Maafkan lah Ibu

Malam tadi aku tidur dengan perasaan yang amat bersalah. Bukan rasa bersalah sebab malas nak layan Che Man (walaupun sepatutnya kena rasa bersalah lah) tapi rasa amat bersalah pada si kecik Aiman.

Awal malam tu, keluar opis je dah dekat pukul 9.00malam. Terhegeh-hegeh cuba siapkan kerja yang patutnya aku dah siapkan lama dulu. Tak boleh siap jugak. Akhirnya, packed laptop & notes angkut bawak balik. Lepas dinner, baru lah ke rumah MIL untuk ambil Aiman. Macam biasalah, tak pernahnya sampai, ambil Aiman, terus balik. Mesti duduk duduk dulu borak sikit-sikit dengan MIL sambil belek-belek surat khabar.

Sampai rumah dah pukul dekat 11 malam. Resam ibu berkerja, letak beg terus saja buat kerja-kerja rumah pulak. Angkat kain dari ampaian, masukkan kain kotor dalam washing machine, sedia kan air panas untuk susu aiman, sediakan baju untuk kerja esok, kemas-kemas sinki, etc. Tengah aku kehulu kehilir dalam rumah tu, Aiman stopped me. Kat tangan dia ada daun terup. Daun terup ni aku simpan untuk aku main ‘speed’ dengan Che Man masa kita orang dok boring berdua masa belum ada Aiman dulu. Tah tang mana pulak si Aiman boleh jumpa.

Aiman : Ibu, camna ni bu? Jom main ni Bu. (sambil hulur daun terup)
Aku : Alah… ibu banyak kerja lah. Main sana….
Aiman : Ayah…. Jom tenok tartun (tengok kartun) ayah.
Che Man : Alah….. nantilah!

Terus saja aku ke bilik air untuk mandi pulak. Aku tengok Che Man dah nak tertidur kat sofa dengan seluar kerja dia.

Lepas mandi aku bukak laptop pulak. Panik sikit sebab kerja opis tak siap lagi, mata mengatuk, jam dah nak pukul 12 malam. Aiman sedang mengadap PC sambil tengok DVD Happy Feet. Muka bosan.

Terasa tenguk aku sakit. Rupa-rupanya kau tertidur depan laptop. Aiman pulak sedang menyusun daun terup atas lantai. PC dah tutup. Che Man masih belum bangun.

Aku sambung buat kerja. Half and hour after that, baru Che Man bangun mandi, tukarkan baju Aiman, buat susu dia dan bawa dia masuk tidur. After another half and hour, I went around the house checked pintu, tutup lampu. Ternampak aku daun terup yang Aiman susun atas lantai. Serta merta aku rasa sebak.

Aiman dah semakin berdikari sekarang. Semuanya sebab aku ngan Che man sangat kurang melayan dia on weekdays. Keluar kerja awal pagi, si Aiman belum bangun. Balik lepas 9 malam. Pas tu busy melayan kerja kerja rumah, kerja opis, TV atau melayan penat badan. Kalau Aiman tido awal kekadang terus tak jumpa sampai esok malam nya pulak! Sudahnya si Aiman pun dah pandai buat hal sendiri. Entah sejak bila dia pandai switch on PC and DVD sendiri, pas tu tutup balik tah. Aku pun tak terperasan sampai lah malam tadi.

Bila dia becakap, bertanya soalan, kami cuma menjawab, dengan "emmmm”…., “aaaa.....” , “ye la… ye la…”, dan kadang kadang “diam lah!” .

Dia dah 3 tahun 7 bulan. Aku tak pasti sampai tahap mana anak aku tuh. Pandai ke dia baca ABC sampai Z ? Pandai ke dia mengira 123 sampai 10? Lancar ke lagi dia doa makan? Masih mengaji ke dia dengan nenek? Makan apa dia hari tu? Kemana dia mengekor pakciknya hari ni? Berapa ketinggian dia sekarang? Berapa berat badan dia sekarang? What did he learn today? Lagu apa yang dia sedang nyanyi tu? Mana perginya kaler pensel / pensel / pembaris, buku tulis, etc dia? Gila lama dah tak nampak benda-benda tu sampai aku dah tak ingat. Agaknya dah lama lah dia tak menulis / melukis.

Aku takleh nak kata ni semua jadi sebab aku bekerja. Ramai para ibu yang lain berkerja juga tapi interaksi dengan anak-anak sangat bagus. Ini cuma aku yang mengambil mudah serta mengikut rasa malas.

Apa nak jadi dengan aku ni.

Aiman sayang….. maafkan lah ibu.

My February... kind of...

Sebelum 2 followers aku blah, elok rasanya update blog ni.

Banyak yang nak rekodkan but so little time and energy. So, for my own record, I wanna summarize this entry into few topics.

Birthday & Wedding Anniversary
My birthday & Che Man’s birthday jatuh selang sehari on the first weekend of February. It went quietly except for many birthday wishes I received through FB. Thank you so much people. Tak dapat pun nak reply and say thank you satu-satu. But you know I love you all very the strong kan?

The whole Saturday on my birthday, Che Man had to work from morning to late night. Takde mood nak potong kek pun. Sampai sekarang tak redeem lagi voucher kek yang hotel bagi tu. So, I thought, cake-less ler we all. But, the next day balik kampung and my dear sister made us a very rich very yummy chocolate cake for tea time.

Both Che Man and I took day off to spend our day at spa and dating on our 4th anniversary in the 2nd week of February. Che Man who was skeptical on the spa thingy at last sangat menyesal kerana tak ikut my suggestion to have the 4-steps full body treatment instead of 1 hour couple massage. Tu laaaa… lenkali dengar gak cakap bini. Hal-hal macam ni lelaki mana tau, kan? We also went to movie, makan and shopped.

