Ramadan & Syawal 2012

Ramadan itu paling bermakna.
Syawal itu paling istimewa.

Benar janji Allah.
Mengadu PadaNya.
Memohon PadaNya.
Insaf, tawaduk & tawakal.
Maka Insyaallah, diperkenankaNya.

Benar janji Allah.
DugaaNya dalam pelbagai bentuk.
Sabar, usaha dan redha.
Maka Insyaallah, nampak hikmahNya.

Ya Allah,
Ampuni lah kami.
Kuat lah hati kami.
Teguh kan lah cinta kami.
Lindungi lah kami.
Sembuhkan lah luka ini.

Allah Huakhbar.

AMIN.

Ahli Baru

Presenting our new Bundle of Joy

A.meer N.azeem Bin N.orazman

5th April 2011, Tuesday, 12.50am

3.06kg

Summary Update eh?

Dear blog… kesian kau lama ber-update! Hehehe. Aku takde alasan. Tak le busy sangat. Cuma mungkin penyakit MAFALASFAS yang menyerang.

By the way, too many things happened & happening. I will just summarize them here.

Aiman Tatut
Things getting better with Aiman after we played the bacaan Quran in the house regularly. Pas tu bulan puasa pulak, lansung takde kesan yang tak diingini. Betul lah setan-setan ni kena tambat semua. Cuma sekarang ni, when we start taking this for granted (ingatkan dah orait 100%), Aiman has started to complain “tatutttttt….” Just few days ago dia dok tunjuk-tunjuk ceiling, mata terbuntang-buntang (like trying hard to see an object in the dim light). Masa tu aku sedikit panik. Dalam hati terpikir, “Nak kena rasuk ke anak aku ni?” Dah lah masa tu Che Man takde. Dalam masa panik tu sempat lagi aku pikir soklan untuk draft action plan:

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“In case Aiman kena rasuk dek jin laknat malam ni”:
i) Berapa kuat aku kena menjerit untuk kejut kan jiran sebelah?
ii) Sapa yang aku kena telephone?
iii) Perlu ke aku siram air kat dia?
iv) Perlu aku lempang dia?
v) Ayat apa yang aku kena baca?
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Tapi lepas tu aku goncang-goncang badan dia. When he looked at me, aku sedar dia tak kena rasuk pun. So aku slow talk dengan dia. Try to convince him that he will be ok. Nothing will disturb him. Semangat dia lebih kuat. Dia berani, bla bla bla. Finally Aiman nodded him head and agreed to try to sleep.

I must start to play the CD again.

Pregnancy
One day my boss told me that I looked different. He said I put on weight quite drastically as if I’m pregnant. I told him recently my appetite very good, but I’m not pregnant. He told me he suspects I’m pregnant and I might want to check that.

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Few days after that, Che Man told me he legs cramped so badly the night before. I remember thinking, “That is MY symptom during pregnancy”. Straight away I went to pharmacy and purchased pregnancy test kit. Yada yada yada….. positive!

Ada hari aku mabuk teruk, ada hari tak berapa teruk, ada hari yang ok je. Pelik sikit pregnancy kali ni. Tomorrow is going to be 3 months. But many people commented my tummy is so big for 3-month-pregnant tummy. Some suggested I’ve miss-calculated, some said kembar and some even said I’m diabetic! OMG! Tonight I’m going for 2nd check-up and first scan. Hopefully everything will be fine.

Ramadhan 2010
The first week of Ramadhan aku dok bersungguh-sungguh lah. Walaupun awal pregnancy tapi tenaga baik betul. Berangan nak puasa sebulan. Masa minggu kedua mabuk-mabuk dah start. Not able to eat (walau pun tak puasa), getting up for sahur teman Che Man, forced to reach office at 7.30am, the mual, the muntah, the smell of food from PARAM anf the smell of people around me really bothered me.

So no Ramdhan buffet at hotels for me this year. Only once at BlueWave while assisting a charity event. No point paying so much and not enjoying the food. No PARAM-hoping. In fact the only PARAM I went adalah di PKNS Shah Alam. Tu pun sebab paling dekat ngan tempat kerja. Nasib baik lah some dear friends invited me for iftar at their places or at some restaurants. Soal Terawih lagi lah sedih nya.

In different note, family gathering were often. This maybe nothing for you all. But I know these two persons on perang dingin since so many years. Berkat Ramadhan, they sat side by side for iftar. Hiba sungguh aku. Pas tu, maybe for the first time in my life, I saw them solat berjemaah. Allah Maha Besar. Moga perang dingin yang dah berpuluh tahun tu tamat.


Aidilfitri 2010
I feel a bit better mungkin sebab aku leh mengunyah sikit at anytime bagi melegakan rasa mual. I was hungry all the time so aku makan je walau pun makanan semua rasa tak sedap dan pas tu kekadang muntah balik. But I enjoy the festive mood, the happy faces, the family gatherings, the extended leaves, the raya activities, etc. etc. After that, I missed so many open houses coz Che Man had to work. Same is going to happen this weekend. Anyway, raya deserve a different blog entry, so wait lah yek.

