11 February

I have just confirmed an arrangement for our next year anniversary celebration... sort of. Nothing extravaganza. Just a night away from home to a nearby beach resort. Angkut anak-anak sekali :-)

Memanglah kalau boleh nak go away lama sikit, jauh sikit, carik kelainan sikit. Tapi our anniversary will fall on Chinese New Year with weekend some more prior to the actual date. Boleh dibayangkan betapa jam nya jalan raya utara, selatan, timur & barat. Rege tiket kapal terbang pun ya ampun lah time time camni. Tu pasal lah juga kena buat booking 2 months before. Ag.oda & Book.ingdotcom asyik dok ancam dengan 'last room', 'limited rooms', 'fast selling', etc. Pandai they all.

Bila dok buat ni, terimbas pulak kenangan 2 anniversaries kami yang lepas-lepas. Year 2011 & 2012. Dari kesemua 731 days, Allah pilih hari ulangtahun perkahwinan kami untuk menguji kami dengan ujian yang aku kira berat juga. MasyaAllah. Selama 2 tahun, tarikh 11 Febuari aku sambut dengan cucuran air mata serta hati yang remuk redam. Terlalu berat rasanya ujian Allah waktu itu. Hari yang sepatutnya disambut dengan ceria dan bahagia bertukar menjadi peristiwa hitam yang tak akan terhapus dalam ingatan sampai bila-bila. Only Allah knows why He tabled those events on that particular day.

That is why, I am desprately want our anniversary in year 2013 to be a better one. Tak perlu lavish, tak perlu extra ordinary, tak perlu romantik ke jadah.... cukup lah hari itu menjadi hari yang damai buat kami.

Moga Allah perkenankan.

Ramadan & Syawal 2012

Ramadan itu paling bermakna.
Syawal itu paling istimewa.

Benar janji Allah.
Mengadu PadaNya.
Memohon PadaNya.
Insaf, tawaduk & tawakal.
Maka Insyaallah, diperkenankaNya.

Benar janji Allah.
DugaaNya dalam pelbagai bentuk.
Sabar, usaha dan redha.
Maka Insyaallah, nampak hikmahNya.

Ya Allah,
Ampuni lah kami.
Kuat lah hati kami.
Teguh kan lah cinta kami.
Lindungi lah kami.
Sembuhkan lah luka ini.

Allah Huakhbar.

AMIN.

Summary Update eh?

Dear blog… kesian kau lama ber-update! Hehehe. Aku takde alasan. Tak le busy sangat. Cuma mungkin penyakit MAFALASFAS yang menyerang.

By the way, too many things happened & happening. I will just summarize them here.

Aiman Tatut
Things getting better with Aiman after we played the bacaan Quran in the house regularly. Pas tu bulan puasa pulak, lansung takde kesan yang tak diingini. Betul lah setan-setan ni kena tambat semua. Cuma sekarang ni, when we start taking this for granted (ingatkan dah orait 100%), Aiman has started to complain “tatutttttt….” Just few days ago dia dok tunjuk-tunjuk ceiling, mata terbuntang-buntang (like trying hard to see an object in the dim light). Masa tu aku sedikit panik. Dalam hati terpikir, “Nak kena rasuk ke anak aku ni?” Dah lah masa tu Che Man takde. Dalam masa panik tu sempat lagi aku pikir soklan untuk draft action plan:

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“In case Aiman kena rasuk dek jin laknat malam ni”:
i) Berapa kuat aku kena menjerit untuk kejut kan jiran sebelah?
ii) Sapa yang aku kena telephone?
iii) Perlu ke aku siram air kat dia?
iv) Perlu aku lempang dia?
v) Ayat apa yang aku kena baca?
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Tapi lepas tu aku goncang-goncang badan dia. When he looked at me, aku sedar dia tak kena rasuk pun. So aku slow talk dengan dia. Try to convince him that he will be ok. Nothing will disturb him. Semangat dia lebih kuat. Dia berani, bla bla bla. Finally Aiman nodded him head and agreed to try to sleep.

I must start to play the CD again.