Muka gumbira dapat minum root bir dua gelas sekali

Aiman
I extended my leave after the anniversary celebration and took opportunity of Chinese New Year public holidays to stay home with Aiman. My aim was to train Aiman untuk pergi toilet everytime nak kencing and berak. Except for 2 incidents – one on the floor and another one on sofa, the few days training went well. Never in my life I felt so happy to see him terberak. Hahaha. Tapi amat-amat letih coz kejap-kejap nak kencing budak bertuah tu. I think Aiman felt the same coz my MIL told me that Aiman mengamuk-ngamuk nak pakai diaper later that week. Aduhai…. Dah beberapa hari ok, dia buat hal pulak tak nak continue. Came another weekend, I tried again but he refused to wear his pants without diaper. Seperti biasa, Aiman menang. Mendidih je darah aku tengok dia screaming, kicking, shouting. So pakaikan dia diaper and went to the zoo.

Ala.... takyah la gi toilet.... sini je lah....

New House
We finally received the house keys on 22nd. So we have about a month to arrange everything including to move into the new house. Must empty the rented house by last weekend of March.

After the handover from developer, straight away we confirmed some works with a contractor. Then we went and searched for kitchen cabinet and lights and fans. Well, actually not that fast la. We have done the surveys many times already. So that day was to confirm things la. It was very exciting and tiring activities.

So now the plaster ceiling is done, the hacking of the kitchen concrete slap done, kitchen plumbing relocated, grille done, lights and fans purchased, kitchen cabinet selected and measured. What left – to install the kitchen cabinet, fix lights & fans, paint the main gate, order curtain & blinders, clean the house, to source for 3 ton lorry untuk angkut barang, to purchase racks for store room, fix curtain & blinders, pack things up and move it! Move it!

Allo? Kenapa itu ceiling manyak tinggi?

Wa tarak rasa tu angin kipas pusing-pusing wa punya kepala atas

Rumah wa tarak aircond ma....

I also have put ‘FOR RENT’ signage in front of my rented house. I hope my nice landlord will receive fews calls on that. I have made claim for late delivery of property from the new house developer. The house was delivered about a month later than promised, but have not received any news yet. Yes, I’m kiasu like that, but I need the money to install aircond plak. Panas giler kan sekarang ni?

WORK
February was a short month. Rushing many things this month. Then, there was an annual dinner. Aku dah lama berazam dan dah lama berjaya tidak involve directly with annual dinner preparation. Bagi chance la kan kat budak-budak muda untuk buat semua ni. But this year, ntah macam mana termakan pujukan pulak terus jadi invitation and program manager. Invitation tu ok, but program ni sangat leceh. Nasib baik ramai yang volunteer tolong. But annual dinner deserve a different entry lah. So later with photo maybe.

Rokers Unite..... hahahaha

There are some changes in the organization structure. There some problems and issues that need urgent attention. There is refurbishment project coming. My boss is particularly busy running here and there to sort & solve things. I have no choice but to chase him *semput*

FAMILY
There are many issues that bothering me now. It seems, since last year satu-satu hal datang menjengah. Just to think about it makes my heart beats faster. Mostly about my younger sisters. You guys dah dewasa. I don’t want to keep talking about the same old stories. I don’t want to bagi nasihat itu dan ini as if I have a perfect life. But I love you all so much and I want you all to be happy. But I really hope you will do what you guys suppose to do. If you have to make life changing decision, pleaseeeeee discuss it with other family members with open heart and mind. The key word is : B.L.E.S.S.I.N.G.

My in-laws are busy now with wedding preparation for Che Man’s younger brother. I feel like I have not contributed anything meaningful in the process. Sibuk dengan hal & masalah sendiri je. I want to improve this situation. Kesian MIL & SIL, dapat menantu and in-law like me eh?

All in all, syukur pada Allah, I managed to stay alive & healthy till I am now 33 years old. My relationship with Che Man is stronger and happier. Aiman is growing fine, healthy, comel, bijak, entertaining and all that. We are going to experience new home and new place. I have made a list on how to improve my work performance and work attitude. Now, I felt fresh, motivated and excited about work all over again. I only hope some issues in my family resolve one by one.

Alhamdullillah.

Bedtime Stories - Dah Boleh Start ke?

Aku suka ke kedai buku. Paling suka tengok buku berderet-deret atas rak. Naper tah. Yang best juga kalau dapat menyelak magazine pasal artist-artis luar negara. Nak beli, tak mungkin lah. Harga bukan main. Tak lupa jugak aku suka tengok buku kanak-kanak.

Dah banyak kali, aku asyik berkira-kira nak belikan bedtime stories untuk Aiman. Aku belek buku tu dan buku ni, tapi masih tak beli-beli lagi. Banyak sangat yang aku pikir.

Paham ke Aiman kalau aku bacakan dia cerita ni?
Dia masih terlalu muda untuk bedtime stories.
Nanti bosan pulak dia sebab tak paham.
Kebanyakkan buku pulak dalam bahasa Inggeris.
Tapi buku bahasa Melayu pun, belum tentu dia paham.
Bila kalanya aku nak baca untuk dia.
Mamat ni tidur lambat benar.
Aku yang selalu tido dulu pada dia.
Habis camno ?

Balik-balik aku akan letak balik buku-buku tu kat rak. Kembali menyelak-nyelak magazine cerita artist luar negara. Tak pun membelai-belai best selling novels yang aku cuma boleh beli kalau ada 40% off.