Eh?
Tetiba blank.

Dapat Dah

Ehem.... ehemmmm....

Korang nampak tak?

Nampak?

Pesal pulak tak nampak?

Aku tau lah tak sebesar mana pun......

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Ni haaaa.......

Nampak?

Wakakakakaa

Tak sia-sia aku letak entry sebelum ni.

(Entry ala-jakun-orang-lain-dah-lama-dapat-aku-selalu-je-paling-lambat!)

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Apa-apa pun, saya sudahi entry ini dengan ucapan

terima kasih dan sayang buat Che Man,

serta terima lah wajah seorang heart breaker

ehem... ehem....

Rumah

We were off from work yesterday. That’s explained why the happy status in the FB on 15th. (well, before that makhluk perosak status lah).

Went to our house and saw this.

Dinding car porch dah bertukar bentuk

Jiran aku buat renovation nampaknya. Walaupun sedikit sentap sebab they all sentuh wall kita tak bagitau, tapi tak kisah sangat lah. Dah siap nanti tu, cantik lah kot. Tapi aku tengok wall tu cracked. Dah tu simen dah keras berterabur habis kena tiles & ceiling. Bila Che Man tanya supervisor dia, bila nak cat wall belah kita org tu, dia jawab dengan kasar. “Lepas semua siap, kita orang cat lah!”. Cilakak betul. Orang tanya baik-baik, dia main kasar lak. Kalau ye pun takkan biarkkan simen berterabur kat belah lain sampai kering. Dah la takde courtesy, tak cermat pulak tu.

Actually, mamat tu bengang ngan kita orang sebab tak ambik khidmat dia. The day dia approached aku tu je cakap, “Kak… kita sesama Melayu, boleh bincang lah…..”. Kepantangan aku orang guna approach camtu.

Aku ada gak considered dia tu, tapi aku ter-jumpa beberapa komen yang tak baik pasal khidmat dia dalam community forum B.andar B.ukit R.aja. Jenis yang tabur janji macam-macam, quality kerja tak bagus, kerja lembab asyik nak kena follow-up je. Bila aku tengok wall yang merekah tu, aku syukur takde kena-mengena dengan dia. Pekerja dia, kerja waktu pagi je. Pas kul 1 petang, stop kerja, mandi, ampai kain bagai, pas tu tido sampai petang. Sekali tuan rumah datang, mengelupur.

Anyway…..

A tailor for curtain came as scheduled. She went and measured every window and I went “Eh…. We all tak order curtain untuk window ni la”. She answered me that she wants to keep a record, in case I change my mind later. Confident je minah tu. Cukup le. I didn’t give much attention on curtain or budget for curtain. I thought, whatever la…. Cannot be so expensive what..... Sekali ambik kau…… double the budget. Only after that I checked, my initial budget was a bit too low la. terpaksa la aku terima hakikat yg aku tak pandai buat budget.

Then, installers for kitchen cabinet came. These guys stopped & parked their lorry at the car porch, angkat tangan to acknowledge my presence, unloaded things and started doing their job. Setiap sorang ada kerja sendiri. Tak nampak pun they all borak-borak, hisap rokok, rehat. Kerja je..... tak bunyik-buyik.

Pelik gak aku. Tak ke dia orang nak confirm kan alamat rumah tu dulu, design atau apa-apa material yang dia orang bawa. The only thing they said, “Ada penyapu tak?” and “Sudah siap Kak”. It took them 4 hours to complete the installation.

Sebelum

Selepas

While all other things happening, Che Man was fixing lights & fans in the house. Nasib baik Che Man boleh buat. Mendengus-dengus gak le member tu dalam kepanasan. Suka hati. Janji siap. Kalau tak, nak kena upah orang pulak. Duit lagi. Only we unable to fix one light in the hall. The ceiling is a bit too high, tangga tak sampai. I think we have no choice but to pay someone else to do it for us. This weekend baru boleh settle kot.

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Laki sapa nih?

We brought a can of paint to paint the fence and gate. Kekonon nak sama kaler ngan our grille. Aku le yang patut cat tu. Aku cakap ngan Che Man, aku takut duduk luar sorang-sorang. Takut kena kidnap. The actual fact: it was so hot outside. Makcik tak sanggup. Elok-elok datang tadi brown light-light, kang balik glossy black lak.

It seems my both side neighbors are Malay families. Sempat jumpa yang sebelah kiri, rumah sedang renovate. Maybe masuk end of the year. Yang sebelah kanan pulak, tak sempat bertegur, nampak dia orang datang & pergi je. Tak lama lagi masuk rumah kot.

Tengah aku lepak ada satu mamat Chinese ni datang bagi flyer. Boleh tempah curtain katanya. Kalau nak, tang-tang tu jugak dia nak measure. Ayooooo…. Sampai macam ni sekali orang carik business sekarang. Tapi bagus gak strategy ni.