Pregnancy
One day my boss told me that I looked different. He said I put on weight quite drastically as if I’m pregnant. I told him recently my appetite very good, but I’m not pregnant. He told me he suspects I’m pregnant and I might want to check that.

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Few days after that, Che Man told me he legs cramped so badly the night before. I remember thinking, “That is MY symptom during pregnancy”. Straight away I went to pharmacy and purchased pregnancy test kit. Yada yada yada….. positive!

Ada hari aku mabuk teruk, ada hari tak berapa teruk, ada hari yang ok je. Pelik sikit pregnancy kali ni. Tomorrow is going to be 3 months. But many people commented my tummy is so big for 3-month-pregnant tummy. Some suggested I’ve miss-calculated, some said kembar and some even said I’m diabetic! OMG! Tonight I’m going for 2nd check-up and first scan. Hopefully everything will be fine.

Ramadhan 2010
The first week of Ramadhan aku dok bersungguh-sungguh lah. Walaupun awal pregnancy tapi tenaga baik betul. Berangan nak puasa sebulan. Masa minggu kedua mabuk-mabuk dah start. Not able to eat (walau pun tak puasa), getting up for sahur teman Che Man, forced to reach office at 7.30am, the mual, the muntah, the smell of food from PARAM anf the smell of people around me really bothered me.

So no Ramdhan buffet at hotels for me this year. Only once at BlueWave while assisting a charity event. No point paying so much and not enjoying the food. No PARAM-hoping. In fact the only PARAM I went adalah di PKNS Shah Alam. Tu pun sebab paling dekat ngan tempat kerja. Nasib baik lah some dear friends invited me for iftar at their places or at some restaurants. Soal Terawih lagi lah sedih nya.

In different note, family gathering were often. This maybe nothing for you all. But I know these two persons on perang dingin since so many years. Berkat Ramadhan, they sat side by side for iftar. Hiba sungguh aku. Pas tu, maybe for the first time in my life, I saw them solat berjemaah. Allah Maha Besar. Moga perang dingin yang dah berpuluh tahun tu tamat.


Aidilfitri 2010
I feel a bit better mungkin sebab aku leh mengunyah sikit at anytime bagi melegakan rasa mual. I was hungry all the time so aku makan je walau pun makanan semua rasa tak sedap dan pas tu kekadang muntah balik. But I enjoy the festive mood, the happy faces, the family gatherings, the extended leaves, the raya activities, etc. etc. After that, I missed so many open houses coz Che Man had to work. Same is going to happen this weekend. Anyway, raya deserve a different blog entry, so wait lah yek.

Eh?
Tetiba blank.

My February... kind of...

Sebelum 2 followers aku blah, elok rasanya update blog ni.

Banyak yang nak rekodkan but so little time and energy. So, for my own record, I wanna summarize this entry into few topics.

Birthday & Wedding Anniversary
My birthday & Che Man’s birthday jatuh selang sehari on the first weekend of February. It went quietly except for many birthday wishes I received through FB. Thank you so much people. Tak dapat pun nak reply and say thank you satu-satu. But you know I love you all very the strong kan?

The whole Saturday on my birthday, Che Man had to work from morning to late night. Takde mood nak potong kek pun. Sampai sekarang tak redeem lagi voucher kek yang hotel bagi tu. So, I thought, cake-less ler we all. But, the next day balik kampung and my dear sister made us a very rich very yummy chocolate cake for tea time.

Both Che Man and I took day off to spend our day at spa and dating on our 4th anniversary in the 2nd week of February. Che Man who was skeptical on the spa thingy at last sangat menyesal kerana tak ikut my suggestion to have the 4-steps full body treatment instead of 1 hour couple massage. Tu laaaa… lenkali dengar gak cakap bini. Hal-hal macam ni lelaki mana tau, kan? We also went to movie, makan and shopped.