Malam tadi, aku tengok si Aiman membelek ‘Health’ Magazine gambar joga instructor atas katil. Bukan Yoga instructor tu atas katil. Anak aku tengah membelek magazine tu atas katil. Kelakar pulak aku tengok dia menyelak-nyelak majalah tu macam paham benar dia.

Jam dah pukul 12.30pagi. Terus aku padamkan lampu. Jam-jam tu jugak aku rasa bersalah pasal padam lampu tu. Aiman menoleh and looked irritated pasal dah gelap. Dia baring, magazine tak lepas. Masih membelek. Aku pujuk dia lepaskan magazine tu tapi dia tak mahu. Seronok agaknya tengok gambar-gambar perempuan cantik dalam tu.

“Aiman nak taca butu ni lah....”.

Entah pukul berapa la dia tido.

Patut ke aku start bedtime stories session dengan dia. Tak kisah lah dia paham ke tak. Tak cuba mana kita tahu response dia kan?

He is going to be 3 years old this March. Korang start bedtime stories session dengan anak-anak korang bila?

Car Seat A.iman

Dah beberapa bulan aku ngan Che Man rancang nak belikan si A.iman car seat yang baru. Yang ada tu dah kecik untuk dia. Sian pulak tengok dia terkepit dalam car seat dia. Tapi good car seat expensive oooo. Check purse tengok… ok….. tangguh lagi.

So bila Pn. Coklat nak jual car seat si comel Afif, aku e-mail blog entry kat Che Man. Dapat green light terus contact Coklat.

Logistik was a bit problem at first. Timing tak berapa kena. Aku suh Che Man je jumpa dia orang, tapi laki aku ni penyegan (iyooo lah!). Last-last Cok & Yeop drove to Shah Alam tunggu depan opis aku. Alahai… kena pulak datang dari jauh. Tapi takpe kan Cok, at least leh le jejalan kat Shah Alam hujung minggu sambil buat customer service… lalalalala

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Hantar message guna telepati power malam tu.

Maka baju sama keler!

Dah jumpa blogger tersohor cam Cok, kena la ambik gambar kan? Genit je rupanya si Cok ni. Afif pun ada, tapi budak bertuah ni pemalu. Yeop pun ada. Cok… laki kau tak photogenik…. Dia lebih enchem in real life la… * lariksssssssss*
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Ok.. ok..datang balik…. Sebab citer belum habis lagi.

I love the car seat. Aiman pun excited. Warna nya sangat sesuai dengan kusyen aku yang kelabu tahi anjing and exterior keta aku yang merah.

Ipar aku tanya : “Elok sangat lagi conditionnya. Naper tak disimpan untuk anak-anak yang akan datang ?”. Tu kakak ipar aku tanya okey….. bukan aku. Sumpah.

Balik kampung Che Man kuarkan sebab nak adjust. Adik aku tetiba cakap “Kusi baru ke?”Aku jawab la second hand. Baru beli tadi. Pastu dia cakap “Macam car seat yang Pn. Coklat nak jual tu !" ------> Adik aku pun baca blog kau rupanya.

Kannnn….. aku dah cakappppppp. Kau memang blogger tersohor Coklat. Betuah Yeop - tetiba!

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"Amacam Afif? Nyesal ke jual?"

Selasa Aku Yang Semalam

Hari Selasa, tepat kul 10.30 malam aku mesti dah siap-siap semua kerja rumah. Sebab utama, aku kena duduk depan TV, tengok Desperate Housewives, sambil lipat kain.

Jadi, malam tadi takde pengecualian.

Tapi Aiman pulak buat hal. Bising-bising dia suh tukar channel. Sib baik sempat aku sorok-kan remote TV. Aku pujuk-pujuk dia untuk lupakan hasrat tu, sambil ajar dia lipat kain. Sebab aku acuh tak acuh je ajar dia (sibuk tengok TV lebihnya), dia pun start sarungkan baju-baju ke badan dia, betul-betul depan aku, menghalang TV.

"Tepi la Aiman…! Ibu nak tengok TV ni!” Aku tolak-tolak dia ketepi.

Sudahnya dia sungkupkan kepala aku dengan kain. Arghhhh ! Bertuah punya budak! Che Man pulak tolong gelak jer.

Pastu dia buat hal lagi. “Nak cucuuuuuu. Nak cucuuuu……”.
Aku minta tolong Che Man “Bang, tolong buat susu”.

Che Man bangun gi dapur. Aiman kejar dan tarik tangan dia.
“Naknak! Nanak ayah! Nak Ibu…… wat cucu…”

Che Man datang balik. Tak jadi buat susu. Aiman tarik tarik tangan aku. Tak dulik dia aku cakap “Jap jap aaaaa. Tunggu iklan”. Aiman terjerit-jerit. Aku buat tak tau jer.

Tiba-tiba dia berlari kedapur dan datang balik sambil bawak botol susu kosong. Dia letak botol atas lantai dekat aku. “Ni….ni… cucu… cucu….” Pastu lari ke dapur balik. Kali ni datang sambil peluk tin susu pulak. “Cucu…. Cucu la….” Letak dekat aku juga. Lari ke dapur lagi. Kali ni datang balik dengan tin biskut Jacob’s. Letak sesama ngan botol susu dan tin susu. Sambil tu mulut membebel-bebel. "Nak cucuuuu….. nak cucu….. nak cucu laaa..... ni la… ni la.. cucu la…".

Kali ni Che Man punya turn mengamuk dengan aku. Terus capai botol & susu, pi dapur nak buat susu.

Desperate housewives belum iklan lagi.