So sekarang, lampu tinggal sikit lagi. This weekend kena sambung pasang lampu, cat pagar, basuh rumah. On next Monday pasang curtain. Then boleh pindah sikit-sikit. Dah standby 2 quotes untuk lorry. This week kena tukar alamat surat-menyurat pulak.

Tuan rumah sekarang pun dah mintak buang kan ‘For Rent’ punya signage depan rumah. Terlalu ramai yang call katanya, sampai dia pening kepala. Cadang nya nak pindah 28hb ni walaupun landloard kata we all can keep the keys till 15hb.

Oh ya... Jangan di tanya bila house warming sebab duit tinggal RM65 je. Adehhhhh.....

My February... kind of...

Sebelum 2 followers aku blah, elok rasanya update blog ni.

Banyak yang nak rekodkan but so little time and energy. So, for my own record, I wanna summarize this entry into few topics.

Birthday & Wedding Anniversary
My birthday & Che Man’s birthday jatuh selang sehari on the first weekend of February. It went quietly except for many birthday wishes I received through FB. Thank you so much people. Tak dapat pun nak reply and say thank you satu-satu. But you know I love you all very the strong kan?

The whole Saturday on my birthday, Che Man had to work from morning to late night. Takde mood nak potong kek pun. Sampai sekarang tak redeem lagi voucher kek yang hotel bagi tu. So, I thought, cake-less ler we all. But, the next day balik kampung and my dear sister made us a very rich very yummy chocolate cake for tea time.

Both Che Man and I took day off to spend our day at spa and dating on our 4th anniversary in the 2nd week of February. Che Man who was skeptical on the spa thingy at last sangat menyesal kerana tak ikut my suggestion to have the 4-steps full body treatment instead of 1 hour couple massage. Tu laaaa… lenkali dengar gak cakap bini. Hal-hal macam ni lelaki mana tau, kan? We also went to movie, makan and shopped.

Muka gumbira dapat minum root bir dua gelas sekali

Aiman
I extended my leave after the anniversary celebration and took opportunity of Chinese New Year public holidays to stay home with Aiman. My aim was to train Aiman untuk pergi toilet everytime nak kencing and berak. Except for 2 incidents – one on the floor and another one on sofa, the few days training went well. Never in my life I felt so happy to see him terberak. Hahaha. Tapi amat-amat letih coz kejap-kejap nak kencing budak bertuah tu. I think Aiman felt the same coz my MIL told me that Aiman mengamuk-ngamuk nak pakai diaper later that week. Aduhai…. Dah beberapa hari ok, dia buat hal pulak tak nak continue. Came another weekend, I tried again but he refused to wear his pants without diaper. Seperti biasa, Aiman menang. Mendidih je darah aku tengok dia screaming, kicking, shouting. So pakaikan dia diaper and went to the zoo.

Ala.... takyah la gi toilet.... sini je lah....

New House
We finally received the house keys on 22nd. So we have about a month to arrange everything including to move into the new house. Must empty the rented house by last weekend of March.

After the handover from developer, straight away we confirmed some works with a contractor. Then we went and searched for kitchen cabinet and lights and fans. Well, actually not that fast la. We have done the surveys many times already. So that day was to confirm things la. It was very exciting and tiring activities.

So now the plaster ceiling is done, the hacking of the kitchen concrete slap done, kitchen plumbing relocated, grille done, lights and fans purchased, kitchen cabinet selected and measured. What left – to install the kitchen cabinet, fix lights & fans, paint the main gate, order curtain & blinders, clean the house, to source for 3 ton lorry untuk angkut barang, to purchase racks for store room, fix curtain & blinders, pack things up and move it! Move it!

Allo? Kenapa itu ceiling manyak tinggi?

Wa tarak rasa tu angin kipas pusing-pusing wa punya kepala atas

Rumah wa tarak aircond ma....

I also have put ‘FOR RENT’ signage in front of my rented house. I hope my nice landlord will receive fews calls on that. I have made claim for late delivery of property from the new house developer. The house was delivered about a month later than promised, but have not received any news yet. Yes, I’m kiasu like that, but I need the money to install aircond plak. Panas giler kan sekarang ni?

WORK
February was a short month. Rushing many things this month. Then, there was an annual dinner. Aku dah lama berazam dan dah lama berjaya tidak involve directly with annual dinner preparation. Bagi chance la kan kat budak-budak muda untuk buat semua ni. But this year, ntah macam mana termakan pujukan pulak terus jadi invitation and program manager. Invitation tu ok, but program ni sangat leceh. Nasib baik ramai yang volunteer tolong. But annual dinner deserve a different entry lah. So later with photo maybe.