Muka gumbira dapat minum root bir dua gelas sekali

Aiman
I extended my leave after the anniversary celebration and took opportunity of Chinese New Year public holidays to stay home with Aiman. My aim was to train Aiman untuk pergi toilet everytime nak kencing and berak. Except for 2 incidents – one on the floor and another one on sofa, the few days training went well. Never in my life I felt so happy to see him terberak. Hahaha. Tapi amat-amat letih coz kejap-kejap nak kencing budak bertuah tu. I think Aiman felt the same coz my MIL told me that Aiman mengamuk-ngamuk nak pakai diaper later that week. Aduhai…. Dah beberapa hari ok, dia buat hal pulak tak nak continue. Came another weekend, I tried again but he refused to wear his pants without diaper. Seperti biasa, Aiman menang. Mendidih je darah aku tengok dia screaming, kicking, shouting. So pakaikan dia diaper and went to the zoo.

Ala.... takyah la gi toilet.... sini je lah....

New House
We finally received the house keys on 22nd. So we have about a month to arrange everything including to move into the new house. Must empty the rented house by last weekend of March.

After the handover from developer, straight away we confirmed some works with a contractor. Then we went and searched for kitchen cabinet and lights and fans. Well, actually not that fast la. We have done the surveys many times already. So that day was to confirm things la. It was very exciting and tiring activities.

So now the plaster ceiling is done, the hacking of the kitchen concrete slap done, kitchen plumbing relocated, grille done, lights and fans purchased, kitchen cabinet selected and measured. What left – to install the kitchen cabinet, fix lights & fans, paint the main gate, order curtain & blinders, clean the house, to source for 3 ton lorry untuk angkut barang, to purchase racks for store room, fix curtain & blinders, pack things up and move it! Move it!

Allo? Kenapa itu ceiling manyak tinggi?

Wa tarak rasa tu angin kipas pusing-pusing wa punya kepala atas

Rumah wa tarak aircond ma....

I also have put ‘FOR RENT’ signage in front of my rented house. I hope my nice landlord will receive fews calls on that. I have made claim for late delivery of property from the new house developer. The house was delivered about a month later than promised, but have not received any news yet. Yes, I’m kiasu like that, but I need the money to install aircond plak. Panas giler kan sekarang ni?

WORK
February was a short month. Rushing many things this month. Then, there was an annual dinner. Aku dah lama berazam dan dah lama berjaya tidak involve directly with annual dinner preparation. Bagi chance la kan kat budak-budak muda untuk buat semua ni. But this year, ntah macam mana termakan pujukan pulak terus jadi invitation and program manager. Invitation tu ok, but program ni sangat leceh. Nasib baik ramai yang volunteer tolong. But annual dinner deserve a different entry lah. So later with photo maybe.

Rokers Unite..... hahahaha

There are some changes in the organization structure. There some problems and issues that need urgent attention. There is refurbishment project coming. My boss is particularly busy running here and there to sort & solve things. I have no choice but to chase him *semput*

FAMILY
There are many issues that bothering me now. It seems, since last year satu-satu hal datang menjengah. Just to think about it makes my heart beats faster. Mostly about my younger sisters. You guys dah dewasa. I don’t want to keep talking about the same old stories. I don’t want to bagi nasihat itu dan ini as if I have a perfect life. But I love you all so much and I want you all to be happy. But I really hope you will do what you guys suppose to do. If you have to make life changing decision, pleaseeeeee discuss it with other family members with open heart and mind. The key word is : B.L.E.S.S.I.N.G.

My in-laws are busy now with wedding preparation for Che Man’s younger brother. I feel like I have not contributed anything meaningful in the process. Sibuk dengan hal & masalah sendiri je. I want to improve this situation. Kesian MIL & SIL, dapat menantu and in-law like me eh?

All in all, syukur pada Allah, I managed to stay alive & healthy till I am now 33 years old. My relationship with Che Man is stronger and happier. Aiman is growing fine, healthy, comel, bijak, entertaining and all that. We are going to experience new home and new place. I have made a list on how to improve my work performance and work attitude. Now, I felt fresh, motivated and excited about work all over again. I only hope some issues in my family resolve one by one.

Alhamdullillah.

Eid 2009

Raya dah nak abih rupanya. Barulah aku terhegeh-hegeh nak buat raya entry.
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Aidilfitri tahun ni, first day kat Shah Alam - rumah MIL. Lepas zuhur, ke Melaka - Kampung MIL. Beraya kat rumah sedara mara belah MIL kat Melaka, lepak satu malam, balik Nilai. Yang lain-lain berangkat ke destinasi masing-masing lepas beraya kat kampung aku, Che Man and I tinggal di Nilai sampai hujung minggu tu. Pastu kerja hari Sabtu, balik Nilai, kerja balik hari Isnin.