Tapi gegak-gempita kat dapur menyakit telinga. Kat dapur, Aiman dah bergayut kat kaki Che Man - tak bagi dia buat susu. Aku pun ambil alih.

Dah sumbat susu, aman sekejap.

Desperate Housewives belum habis lagi.

Che Man gi mandi. Aiman mana tah. Aku masih melopong tengok TV. Tiba-tiba aku dengar benda jatuh. Aiman terlolong. Panik. Aku lari cari dia. Kat dapur takde, masuk stor takde. Rerupanya kat dalam bilik. Table fan, dia dan bangku tempat letak table fan semuanya tergolek. Melolong-lolong si Aiman (mamat ni drama memang kuat!)

Aku angkat dia letak atas katil. Checked kepala, kaki, tangan, badan. Nasib baik semuanya ok. “Apa jadi? Aiman buat apa tadi?”

Dia bangun pergi kat table fan dan angkat fan tu sambil cakap “Camni la… camni la….. ".- dia buat demo incident tadi. Ohhh.. paham. Aku pernah nampak dia angkat table fan dari atas bangku, letak kat lantai, pastu heret bangku tadi letak kat depan dressing table and panjat. Objektif dia untuk ‘mengemas’ dressing table aku.

Tetiba aku rasa macam geli hati pulak.

Turn aku pulak tergolek atas katil gelak sorang-sorang. Teringat dia protes channel TV tadi, Macam mana dia menyarung baju tak tentu hala depan aku untuk alih perhatian aku daripada TV, pasal kesanggupan dia menyungkup kepala aku dengan kain bila aku tolak dia ketepi supaya aku boleh tengok TV, pastu sungguh-sungguh sediakan bahan buat susu dia depan aku dan gaya dia tergolek, terkial-kial cuba bangun kat dalam bilik tadi.

Adoi la…. Dah lama tak gelak camtu.

Selain daripada Desperate Housewives, Selasa aku yang semalam memang menghiburkan.

Korang?

Buah Hati Pengarang Jantung

"Tak lama lagi saya berumur 2 tahun 3 bulan.

So please excuse my one-size smaller t-shirt tu..."

(apa kena mengena?)

Beberapa bulan dulu, Aiman sibuk mengejek cakap-cakap orang,

tapi sekarang dia dah pandai berlagak bila bercakap.

Scene 1:
I went to visit a friend.

My friend’s mother introduced herself to Aiman “Ini Tok”.

Aiman looked at her with confuse face and replied “Nenek la…..”

then pointed his finger at my friend’s father. “Tu Atuk…”.

Scene 2:
Aiman was eating in his nenek’s kitchen when he spotted

his 5-year-old cousin sister climbing the staircase backward.

He said “Adikkk……. tatuh (jatuh), adikkkk…..nanti tatuh laaaa....”.

His atuk suddenly appeared in the kitchen and said to him

“Wah pandai pulak nasihat kan orang ye?”.

Aiman replied “Hi Tuk…. Makan atuk?”.

Sambil suap nasi dengan selamba. Dah cam gaya orang bujang je.

Scene 3:
I had severe headache and rested on my bed.

I called for Aiman to teman. “Aiman sayang. Ibu sakit ni. Meh urut”.
He came and asked “Ibu takit maner?”
I touched my forehead.
He rubbed my forehead, kissed it and said “Dah?”.
On his way back to the hall, I heard him reported to Che Man,

"Ayah…. Ibu takit ayah…..”

Again I called him (bosan pulak baring sorang-sorang).
He didn’t answer.

So Che Man said to him “Aiman… ibu panggil!”.

But Aiman buat dunno jer.

Ada la empat lima kali Che Man ulang ayat tu.
From my room, I can see Aiman finally came to Che Man sambil cekak pinggang,

looked irritated and mengomel :

“Hey Ayah ni….. ibu pangil, ibu pangil!”.

*He came to me and rubbed my forehead anyway*

Lega sikit rasanya.

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During his 2nd birthday party - March 2009

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2nd day with Chicken Pox - March 2009

Today A.iman is 2 Years Old

For my own pleasure,

I have uploaded few photos

(eh.. tipu, many photos actually) of him .

Happy Birthday my dear A.iman N.uruddin.

May you always have His blessing & love.

Have wonderful years ahead.

1 Day Old

1 and half month.

Masa bersiap pergi specialist.

He had lump in his neck. Luckly, nothing serious.

2 months.

Finally at our house in Klang.



3 Months.


6 Months.
Cukur Jambul.

After cukur jambul.
First time botak.

7 Months.

Baru pandai meniarap.

7 months.

Got his Kad Pengenalan.

8 months.

Sedang belajar berdiri.

9 Months.

First Aidilfitri for him.

1 Year.

During his birthday party.

11 months.

After herniotomy operation.

14 Months.

15 Months.

Exploring children playground for the first time.

16 Months.

His style of sleeping.

17 Months.

Pantang tengok kucing, mesti nak tarik ekor.

19 Months.

His second Aidilfitri.

20 Months.

He loves camera.

22 Months.

Mula belajar naik basikal.

22 Months.

Dah pandai nak cuba main video games.

23 Months.

First time in swimming pool.

Dah la Ibu.... Malu la bebanyak gambar camni.

Hadiah harijadi mana?

Panas Badan, Sawan Angin (dan Mahkluk Halus?)

Sejak Aiman mula merangkak lagi, MIL & SIL asyik suruh kami bawak Aiman pergi berurut. Budak kecik kena urut katanya sebab badan dia dalam stage macam tu akan sakit-sakit. Sebab tu meragam.