Rokers Unite..... hahahaha

There are some changes in the organization structure. There some problems and issues that need urgent attention. There is refurbishment project coming. My boss is particularly busy running here and there to sort & solve things. I have no choice but to chase him *semput*

FAMILY
There are many issues that bothering me now. It seems, since last year satu-satu hal datang menjengah. Just to think about it makes my heart beats faster. Mostly about my younger sisters. You guys dah dewasa. I don’t want to keep talking about the same old stories. I don’t want to bagi nasihat itu dan ini as if I have a perfect life. But I love you all so much and I want you all to be happy. But I really hope you will do what you guys suppose to do. If you have to make life changing decision, pleaseeeeee discuss it with other family members with open heart and mind. The key word is : B.L.E.S.S.I.N.G.

My in-laws are busy now with wedding preparation for Che Man’s younger brother. I feel like I have not contributed anything meaningful in the process. Sibuk dengan hal & masalah sendiri je. I want to improve this situation. Kesian MIL & SIL, dapat menantu and in-law like me eh?

All in all, syukur pada Allah, I managed to stay alive & healthy till I am now 33 years old. My relationship with Che Man is stronger and happier. Aiman is growing fine, healthy, comel, bijak, entertaining and all that. We are going to experience new home and new place. I have made a list on how to improve my work performance and work attitude. Now, I felt fresh, motivated and excited about work all over again. I only hope some issues in my family resolve one by one.

Alhamdullillah.

Nak bagi Diskaun ni... Meh Datang Copek!

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Normal price is RM85++ !

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Car Seat A.iman

Dah beberapa bulan aku ngan Che Man rancang nak belikan si A.iman car seat yang baru. Yang ada tu dah kecik untuk dia. Sian pulak tengok dia terkepit dalam car seat dia. Tapi good car seat expensive oooo. Check purse tengok… ok….. tangguh lagi.

So bila Pn. Coklat nak jual car seat si comel Afif, aku e-mail blog entry kat Che Man. Dapat green light terus contact Coklat.

Logistik was a bit problem at first. Timing tak berapa kena. Aku suh Che Man je jumpa dia orang, tapi laki aku ni penyegan (iyooo lah!). Last-last Cok & Yeop drove to Shah Alam tunggu depan opis aku. Alahai… kena pulak datang dari jauh. Tapi takpe kan Cok, at least leh le jejalan kat Shah Alam hujung minggu sambil buat customer service… lalalalala

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Hantar message guna telepati power malam tu.

Maka baju sama keler!

Dah jumpa blogger tersohor cam Cok, kena la ambik gambar kan? Genit je rupanya si Cok ni. Afif pun ada, tapi budak bertuah ni pemalu. Yeop pun ada. Cok… laki kau tak photogenik…. Dia lebih enchem in real life la… * lariksssssssss*
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Ok.. ok..datang balik…. Sebab citer belum habis lagi.

I love the car seat. Aiman pun excited. Warna nya sangat sesuai dengan kusyen aku yang kelabu tahi anjing and exterior keta aku yang merah.

Ipar aku tanya : “Elok sangat lagi conditionnya. Naper tak disimpan untuk anak-anak yang akan datang ?”. Tu kakak ipar aku tanya okey….. bukan aku. Sumpah.

Balik kampung Che Man kuarkan sebab nak adjust. Adik aku tetiba cakap “Kusi baru ke?”Aku jawab la second hand. Baru beli tadi. Pastu dia cakap “Macam car seat yang Pn. Coklat nak jual tu !" ------> Adik aku pun baca blog kau rupanya.

Kannnn….. aku dah cakappppppp. Kau memang blogger tersohor Coklat. Betuah Yeop - tetiba!

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"Amacam Afif? Nyesal ke jual?"

B is Here!

The B has come.

In my experience of more than 8 year with this company, I can say this was the most complicated, the least in total sum and complete with series of dramas before it finally released. No wonder it was also the most delayed payout – mid of May, for goodness sake!

But B is a B. It is always welcome – kochik tapak tangan, Dewan Perdana den tadah án!

It may be the smallest amount so far, but I say Alhamdullillah. With last year’s performance (both by the company & my own performance), add with current market situation, I know that my boss have tried his very best to ‘save’ everyone.

*quickly sms him to say thank you*
*ok - done*

Some percentage will go to credit card. Since I knew earlier about the payout, I ter-over spent during the J-card member sales last week. I blame Che Man coz he took me for movie at Bukit Tinggi during J-card member sales day! But I’ve promised myself to settle all amounts on credit card every month, so there……

The rest will be saved for house fund.

Life is tough huh?

Remember Cik Ti?

Terlupa lak nak update pasal character yang satu ni.

This happened about one week after my first entry on Cik Ti.

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Sebelum.....

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....... Selepas

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I bought glue boards and put at few supposedly strategic places. But Cik Ti buat dekkkkkk je. So, aku redah hardware and bought perangkap tikus ni. Siap letak coklat kegemaran Cik Ti lagi. Two days after that; Cik Ti yang buruk lantak pun masuk.

Dah tangkap tak tau pulak nak buat camna kat Ci Ti tu. Che Man kata, biasanya orang akan letak dalam longkang (dengan perangkap-nya sekali) biar Cik Ti lemas dan k.o! Tapi aku tak sampai hati pulak. Nasib baik Longkang besar depan rumah malam tu kering.