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Cerita raya pun dah tak berapa nak ingat, jadi aku upload gambar saja untuk kenang-kenangan di hari tua.

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Aci?

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Seminggu lagi nak Raya aku kelam-kabut carik sampul

duit raya. Tanya sana sini asyik takda. Kumpul sikit-sikit,

terlebih-lebih pulak! Talking about me being kiasu!

Drama lebih aku ni.

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I hate packing bags.

Tapi raya punya pasal, nak tak nak, kena juga kan.

1 bag for me, 1 bag for Che Man, 1 bakul for Aiman.

Pampers satu pack, bakul susu, handbag.

Beg biru untuk segala toiletries, songkok, chargers, etc.

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Pagi raya pertama at MIL's in Shah Alam.

Habis semua color baju raya tengelam jadi kuning

dek lampu rumah MIL. Ingat nak snap sekali lagi

kat luar rumah, tapi terlupa lak.

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Geram betul dengan Aiman masa ni.

Susah benar dia nak disuruh bergambar.

Taknak pandang camera, taknak duduk bawah, taknak pakai kopiah.

Cengginilah jadinya gambar raya kami.

Herot je....

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Raya ke-2 kat Melaka.

Motif ambik gambar kat sungai?

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"Ibu.... Aiman found a ball"

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"Throw the ball....."
(Nasib baik kelapa tu tak jatuh atas kepala)

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Ni satu lagi gambar yang motifnya tak dapat dipastikan.
Che Man suh kita orang posing kat tingkap,

kita ikut je.

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Dengan ipar, biras, nieces & nephews

Motif kau berpelukan kat belakang tu?

Masa ni Aiman takde. Dia tengah sibuk sepak kelapa -

sambil terjerit-jerit :

"Kick the ball, kick the ball"

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Kat rumah nenek belah abah raya ke berapa tah.

Nenek je ada. Pak Long & Mak Long takde kat rumah.

Sendiri buat teh tarik, sendiri ambik makanan -

buat cam umah sendiri.

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Kat Nilai during our last day of Hari Raya leave.

Rasanya, takde gambar kami berbaju raya dalam

rumah pun this year. Semua pakat pakai tracksuit & kain batik.

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Moga ada Hikmah

It started with a problem that leads to many other problems.

There was supposed to be a discussion to sort those problems – if not to solve them.
But some people refused to discuss – they are beyond that stage.
The failed discussion leads to arguments – ugly ones.
Arguments built tension – became more intense as hours passed.
Tension created eruption – rarely seen.

There were people scolding, shouting, pushing and punching.
There were knifes.
There were policemen.
There were people crying.
There were neighbours looking.

At the end
A father disowned his only son.
A mother’s heart broke into million pieces.
A daughter hoping for ‘hikmah’.

It was a terrible weekend.

How was yours?

Buat apa weekend tu hari?

I am sick of spending weekdays outside the house until 10pm – almost every night.

So last weekend, I tried my very best not to go out. Not so successful, coz on Saturday early morning, I had to drive to groceries shop. I usually do that on Friday night after work, but we were out for dinner with Che Man’s family last Friday. On Saturday Che Man had to work, so I decided to go out early, buy groceries and breakfast so we can have breakfast together at home. I had to make sure I have what ever things I need to cook this weekend ready before Che Man go to work. Camni la kalau ada satu keta je

Half way through cooking my ayam masak lomak cili api, I realized that I didn’t have asam keping. So I called Che Man to buy some on his way back for lunch. When he came back, I reheated the gulai and threw in the asam keping. As I was opening a small container to put my balance of asam keping, thereeee…. I saw not one, but two packets of asam keping! Nampak sangat lama tak masak, sampai lupa kat mana letak asam keping ;) But I didn’t tell Che Man lah.