We never did bring him for massage.

Until recently MIL & SIL mentioned that my son selalu terkejut dari tidur. Tak bagus untuk urat saraf. Kami patut bawa dia urut. Lagi pun berurut tu memang baik untuk budak-budak. Ibu tak berpengalaman macam aku ni, setuju saja.

Kami pun berjumpa dengan bidan kampung yang dikatakan pakar mengurut perempuan & kanak-kanak.

Mula-mula pegang Aiman, bidan tu commented that badan Aiman panas dari biasa tapi tak sampai tahap demam. Pada aku itu memang biasa. Badan dia memang selalu panas. Ramai orang komen macam tu tapi takle panas macam demam. Lagi pun dia sangat aktif dan kuat berpeluh. Mungkin sebab tu badan dia selalu terasa panas? Teori sendiri ni.

Bidan tu tak setuju. Itu tanda yang tak bagus katanya. Lalu dia lumurkan badan Aiman dengan sejenis air (ada sejenis tumbuhan dalam mangkuk tu, tak tau apa dia). Air tu cam melekit sikit. Tapi aku kecewa sikit sebab dia tak urut pun. Sapu-sapu badan dengan air je.

Pas tu dia belek-belek muka Aiman and said “Muka dia ni, mahklus halus suka. Ada yang mengikut dan kacau-kacau sikit”.

Pulak dahhhh! Honestly, aku tak percaya tapi aku angguk-anguk je la.

Result?
Bidan tu bagi air tu untuk aku guna bila-bila badan Aiman panas. Tapi aku tak guna & dan dah buang pun (sebab dah lama sangat). Badan dia dah tak panas macam dulu lagi. Itu result positif yang ketara setakat ni. But for some reasons, kita orang tak pergi lagi sana, walaupun bidan tu ada pesan supaya datang lagi.

Last week of December we went to Sekinchan, Selangor. MIL visited her besan there and we had lunch at Selera Rimba, Sg. Lembing. Mak aiii… jauh ke dalam, sampai aku ingat kami akan masuk hutan. Masakan jenis Banja & Jawa.

Aku tunjuk gambar sikit la. Baru real.

Banner (takleh makan ni), Daging Landak & Daging Kijang

Daging Ayam Hutan, Ikan Baung & Ikan Puyu


After that, MIL went for massage. Rupa-rupa nya my Che Man sudah pakat sama kakak dia for Aiman to be massaged too.

Before she massages Aiman, she showed me 2 benjolan belakang telinga Aiman. According to her, Aiman ada sawan angin. Then she checked his body & face and you know what she said?
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“Ada mahkluk halus yang cuba dekat dengan dia! Tu la tidur dia terganggu”

Okey…. Dua orang tukang urut cakap benda yang sama! Camna ni? Adakah mereka telah berpakat; smsed or e-mailed each other the night before? Mungkin kah?

She gave me multiple choices:
a) Buang angin Aiman
b) Jauhkan Mahkluk halus
c) Kedua-duanya di atas.

Aku pilih (C). Obviously.

All the time when his nenek being massaged, Aiman was there observing. Bila tiba giliran dia, bukan main ready lagi. He enjoyed it very much. Sekejap terlentang, sekejap meniarap, sekejap duduk walaupun ada masa nya muka berkerut-kerut tahan sakit. He also showed the makcik some part of his body (according to the makcik, he knows which part of his body yang tak berapa sedap). When she massaged his stomach, aku dengar bunyi :

Trupppppp……. Trupppppp……

Bunyi angin dalam perut dia, kata makcik tu la.

Anak ibu telah memberikan kerjasama yang baik. Bagus!

Next Aiman dimandikan dengan dua jenis air. Satu jenis yang agak melekit sikit, dan satu lagi baunya macam air limau. Mandi ni untuk menghalau mahkluk halus.

We paid RM150. I am not sure whether there was a miscommunication between SIL, Che Man & the makcik, but I think, it is too expensive (berkira kan aku ni?) coz yang aku tahu berurut dengan dia cuma RM15 to RM30 sahaja. So, mandi manda RM120? Ntahla. Apa pun, jangan risau ya mak cik, coz saya halal kan.

Anyway, the makcik suruh kita orang ulang lagi at least lagi 2 kali.

Result?
Susah aku nak cakap. Dalam beberapa hari lepas urut tu, Aiman berak cair jer. Tak pasti ini ada kena mengena dengan process buang angin tu atau tidak. Tapi sesekali dia kembung juga lagi. Dia masih lagi sekali sekala terkejut-kejut dalam tidur. Sesekali teringat, he’ll ask me to massage his back.

Pasal mahkluk halus yang nak geng ngan anak aku tu, pun aku tak pasti camna. Confuse la nak percaya ke tidak. Aku cuma nak anak aku sihat, normal & happy. Yang lain-lain aku serahkan kebenarannya pada Dia. Cuma Dia yang maha mengetahui akan segala sesuatu.

Wallahhuallam.

Cerita Si Aiman

He is now 1 year 8 months.

Perkara yang paling ketara dengan Aiman sekarang ialah, dia sedang belajar bercakap. Dia dah ingat banyak benda dan belajar sebut macam-macam. Chatter box budak ni.