Sudahnya Che Man bawak Cik Ti naik kereta gi jauh-jauh dan lepaskan somewhere far. Aku suh Che man buang je perangkap tu sebab geli la tengok, tapi Che Man tetap nak simpan.

Bye bye Cik Ti. Moga kita tidak berjumpa lagi.

..... Tetap Bersyukur

Che Man & I went to see this last weekend.

This is not our unit. Ours is at the last row.

(mengadap ladang kelapa sawit, bleh?)

Che Man said I should not go into the construction site, but

"alang-alang menyeluk pekasam, biar sampai ke pangkal lengan"

Tak kan nak tengok dari jauh je. Aku dah le rabun.

Apa la nasib, pintu berkunci pulak.

Dulu tu, ada gak aku tengok pintu yang terbuka.

Sudahnya dapat jeguk dari luar je.

Cuma nampak hall dengan pintu master bedroom je.

Tak puas hati sungguh. Che Man pulak tak mau temankan aku.

Dia tengok gelagat aku dari jauh je.

Tak senonoh betul bini dia melekap muka kat cermin tingkap

nak tengok dalam rumah.

Since it is by the same developer with our current rented house,

only (agak-agak) 1.5km from the current house and

about the same type,

I cannot help it but to compare between the two.

I was not very happy with the results.

In my first draft of this entry, I’ve listed down the comparison.

Later I decided to erase them.

I think I should wait till I see the whole house in few months time

before I can make a better and fair comparison.

Come to think about it

make me realized that I’ve started the comparison

with negative thoughts

– what I don’t like about the house!

That’s very negative of me.

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Lets be more positive.

For a start:

It is going to be OUR very own house.

I thank Allah for that.

Even it is only a small 3-bedroom single storey house;

at least we are going to have our own house end of this year

(hoping for smooth construction progress).

Tak yah sewa dari Mrs. Chua dah.
Now, we kindda neglect to care / beautify the rented house especially

the small garden & back area, thinking:

“Ala.. takyah susah-susah… rumah sewa jer….”.

I guess the motivation is not there coz it is not ours.

That also must change la. Hehehehe….

Credit Card & I

When I was *ehem* younger, my salary was little, but my ‘needs’ were huge and my mind was narrow. I ended up applied for a credit. Use RM1000 and pay only RM50 per month. Canteeekkkk….!

First I thought about the convenient. No need to walk to the cashier when filling-up petrol. Then I thought I can use it while on emergency situation. Soon I found myself always in ‘emergency’ situations. Car services, clubbing, holidays, shopping, etc.

Swipe! Swipe! Swipe!

The card finally reached the limit but I only paid for minimum payment. I got stuck there! Did I learn? Nope! I applied for another one coz at that time I badly ‘needed’ a new gadget for myself. Getting another card was the only way I could think of at the time. Considered emergency jugak kan?

Hoh? Ekau ambik satu kad laie? Gilo ko?

After few years, both cards reached the limits and I could only afford the minimum payments.

Then, I found a way to get rid of one card. I took a loan offered by the credit card company. Paid the 1st card and made re-payment using the 2nd card (the bank so baik hati to increase the credit limit of the 2nd card). Though the first card gone, the payment I made for another card has increased – in total lebih kurang macam pakai dua cards but this time, I know in 3 years, the loan will be settled. If I continued with the 1st card and at the same time have to use it (coz tak cukup cash every month), tak tau bila boleh habis bayar.

For many years I have to depend on credit card. When it reaching the limit, the bank offered me some more cash (loans) to settle the debt with lower interest and make re-payment through credit card. I gave in. Not once, but many times – became bad habit already. This year I calculated the total re-payment for all these loans (yang konon-kononnya nak kurangkan hutang credit card) I got so scared and frustrated. The bank didn’t lie to me. Those loans were certainly helped me with my credit card balance but I still have long way to go. The last re-payment will be at the end of year 2011! Itu pun kalau aku tak ambik apa-apa loan lagi, and my credit card balance will be still mountains!

I felt trapped! Frustrated! Very-very sad every time I bank-in the money. I only have myself to blame.

Makcik sodeh. Hutang makcik menimbun.

Mula la aku berangan, that one fine day, somebody so baik hati will offer me a interest-free loan so I can use it to pay my credit card with all loans that attached to it. Berangan punya berangan, I guess it has become my everyday doa.

Last month, my doa came true!

Only this time, it was not offered to me, but I proposed for it when I saw an opportunity. Well, not all dreams can come true kan?

At first someone gave me some cash coz of terlebih rezeki - rezeki dia la. Wah! Banyak duit ye sekarang? Then I thought, maybe I can ask (tak malu kan?) for interest-free loan with affordable re-payment scheme and top-up with the cash he already gave me and I can clear my credit card.