Spent the rest of Saturday afternoon doing laundry, cleaning and wiping. Sempat juga bergaduh dengan Aiman. Kuat buat sepah budak ni. He poured quarter bottle of honey on the floor, whole pack of ikan bilis into my stove, tabur bedak on my dressing table, keluarkan some pinggan mangkuk dari dalam almari. He also took out coins from tabung KFC and put them into his aeroplane dan kemudian ketuk-ketuk benda alah tu kat dinding sambil mengamuk coz he could not get those coins out. Kenapa lah wahai anak kau tak reti duduk diam tengok TV? Nasib baik petang tu dia tido sekejap. Kalau tak, meroyan aku.

After dinner Che Man asked me to follow him to send his brother in-law to KLIA but I refused. Sending one person to KLIA with two cars is just not productive. Che Man brought Aiman with him.

I thought I can just sit watching TV but it didn’t happen. I started with cleaning the house & sorting things out, and then took long shower. At 1a.m Che Man masih belum balik, aku siang ikan, ayam & sotong, malah siap tumbuk bawang bagai. Semangat nak masak untuk besok datang awal la pulak. I told myself many times that I should just take this opportunity to lepak, enjoy my tea, read a book, watch DVD or something relaxing, but I just can’t stop.

Che Man & Aiman only reached house after 1.30am. At first I was worried. We didn’t expect Che Man will come back so late. How la Aiman wants to sleep in the car when Che Man didn’t bring his car seat? When they reached home, Aiman was happily sat at the back seat holding a pack of junk food and refused to come out of the car. Budak bertuah. Tak tido lagi rupanya dia.

“Aiman gi mana tadi sayang?”

“Nenok ayah-pin” (tengok aeroplane)

I spent Sunday cooking & cleaning some more. Bila Aiman tido petang, I spent time with Che Man watched DVDs and read weekend papers. Didn’t manage to finish a movie. Get-up and prepared dinner pulak. Sungguh aman damai kat dapur tanpa si kecik terjerit-jerit mahukan perhatian. In the evening, we decided to bring Aiman to playground nearby. There, I realized that I was actually really tired – or maybe rasa macam nak demam. I just sat there looking at Aiman & Che Man playing around. Aku tak larat angkat my fat ass and join them. I saw this one guy with his two children. His children spoke in English but he talked to them in Malay (I think he wanted to ‘communicate’ with me kot. Obvious ok).

He constantly ‘scolded’ his children “Cepat! Cepat! Bergayut pada palang. Gerak. Pemalas. Cakap banyak. Budak-budak sekarang tengok TV 24 jam. Takde keluar peluh. Itu pun tak boleh buat. Cakap sajer banyak. Makan 3 kali sehari, exercise malas!”

Fuh… semangat tuh.

Puas hati. All laundry baskets are empty, cloths are folded, sorted and hanged properly, the floors from front to back including in all rooms are shining, dua-dua bilik air bersinar & harum (over kau ni Nomi), took out 3 garbage bags, fridge is clean, furniture’s wiped, I cooked for every meals for two days, washed my hair nicely, scrubbed the whole body and pampered myself with very thick perfumed lotion, read book, newspapers, watched TV & DVDs and kena sakat dengan Aiman.

Berbaloi.

Errr…. Takde pulak aku ambik gambar.

Simple Weekend

Last weekend was nice.

There were so many past weekends that we spent visited people in hospital, kenduri-kendara, balik kampung, etc. We were never home. Habuk dalam rumah pun dah bertingkat-tingkat, rumput pun tebal, fridge empty, pintu feezer takleh nak buka coz ice sungguh tebal, dapur pun tak berasap – things like that.

But last weekend, we spent time with just the three of us. Even though, it was a little bit spoiled coz I had to spend half day at work, but I managed to sort and clear many papers from my table. Since I had the car all for my self that afternoon, I took the opportunity to finally go and cut my hair. Dah berzaman okeyyy tak potong rambut. Niat hati nak potong rambut saja, tapi bila tengok tukang cuci rambut tu dok urut-urut bahu masa cuci rambut orang sebelah, tarusss……

“… cuci sekali dik ye….”. heaven.

My nieces complained said my face look tembam,

after I cut my hair short. Takpe la... nasik dah jadi bubur....

