampai aku tangiskan sebegini rupa kan? Kalau Allah plan kan untuk aku, aku punya lah. Kalau bukan, mungkin DIA ada plan lain.
semoga tabah nomee, berdoa banyak2, take care, n semoga ceria kembali :)
aku pun dah takde mood nak berblog
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