Tak Keruan

Untuk pertama kali – yes, for the first time, Aiman nangis sampai berjujai-jujai airmata pagi ni bila kami tinggal dia untuk pergi kerja. Selalunya, kami sama-sama hantar dia ke rumah mak sebelum pergi kerja. Tapi sebab hari ni pagi-pagi buta aku ada meeting, Che Man hantarkan aku ke opis dulu, Aiman duduk dalam car seat kat depan, aku kat belakang. Macam tu la biasanya kalau Che Man perlu hantar aku dulu.

Dah sampai opis, aku buka pintu kereta depan untuk kiss Aiman. Selalunya dia buat deeekkk jer sambil babai babai aku, but this time, upon realizing that I am not going to pick him up from his seat, he gave loud cries sampai kuar airmata. Berjurai-jurai airmata dia bila aku tutup balik pintu kereta sambil tangan dia mengapai-ngapai nak suh aku dukung.

Sebak hati aku tengok dia camtu.

Aku tahan saja perasaan, kuat kan semangat and berfikir yang positif saja. Padahal, hati aku tak keruan.

After the meeting, I called Che Man and asked him about Aiman. According to Che Man he cried from my office until when they reached his nenek’s house. Bila Che Man nak pi kerja lak, dia menagis lagi. Selalunya, paling teruk pun, dia merajuk jer – berpaling tak mao pandang kita orang when we sakat him by saying that we wanna go 'an' (jalan-jalan).

Later MIL told Che Man that Aiman is ok already. Hopefully dia baik-baik saja lah hari ni. Aku tak dapat elak dari berfikir perkara-perkara buruk yang mungkin berlaku pada dia hari ni. Nahuzubbillah!

I already got the confirmation on the surgery date – 3rd April. Aiman will have to fast for 6 hours before the operation. Ni yang susah. Aiman kuat minum and the time stipulated are not very convenient. I have to adjust his susu, makan and tido time from today onwards, so that he will not melalak kehausan, kelaparan dan buat perangai on that day.

I still owe him entries about his birthday party (2 weeks ago) and his visit to specialist (1 week ago).