Missing His Progress

This happened when Aiman was 13 and half months. So, it is quite a basi story. However, I think it is important for me to make a record here.

When Aiman was 1 year old, we got worried that he still showed no sign of walking properly. In fact he was so lazy to try. Dibantainya lah merangkak ke hulu ke hilir. I had tried so many times to encourage and train him to walk, but he didn’t even want to stand properly. So I just got fed-up and leave it to him to take action.

Few weeks berlalu. In those weeks we picked him up late almost everyday. So kesian him. Kadang-kadang belum sampai rumah, dia dah tertido dalam kereta. Kalau dia tak tido pun, sampai rumah, I golek-golek dengan dia atas katil sekejap and later put him in his cot so that I can start doing the house chores. Or else he will play with Che Man till he feels sleepy.

I was so selfish.

I just wanted him to sleep early so that I can do the house chores faster and then rest / sleep. He had not much time anyway coz we only reached home about 10pm every night.

So, one day we came back late as usual. When I opened my MIL’s front door, I saw Aiman walking around the living room.

Terpaku aku sekejap. Ni bukan nya jalan-jalan jatuh atau jalan berpimpin. He was walking unassisted.

I grabbed my camera to record him but the memory card decided to ‘full-itself’ after few seconds of recording. Sudah camtu, tak sempat adjust brightness. Ni ler yang dapat dirakam.

According to my SIL, it has been quite sometimes that Aiman berani walks many steps. Actually she did mentioned it to me few days before that. Aku rasa, aku jer yang tak berapa beri perhatian pada progress Aiman these few weeks sebab dah penat bila balik kerja.

Lame excuse. I know.

Aiman sayang,

I am so very sorry that I did not pay much attention to your development these past few weeks. I promise I will make more time to play with you. I’ll pick you up earlier so that we have more time together. I will dedicate more of my time and energy to care and teach you the ABC and 123 – something I postponed too often.

I will bring you to play outside on weekend, coz I know how much you like to be outside the house. I’ll show you the real birds, cats and dogs. I know you already tired of seeing lorry, busses, cars, traffic lights, shell, esso and mat rempit every morning and night.

I will take out all toys that I put away from you and let you play with them in anyway you prefer. I’ll make no fuss over the house condition after your playing session.

I will cook for you different types of porridges and let you taste different types of biscuits, fruits or drinks. I will let you touch your food and explore the texture with your cute little fingers. Nevermind if I have to mop the floor after that.

I will let you climb the staircase whenever you feel like it and still be around should you miss a step or two or three or four.

We have changed the TV channels subscription so you could select your favorite programs other than CSI, House, Desperate Housewives, Konsert Akademi Fantasia Musim ke-6, Ugly Betty and Nip/Tuck. Later you can introduce me to Thomas & Friends, Pinggu (I don’t even know how to spell it), Mickey Mouse, Donald Duck, Spiderman, Ultraman, etc. However, I would not encourage you to watch ‘T*m T*m B*k’ – budak pompuan pakai mekap tebal, baju sexy, menggoyang kan bontot nya pada lagu Shakira is not very suitable for you sayang.

So,

In years to come, when you have access to internet and if I remember to give you my URL and when you able to understand my horrible English & terrible Malay, you have no choice but to accept that I am not a perfect mother but at least have tried to be a good one to you.

I love you Aiman.

Pst: Just try not to sleep too late everynight.