Only God knows betapa tebalnya muka aku waktu tu. Berhari-hari aku susun ayat. Terbayang akan sessi soal jawab. But the only question was; “Berapa banyak nko nak guna?” hehehe….

I called the bank. The officer tried to discourage me by saying something about early settlement penalties and all that. She told me to just clear my credit card balance and make payment on loans as usual. I made my own calculation and decided it is best that I make early settlement for all.

After little confusion it finally settled! Yeepiiiiiii!!!!!

Makcik sukerrrrr...!!

Now, I wanna make this clear to myself & my dear family. I still will use my credit card. But I will only use to the amount of which I know I can pay in full when it’s due. In fact, I already know how much I can afford to pay monthly. I know ‘cakap je boleh la’, but after suffering (chewah!) all these years, I finally learnt my lesson.

Discipline! Discipline! Discipline!

Starting next month, I will re-pay the so-baik-hati-tak-banyak-tanya-the-interest-free-loan provider HALF of what I’ve been paying for credit card, standby limited RM for FULL SETTLEMENT on credit card expenses and SAVE THE BALANCE untuk hari tua.

Good luck to me.

Syukur

I posted THIS ENTRY more than a year ago.

Tak dapat rasanya mendedahkan perkara yang sebenar atas sebab perundangan. Cukuplah aku katakan yang waktu itu ianya adalah berita buruk yang sukar untuk kami sekeluarga percayai & lalui.

Masa tu seluruh negara sedang hangat memperkatakan satu isu dalam negara. Siapa sangka yang ahli keluarga sendiri terheret sama? It was in the newspaper and on TV. Ramai pulak orang datang bertanyakan cerita di sebalik cerita.

Waktu itu, bukan lagi soal bersalah atau tidak. Ia lebih pada soal membuktikan diri tidak bersalah.

Siang malam doa dipanjatkan. Biar yang hak tegak, yang batil rebah.

Hari ni, aku terima berita manis. Ianya sangat manis sampai aku menangis sambil memanjat rasa syukur pada Yang Esa.

Semua tuduhan digugurkan pada babak akhir episod yang malang.

Tapi mengenangkan kembali setahun yang berlalu, ada juga kebaikan disebalik semua kepayahan ini. Terang lah siapa sebenarnya kawan.

Alhamdullillah.

Buat Entry ni Sebab Boss gi Outstation (Apa punya title daa...)

After 2 weeks, books that I purchased through eBay finally arrived.

Taaaraaaaa......!

Oh! Hati ku gumbira.

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The books are definitely second hands but the condition are still very very good. Macam baru. Tak sabar nak mula baca nih!

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Cerita lain lak.

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Hampir je aku kehilangan alternate Saturday off.

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My boss went balastic when few incidents happened during weekend. He blamed those on lack of supervision from staffs during weekends (memang betul la pun) and decided to cease the policy of alternate Saturday off - walaupun aku rasa tak berapa kena mengena dengan the group of staffs. I only prepared the memo for his signature on the next day, hoping that by the time he sees the memo, his anger already coof off.

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Cool off he did - sungguh drama. Selamat.....!

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On diffrent note, my niece has passed her UPSR with 5As - as expected. Congratulation my dear. Now she is eagerly filling-up application forms for boarding school - M.RSM or something.

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Maka aku teringat kejadian dolu-dolu:

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Aku masuk sekolah-berasrama-yang-tak-berapa-penuh a month after tingkatan satu sudah mula. Hated it so much. I cry like everyday and later jatuh sakit (demam je actually). My parents came (aku yang suh datang, sapa lagi....) and I insisted they take me home - to see doctor la konon. It was at night. Kelambu pun dah pasang masa tu. After 2 days MC, aku cakap kat mak yang aku tak mau balik asrama. Nak tukar sekolah terus. Mak ngan abah pun pi asrama tanggal kelambu, kemas barang-barang aku bawak balik.

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Aku masuk balik sekolah lama. Sampai kelas je; bebudak tepuk tangan "Welcome back! welcome back!" . Cilakak they all. Nasib baik few days after that ada 2 orang kawan aku yang mengikut jejak aku berambus dari sekolah tu.

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Aku tak nyesal keluar dari situ (bukan sekolah best pun). Cuma aku kesal tak applied for sekolah berasrama penuh walaupun masa tu ada peluang (due to some reasons; tapi aku maleh elobarate). I had a good chance to enter S.MAP L.abu (See? Nama sekolah pun aku dah tau masa tu!) Kot-kot aku belajar kat situ dulu, tentu aku jadi manusia yang berlainan sket daripada sekarang kan?

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Agaknya la.

Missing His Progress

This happened when Aiman was 13 and half months. So, it is quite a basi story. However, I think it is important for me to make a record here.

When Aiman was 1 year old, we got worried that he still showed no sign of walking properly. In fact he was so lazy to try. Dibantainya lah merangkak ke hulu ke hilir. I had tried so many times to encourage and train him to walk, but he didn’t even want to stand properly. So I just got fed-up and leave it to him to take action.