Ingat nak ambik Aiman pastu gi groceries shopping, balik rumah dan prepare minum petang. Tapi Aiman was sleeping when I arrived at MIL’s. Kena tunggu until about 4 something baru boleh balik. Aiman hates to sit in his car seat. All the way to Bukit Raja I had to calm him down. He managed to free half of his body when we reached the groceries shop near my house.

Berpeluh-peluh aku dukung dia sambil pilih ikan, sayur and some other things. By the time we reached home, it was nearly 5pm. Since I needed to pick up Che Man at 6.00pm, I had to skip tea time and straight away prepared dinner, did one load of laundry and gave Aiman his evening bath.

After we got home, we had home cooked dinner and I did some house chores (so that I don’t have to do to many things the next day).

The planned was to prepare breakfast for them on Sunday. Tapi bangun tido je teringat roti arab from nearby restaurant. So Che Man went and tapau breakfast and after that just lepak till afternoon.

Afternoon mission started a bit late. After so many weekends, I finally found my self at Summit USJ. Got myself 6 DVDs, 3 books, few shorts and t-shirts. We had Japanese food for lunch. Chasing Aiman around made us felt tired. So we decided to leave the mall earlier than planned.

Aiman slept all the way to Bukit Raja. But we didn’t go home straight. We went and checked our still-in-progress house. This time around we managed to see our actual unit because jalan semua dah siap. But the door was locked of course. We took a look from the back of the house also and that was when I got shocked – the size of the kitchen is only about half of my current kitchen's size!

*pengsan*

Well, I already know it is not going to be as big as current ones, but THAT small? Bertenang… bertenang….. Nomi. I’ll wait till I got my keys and see what I can do about it. Of course there are still rooms for renovation but looking at our financial forecast till end of this year, I doubt it that I can do many things with the house before we move in.

If we can pay overdue payment interest, deposit for water & electricity, pasang grills, lampu, kipas (hopefully air-cond too) and most importantly my kitchen cabinet (which is now I know it won’t cost so much anymore due to the ciput-size kitchen) and tempah langsir - dah cukup bagus dah. To break the wall so to extend the kitchen till the dry area, change the tiles, put up wall tiles, build additional wall and change the door location is too ambitious at this point of time.

*sigh*

Biasa la. Tuan rumah dengan anak tuan rumah

mesti nak ambik gambar depan rumah....

Sambung balik pasal weekend.

We spent the rest of the afternoon and evening cleaning bathrooms, trimming grass, angkat kain, lipat kain, another load of laundry, gosok baju, mengelap sana situ, preparing dinner and layan Aiman. When Aiman finally tido and Che Man started doing his office works, I spent two and half hours watching Slumdog Millionaire. (Ye… baru sekarang dapat tengok, berhenti menjuih bibir tu ye.) I even managed to read few pages from the newly purchased book.

I love this type of weekend where I did my house chores tanpa tergesa-gesa. Enjoyed breakfast with two special ‘men’ in my life while watching TV and read weekend newspapers. Watched my husband trimming our laman semak with Aiman tried to ‘help’ him around. Realized Che Man menghabiskan dua pinggan nasi with my mediocre lauks - macam la sedap sangat. Peluk and cium each other sambil menunjuk-nunjuk kat Aiman simply because we know that he will tergelak-gelak malu. (I wonder why).

Spent time with Aiman dari pagi sampai petang. I love it when he suddenly appeared in the kitchen and bodek me so that I’ll make him his susu. Tetiba dia datang berlari and hugged my legs and said "yea yea… ibu… ibu.." and asked me to dukung him so that he can see what was in my kuali. Gave him bath and struggled to brush his teeth. Bergumpal-gumpal atas katil sambil bergelak ketawa, sorted out his no-longer-fit clothes which reminded me kisah dia dolu-dolu when he was still muat in those baju(s).

Berlari-lari anak kat shopping mall sambil terjerit-jerit kat Aiman. Threatened him that we won’t bring him to mall again – knowing it won’t happen ;) Forced Che Man to eat Japanese food just for the sake of trying. Finally got my DVDs and books, walaupun only God knows when I’ll watch or read them!