Dalam kereta setiap pagi & petang about 20 minutes to / from his nenek’s house, apa yang dia nampak dalam perjalanan semua dia try nak sebut dan tunjuk. For examples; Lo..ie… (Lorry), Bash (Bus), Oto (Motor), Ka..kar.. (Car) yang paling tak bleh blah is ‘Ayah Pin’ which means ‘Airplane’!. We never teach him; but he could associate some vehicles with some names; like whenever he sees Innova, he’ll say ‘Pak Yong’ (Pak Long = my BIL who is driving Innova). When he sees a motorcycle that look likes his uncle bike, he’ll says ‘Achik’. Whenever he sees river / pond, he’ll say ‘Iskh’ ‘Iskh’ which means ‘fish’. Kekadang tu, nampak air lopak pun dia tegur "Iskh ishk"' jugak. Bila dah dekat nak sampai tol, he’ll say “tit tit” (smart tag / Touch & Go). Balik dari ambik dia, kalau kami melencong dari jalan ynag biasa kami ikut, he’ll get risau. Tengok kiri kanan and look at us. Dia tau tu bukan jalan yang biasa kami ikut. Expresi muka konpius.


He has been calling Che Man & my self ‘ayah’ and now he has started to call me ‘BU’. It melts my heart whenever he calls us coz the way he calls us is sooooo manja. Words can’t describe my feeling whenever I hear him calling us like that. Heaven! However, at times dia sengaja menyakat aku ngan Che Man by calling us ‘Pak Tam’and ‘Mak Tam’ like how his cousins call us.

So sekarang, tengah sibuk nak belajar bercakap ni, macam-macam benda dia dah pandai minta / arah. For example:
· Nak mam achik (nak makan nasi) – sambil panjat kerusi makan.
· Ting ner? Ting? (punting mana? punting?) – sambil angkat-angkat kening
· Bush tess (brush teeth) – sambil ketuk pintu bilik air
· Nak Air
· Nak cucu / mirk (nak susu / milk)
· Bik Bik / Tip tip (ambil / kutip) – sambil tunjuk barang yang dia nak.

He could counts, tapi tak pernah sampai sepuluh. Nampaknya dia sangat cepat bosan bila kita start to teach him 123 atau ABC. I can ask him to urut my legs – those lovely-so-smooth-little fingers really can make me relax. But as I said, dia cepat bosan, urut tak sampai seminit, pas tu lari.

When he plays, he likes to play with round things lebih-lebih lagi kalau benda tu berpusing. I think he is quite obsess with round things. Sejak kecil lagi dia suka tengok benda bulat & berpusing. He recognizes mcam-macam jenis kipas. He’ll say “fan fan” when he sees one. Macam tu jugak dengan tayar. Lori yang lalu sebelah kereta tu punya la besar, dia sibuk nak tengok tayar je.

Asyik betul dia kalau dapat tayar

Sekarang dia dah faham yang dia mesti baca doa sebelum makan, sebelum kereta bergerak dan sebelum tidur. Tapi masih tunggang terbalik dan pelat dan omit itu dan ini. Bila orang lain baca doa, dia aminkan. Yang aku tak larat, selamba je dia angkat takbir & sujud depan bilik air. Itu alas kaki la sayang, bukan sejadah!

Tengah baca doa makan

Bila dia ambil barang tangan kiri, kami akan tanya, “Tangan mana?”. Dia akan angkat tangan kanan pas tu baru hulur kat kita. Mula-mula dulu, aku tanya spontan je, rupa-rupanya dia dah belajar dari nenek dia. Satu lagi yang dia biasa buat tapi bukan aku yang ajar; he’ll say ‘masehhh’ (terima kasih) bila kita bagi dia something atau sambut barang yang dia hulur. So cute.

Ya Allah! That is very nice word from him everyday, many times a day. He’ll say this at almost perfect tone and pronounciation whenever he sees something patah, tumpah, pecah, berselerak --------> konon-konon terperanjat sangat lah. tu. Kadang-kadang yang pecahkan / tumpahkan dia la culprit nya, dia akan just walk away and later come back, pura-pura terrrrr…nampak kesan perbuatan dia tadi and shout like he is so surprise “Ya Allah! Ya Allah! Empahhhh! (tumpah) ” Emm…... aku nak marah pun tak jadi.

Dia sekarang dah tinggi. Dah dapat capai barang dari almari dapur dan dah boleh buka pintu bilik air sendiri. Terpaksa aku takut-takut kan dia pasal hot bowl / pot / mug by saying “Hot! Hot”. Bila dengar camtu, dia tak berani usik (mula-mula nak ajar dia dulu, aku sentuhkan sikit jari dia pada hot mug). Taktik ni jugak yang aku gunakan bila aku tak mau dia kacau aku minum kopi. I’ll say to him “hot! hot!” terus member tak jadi usik mug aku. Kalau kat bilik air, he’ll say “icin icin” (licin) sambil tunjuk lantai, but he will step into the bathroom anyway.

When it comes to food, he loves spicy & hot food. He also prefer mee, pasta, roti rather than rice. But he does not eat a lot. Nasib baik dia kuat minum susu and has no problem taking his vitamins.

Suka makan sendiri

Satu yang buat aku pening. Hampir setiap malam dia tidur lebih kurang kul 1.30 pagi. We all dah tak larat dah. Macam-macam cara aku buat, dari pujuk, tepuk, tutup semua lampu, takut-takut kan dia, marah dan lepuk; semua tak jalan.

Like last night, it was around 1am, lepas kena marah ngan Che Man dia baring mengiring arah dinding. Lama camtu, ingatkan dah tido. Aku pun tertidur. Alih-alih aku sedar dia senyap-senyap dan pelan-pelan cuba melangkah aku & Che Man. Cuba nak turun dari katil. It was so funny to see him keras when I move a bit, pas tu continue his project. Sekali tu, Che Man yang sedang tidur kalih badan, Aiman cepat-cepat melompat over me to his side of the bed, pretended to sleep ------> tu kes takut kena marah ngan ayah dia la tuh! Pelakon! Cam tu la everynight.