Few weeks berlalu. In those weeks we picked him up late almost everyday. So kesian him. Kadang-kadang belum sampai rumah, dia dah tertido dalam kereta. Kalau dia tak tido pun, sampai rumah, I golek-golek dengan dia atas katil sekejap and later put him in his cot so that I can start doing the house chores. Or else he will play with Che Man till he feels sleepy.

I was so selfish.

I just wanted him to sleep early so that I can do the house chores faster and then rest / sleep. He had not much time anyway coz we only reached home about 10pm every night.

So, one day we came back late as usual. When I opened my MIL’s front door, I saw Aiman walking around the living room.

Terpaku aku sekejap. Ni bukan nya jalan-jalan jatuh atau jalan berpimpin. He was walking unassisted.

I grabbed my camera to record him but the memory card decided to ‘full-itself’ after few seconds of recording. Sudah camtu, tak sempat adjust brightness. Ni ler yang dapat dirakam.

According to my SIL, it has been quite sometimes that Aiman berani walks many steps. Actually she did mentioned it to me few days before that. Aku rasa, aku jer yang tak berapa beri perhatian pada progress Aiman these few weeks sebab dah penat bila balik kerja.

Lame excuse. I know.

Aiman sayang,

I am so very sorry that I did not pay much attention to your development these past few weeks. I promise I will make more time to play with you. I’ll pick you up earlier so that we have more time together. I will dedicate more of my time and energy to care and teach you the ABC and 123 – something I postponed too often.

I will bring you to play outside on weekend, coz I know how much you like to be outside the house. I’ll show you the real birds, cats and dogs. I know you already tired of seeing lorry, busses, cars, traffic lights, shell, esso and mat rempit every morning and night.

I will take out all toys that I put away from you and let you play with them in anyway you prefer. I’ll make no fuss over the house condition after your playing session.

I will cook for you different types of porridges and let you taste different types of biscuits, fruits or drinks. I will let you touch your food and explore the texture with your cute little fingers. Nevermind if I have to mop the floor after that.

I will let you climb the staircase whenever you feel like it and still be around should you miss a step or two or three or four.

We have changed the TV channels subscription so you could select your favorite programs other than CSI, House, Desperate Housewives, Konsert Akademi Fantasia Musim ke-6, Ugly Betty and Nip/Tuck. Later you can introduce me to Thomas & Friends, Pinggu (I don’t even know how to spell it), Mickey Mouse, Donald Duck, Spiderman, Ultraman, etc. However, I would not encourage you to watch ‘T*m T*m B*k’ – budak pompuan pakai mekap tebal, baju sexy, menggoyang kan bontot nya pada lagu Shakira is not very suitable for you sayang.

So,

In years to come, when you have access to internet and if I remember to give you my URL and when you able to understand my horrible English & terrible Malay, you have no choice but to accept that I am not a perfect mother but at least have tried to be a good one to you.

I love you Aiman.

Pst: Just try not to sleep too late everynight.

Bye Bye Hydrocele

When Aiman was 4-month old, we noticed he had a bulge at his left groin area. After checking with a local doctor, a child specialist and a surgeon, Aiman was diagnosed with hydrocele. Apparently, it is quite normal for babies (boys) and we were asked to wait until he is one year old, to which the thing might disappear, just like many other cases.

So, after he reached 1 year old, the bulge still there. In fact at times it went into his left testis making it (a lot) bigger than the right one.

We took him to the same surgeon (at S*r*mb*n Sp#cial*st Hospital) and ultrasound revealed that the bulge had become more significant. A minor surgery called herniotomy was later scheduled for him.

Posing with dear ayah infront of the Clinic few weeks ago

We took sometimes to confirm the date. I know it was only a minor operation but (besides being in denial), we wanted to make sure that we were ready for it. I searched the net for more information, I asked around on how to take care of him during and after the surgery, we expedite his medical insurance issues, we sorted things out at work so that we can take few days leave peacefully and we prepared Aiman by adjusting his susu and tido time, to accommodate the fasting requirement.

My first concerned was about he has to fast 8 hours prior to surgery. My son milk-drinking pattern at night (wee hours) is inconsistent. We can’t predict what time he will wakes up for milk. However, eight hours is definitely too long for him.

On 3rd April last week, I set few alarms clocks a.k.a mobile phones at 1.30am before I went to sleep. I was so worried that I won’t get up in time for him to have his susu at 2.00pm. Just imagine, if I wake up at 4am? How la? Anyway, I managed to get up at 1.30am and prepared his hot milk. I waited till the last minutes and woke him up. He took the 7oz milk without any protest and handed me the empty bottle. I prayed to God that will be good for him until the surgery is over.

The admission process was fast since we already submitted the admission form and signed the consent form a day earlier. We were given a room nearby the operating theatre (OT). Within 15 minutes doctor came to check but the operation were delayed for about 30 minutes because the same doctor had to attend to an emergency. We tried to distract Aiman from susu by playing with him in front of OT.

We were palying around infront of the OT to distract Aiman from his susu-time

Later both Aiman and I were wheeled to the OT. I was asked to change to a uniform. It was a heart-wreaking moment to see Aiman lying on the OT table, looking so scared and cried his heart out. He must be so scared to see all strangers, pakai semua biru, tutup rambut and muka, nampak mata sahaja except for me. He begged me to pick him up form the table. Menitik juga airmata. I watched him felt asleep. I kissed him and was ushered out. I waited outside the OT with Che Man.

Preparing to go into OT

After 50 minutes I was called in and again had to change my clothes. The moment I came out from the changing room, I heard Aiman cried. From far I saw him nangis menongeng-nongeng while two nurses trying to calm him down with ballons and all. When I took him, he quickly hugged me but kept crying.

Another doctor came to explained to me that the operation went smoothly and Aiman is actually not in pain because he has been given pain killer. He maybe crying because he was a little bit disoriented and confused with what is happening to him.

The Wound After Surgery

The Culprit

Che Man received him outside the room and again I had to change my uniform. From outside the ward, I can still hear Aiman crying.

He refused to lie down on bed and we had to dukung / riba him all the time. I guessed that reminded him of the OT table. Not that we didn’t want to hold him, but we were afraid that we might hurt him. He refused to drink milk or water despite the fact he had not taken any water for more than 10 hours. He also refused to be touched by nurse who tried to fix drips on him. After sometimes, I told the nurse to just do it while he meraung dan melenting-lenting kan badan. Takut betul aku kalau-kalau luka dia terbukak. Only when he was in his deep sleep, we managed to put him on bed.

After the Surgery, nak beriba saja

Resting

Whenever we are not looking, he will try to pull-out the wire

The rest of the day filled with Aiman tido, bangun, nangis and our struggle to give him the pain killer. Aiman got so scared with nurses and doctor who occasional came to our room – he will hug me tight every time he sees them.

He was a lot better that night itself. He ate porridge and entertained his visitors.

A lot better now...

The next morning he was discharged.

Remember I mentioned about medical insurance? Okay… it was totally our fault. We were late at signing up and the medical card will only be effective next month. We could have waited, but we decided not to. Takan pasal anak punya well-being pun nak berkira kan?

Now, we are poorer by few thousands. Padan muka we all, but we have no regrets.

The plaster has been taken off last Tuesday. The wound heals nicely.

Aiman sekarang dah berlasak-lasak macam tak sakit lansung. Harap-harap memang tak sakit la.

Alhamdullillah.

Looking Forward

The problem that give me headache since December last year may-be settled soon. I received the good new last week from the least expected source. Afraid to write it here though, coz it is only VERBALLY confirmed. Positive thinking. Positive thinking. There are few more steps to go. I hope things will be smooth from now on.

Another good news I received last week is about my salary increment. Even though I know about it early this month, but HR dept. decided to play tricks and I only got the black and white last week. Not much. But it is better than nothing right? Though it is postponed for 1 month, I am still thankful, because honestly at times I think I don’t deserve it. My performance lately is… emmm… how I shall put it…. not impressive?

Last weekend Che Man and I decided to get birthday presents for us. We usually get them earlier than the actual date. Don’t know why. As Che Man revealed the budget for my present, I was torn between a necklace, a digital camera, a hand phone, a handbag or a watch.

A necklace is hard to choose. To get one with small diamond – tak puas hati pulak. To get one with big / many zircon stones – rasa tak syok pulak. A handbag – I don’t know about you guys… but I do not want to spend so much for a handbag. A watch – emmmmm…. Not sure. The old one still good and I don’t fancy jam tangan. Asal ada sudah. A digital camera – Che Man tak bagi pulak. Yang lama baru je pakai setahun. Lagi satu bulan siap la repair agaknya.

At last, I agreed on hand phone with good camera functions. Since the current hand phone is a company’s hand phone with only basic functions (really basic, I tell you), may as well I get a 2 in 1 stuff. It is not the N series thingy… but still I terover budget. Sorry la darling.

I have not familiarized myself with the new functions. All the while using Nok*a, so terkial-kial with So*y Er*csson. I love the camera functions which I can do so many things with one photo (even better than my digital camera). Here are some. *jakun mode on*

What did I get for Che Man? He wanted to have a gadget that cost RMXXXX. Sorry la sayang. Den tak mampu. So, I hope you are happy with what we have decided last weekend. I love you.

Now..... how to celebrate a double birthday? I think, since we will be at my hometown, we might have a small BBQ party with family. Setuju tak Che Man?

Our wedding anniversary is also coming. At first we planned to spend few days outstation but later changed the plan. I just don’t know how to get Aiman to sleep without his buaian and how to cook his porridge? To pack & unpack; tak larat lah. Since it falls on Monday, I’ll prepare breakfast at home, send him to his nenek’s house as usual and we will go dating – anniversary lunch, movie, tea and anniversary dinner.

February is always my eventful month. I hope it will be a happy one too.