Entah pukul berapa dia tidur, aku pun tak pasti.

This morning, Che Man told me, he found Aiman punya mainan dalam bilik. Meaning, si Aiman ada bangun (masa kita orang dah tido), ambik mainan tu dari bekas permainan dia kat living room and bring them into the bedroom. See? Dengan lampu semua dah tutup, tinggal lampu garage je, berani dia tu!

Dulu, Aiman guna buaian. Memang asalnya tak mau kasi dia tidur buai, but if you follow this blog earlier, you know how & why I changed my decision on the matter. Later, after buaian at his nenek’s dah ranap, he has problem sleeping there also. Kesian nenek pening kepala, we sent the buaian there and now we have this problem pulak! We endured for few months hoping things will get better but it getting worse.

So this week, we all dalam dilemma whether or not to buy him a new buaian. And this morning, I could not stand it anymore “Beli buai dia malam ni jugak!” I told Che Man. “Esok je kita gi beli. Esok kan kita cuti” sib baik Che Man setuju.

Tinggal satu malam lagi.

Missing His Progress

This happened when Aiman was 13 and half months. So, it is quite a basi story. However, I think it is important for me to make a record here.

When Aiman was 1 year old, we got worried that he still showed no sign of walking properly. In fact he was so lazy to try. Dibantainya lah merangkak ke hulu ke hilir. I had tried so many times to encourage and train him to walk, but he didn’t even want to stand properly. So I just got fed-up and leave it to him to take action.

Few weeks berlalu. In those weeks we picked him up late almost everyday. So kesian him. Kadang-kadang belum sampai rumah, dia dah tertido dalam kereta. Kalau dia tak tido pun, sampai rumah, I golek-golek dengan dia atas katil sekejap and later put him in his cot so that I can start doing the house chores. Or else he will play with Che Man till he feels sleepy.

I was so selfish.

I just wanted him to sleep early so that I can do the house chores faster and then rest / sleep. He had not much time anyway coz we only reached home about 10pm every night.

So, one day we came back late as usual. When I opened my MIL’s front door, I saw Aiman walking around the living room.

Terpaku aku sekejap. Ni bukan nya jalan-jalan jatuh atau jalan berpimpin. He was walking unassisted.

I grabbed my camera to record him but the memory card decided to ‘full-itself’ after few seconds of recording. Sudah camtu, tak sempat adjust brightness. Ni ler yang dapat dirakam.

According to my SIL, it has been quite sometimes that Aiman berani walks many steps. Actually she did mentioned it to me few days before that. Aku rasa, aku jer yang tak berapa beri perhatian pada progress Aiman these few weeks sebab dah penat bila balik kerja.

Lame excuse. I know.

Aiman sayang,

I am so very sorry that I did not pay much attention to your development these past few weeks. I promise I will make more time to play with you. I’ll pick you up earlier so that we have more time together. I will dedicate more of my time and energy to care and teach you the ABC and 123 – something I postponed too often.

I will bring you to play outside on weekend, coz I know how much you like to be outside the house. I’ll show you the real birds, cats and dogs. I know you already tired of seeing lorry, busses, cars, traffic lights, shell, esso and mat rempit every morning and night.

I will take out all toys that I put away from you and let you play with them in anyway you prefer. I’ll make no fuss over the house condition after your playing session.

I will cook for you different types of porridges and let you taste different types of biscuits, fruits or drinks. I will let you touch your food and explore the texture with your cute little fingers. Nevermind if I have to mop the floor after that.

I will let you climb the staircase whenever you feel like it and still be around should you miss a step or two or three or four.

We have changed the TV channels subscription so you could select your favorite programs other than CSI, House, Desperate Housewives, Konsert Akademi Fantasia Musim ke-6, Ugly Betty and Nip/Tuck. Later you can introduce me to Thomas & Friends, Pinggu (I don’t even know how to spell it), Mickey Mouse, Donald Duck, Spiderman, Ultraman, etc. However, I would not encourage you to watch ‘T*m T*m B*k’ – budak pompuan pakai mekap tebal, baju sexy, menggoyang kan bontot nya pada lagu Shakira is not very suitable for you sayang.

So,

In years to come, when you have access to internet and if I remember to give you my URL and when you able to understand my horrible English & terrible Malay, you have no choice but to accept that I am not a perfect mother but at least have tried to be a good one to you.

I love you Aiman.

Pst: Just try not to sleep too late everynight.

Tak Keruan

Untuk pertama kali – yes, for the first time, Aiman nangis sampai berjujai-jujai airmata pagi ni bila kami tinggal dia untuk pergi kerja. Selalunya, kami sama-sama hantar dia ke rumah mak sebelum pergi kerja. Tapi sebab hari ni pagi-pagi buta aku ada meeting, Che Man hantarkan aku ke opis dulu, Aiman duduk dalam car seat kat depan, aku kat belakang. Macam tu la biasanya kalau Che Man perlu hantar aku dulu.

Dah sampai opis, aku buka pintu kereta depan untuk kiss Aiman. Selalunya dia buat deeekkk jer sambil babai babai aku, but this time, upon realizing that I am not going to pick him up from his seat, he gave loud cries sampai kuar airmata. Berjurai-jurai airmata dia bila aku tutup balik pintu kereta sambil tangan dia mengapai-ngapai nak suh aku dukung.

Sebak hati aku tengok dia camtu.

Aku tahan saja perasaan, kuat kan semangat and berfikir yang positif saja. Padahal, hati aku tak keruan.

After the meeting, I called Che Man and asked him about Aiman. According to Che Man he cried from my office until when they reached his nenek’s house. Bila Che Man nak pi kerja lak, dia menagis lagi. Selalunya, paling teruk pun, dia merajuk jer – berpaling tak mao pandang kita orang when we sakat him by saying that we wanna go 'an' (jalan-jalan).

Later MIL told Che Man that Aiman is ok already. Hopefully dia baik-baik saja lah hari ni. Aku tak dapat elak dari berfikir perkara-perkara buruk yang mungkin berlaku pada dia hari ni. Nahuzubbillah!

I already got the confirmation on the surgery date – 3rd April. Aiman will have to fast for 6 hours before the operation. Ni yang susah. Aiman kuat minum and the time stipulated are not very convenient. I have to adjust his susu, makan and tido time from today onwards, so that he will not melalak kehausan, kelaparan dan buat perangai on that day.

I still owe him entries about his birthday party (2 weeks ago) and his visit to specialist (1 week ago).

Untuk Mengelakan Blog Berabuk

…… aku kena update la kan?

This entry is supposedly about Aiman’s birthday parties (yes… we had two birthday parties for him) but I don’t think I have enough time to blog about it now.

So…. later la.

Yesterday Che Man & I took annual leave. We brought Aiman to see a specialist / surgeon. Finally we decided to face the reality that Aiman is actually having a problem (or has potential?).

Bad news.

An operation is advised to be scheduled as soon as possible.

My poor baby.

I can’t imagine him on operation table, being cut with a sharp knife, needled & wired here and there.

* nak nangis…..*

One-Year-Old Baby with Blue-Black Forehead

Last night, at around 12 something, Che Man & I sang “Happy Birthday” song to Aiman. Aiman also took part by dancing away. My baby is 1 year old today. He is no more baby, but a toddler (Ye ker?).

Penat Che Man membuainya tidur malam tadi, but when he transferred him to bed, Aiman woke-up. It was already one-something in the morning and both of us were very sleepy already. In fact we have not had any good sleep since last week coz Aiman sleeps very late; 2am to 3am. Sleep-deprived parents last night tried to ignore Aiman but he had threatened to jump out of the bed few times. Afraid of the same incident like this one, I took him out of the room and put him into his buaian and buai him while sitting on the sofa. It was around 2.20am.

Suddenly I felt like the buaian is jerking hard and simultaneously I heard bunyi bedebuk.

I got-up in panic and found Aiman on the floor. Face down.

Aku beristighfar loudly in disbelieve. I picked him up and hugged him. He was crying very loud.

I inspected his hands and legs. They look normal. Aiman was still crying loudly.

I switched on the light. Only then I saw his forehead swollen. Not only swollen, it has scratches too! OMG!

I was really panic.

I shouted for Che Man who didn’t seem to be affected by the loud cries from Aiman. I had to slap his shoulder to wake him up. I told him about Aiman jatuh buaian and all he said was “Awak tertidur ke?”. Question that only made me angry.

Angry to myself coz tetidur. Angry to myself coz forgot to fasten the safety pin for the buaian.

I looked at the wall clock and realized, I only slept for few minutes. But in those crucial few minutes, I had caused Aiman pain and shocks.

I felt horrible.

While Aiman still crying I insisted to tuam his forehead. He finally dozed off. His body damp with sweats. Maybe because he cried so much. I took another 30 minutes to make sure the swollen area subside by continue tuam his head. After that I inspected his whole head and found there is another area but covered by his hairs. Now I remember he had fallen onto the buaian’s base. The square base made from steel where the screws in the middle part had left scratches on his head. My poor baby.

(I was tempted to snap photo of his swollen forehead, but I didn’t do it)

Before I went back to sleep, I asked forgiveness from him for my carelessness. I pray for the damage to stop there. Hopefully he has no other injury.

This morning, he woke up as usual; asking for milk and change of diaper. After finishing his 7oz of milk, he stood up and did his little dance to the birthday song I sang to him.

Happy 1st Birthday Aiman Nuruddin.

I am sorry that you will have to celebrate your special day with swollen and blue-black forehead.

I can’t wait to go home today. I’ll make it up to you baby.

On Parenting

This morning, I made a request to order Aiman's birthday cake through HR department. Instead of signing for 50% discount for 1 kg cake, HR staff (my lunch partner) allowed me to have 2 kg birthday cake with 50% discount (as per policy, we only can get 50% discount for 1kg cake). Yaaahoooo! I requested for cartoon character but can't decide on which character.

So my lunch partner asked, "What cartoon Aiman likes to watch?"

"Umur dia baru setahun la. Mana ada dia watch TV or shows preference on any cartoon or superhero character", I told her.

"Maybe you never gave him chance to have any....."

she tried to put some senses into my head.

This lunch partner of mine is an experienced mother, so I give a thought to what she just said. Maybe she is right. Whenever we watch TV, we only watch ur fav channels - nothing for babies or kids. I never tried encourage Aiman to watch TV what more baught him any DVD or CD, thinking it is still too early for him.

Am I doing the right thing? Should I encourage him to watch somekind of TV program or start buying CDs / DVDs for him to watch. Or is it still too early for that?

After I heard my lunch partner nagging about me being so clueless and nopt proactive, I proceeded to pastry kitchen to send my order. I told the pastry chef I want a cartoon character - any cartoon character yang dia sangat pandai buat.

"What cartoon he likes to watch?", asked the chef.

"He is only 1-year-old boy. I don't think he cares", aku cuba berdalih.

"But he will be delighted to see his fav character on his cake", he replied.

I am clueless.

I feel terrible.