I didn’t do some other things that I wanted to do last weekend. Mostly something to do with cleaning, arranging, sorting, storing, etc. But it’s ok. Weekend does not always equal to hari mengemas rumah.

It is also about spending quality time with your little family.

Cuti Tahun Baru

Bukan cerita basi. Cuma agak masam sikit. Sila bertahan.

Malam tahun baru hati sangat sakit dengan perbuatan seseorang yang lupa janji. The excitement to pack for 2 days vacation at Kota Keriangan terus merundum. Mood melayang. Jiwa kacau. Taktala itu sedar yang Syaitan sedang berbisik-bisik, namun diri membiarkan. Lantas terlintas bayangan-bayangan jahat di fikiran. Membayangkan 'indahnya' malam dan 'puasnya' hati jika aku turutkan saja kemahuan syaitan-syaitan yang sedang berdansa disekeliling ku.

*beristihfar*

Mungkin akal masih waras. Mungkin keimanan berbaki di hati. Lantas ku panjatkan doa pada Illahi.

“Ya Allah. Hapuskan lah perasaan amarah yang meracau hati ini. Berikan aku kekuatan menepis taruhan syaitan-syaitan yang sedang kegirangan. Berikan aku daya untuk meneruskan malam dengan tenang. Amin”.

Aku gagahi juga berkemas untuk perjalanan esoknya. Sambil berkali-kali memberitahu hati supaya bertahan – jangan buka mulut. Dalam keadaan sekarang, yang keluar pasti yang sinis. Tak da yang manis. Lebih baik diam.

Sebelum tidur, aku berniat memaafkan diri sendiri. Memaafkan semua orang yang pernah membuat salah pada aku. Lantas aku beri ucapan ringkas pada mahkluk yang asalnya api :

“Dengan nama tuhan yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani. Sesungguhnya kau wahai syaitan yang dilaknat Allah; tidak beroleh kemenangan malam ini. Adanya kecintaan ku pada si dia (serta dengan izin dari Nya) hasutan mu telah aku atasi”.

(Aku berlindung denganmu Ya Allah daripada syaitan yang direjam. Amin)

The next morning, despite slept at 2.30am, I managed to wake up early and feeling fresh and happy like nothing happened. Timing was nice. We reached MIL’s place as promised. Soon we made our way to G.enting H.ighlands and arrived safely at around 10.30am.

Due to last minute arrangement, we only managed to book R.ia A.partment (hajat hati nak duduk hotel dekat ngan theme park). After one round up to the summit, we realized that we will not get parking space easily at that hour. So we berebut parking dengan apek & nyonya kat R.ia A.partment je. Dah tau check-in time 2pm tapi saja tried our luck. Not lucky. Apartment was sooooo not ready. So we left our things in the cars and walked. I repeat….. we WALKED to the indoor theme park.
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Walaupun penat menapak, pantang nampak camera, boleh gak tersengih kita orang ni.

Kesian semua orang menapak naik bukit, dengan sejuk, dengan stamina tahap zero (aku le ni). Lebih kesian kat FIL & MIL who had to walked that far, naik bukit lagi in that very cold weather. Oh! Did I say that already?

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Singgah jap kat hotel mana tah. Tumpang toilet & ambik gambar.

(Si Aiman ni pulak tak tengok camera. Dia dok hairan tengok beruk main gitar)

Sampai in-door theme park, tercengang-cengang aku. Dah berzaman tak ke sini. Tak tau camna nak mula..

(Terkenang semula pengalaman bersama kawan-kawan masa bujang dulu. Time tu tido dalam keta. Hotel semua full. Time tu nyampah sikit ngan Che Man. Muka dia sentiasa macam mencuka coz girlfriend dia tak nak ikut sama. Tapi, ada hati lak nak ngorat kita. Eh eh! Tercerita lak!)

We paid RM30 per person for all indoor rides access. Cuti sekolah & public holiday - what do you expect la kan? The place was packed like nobody business. After this & that, we picked up my MIL & FIL at Stabak. Kesian dia orang kena tunggu je kita orang habis merayau. Ye la… kalau ikut kita orang nanti, tentu penat. Sudah tu dia orang tak mau ride anything there also. However, we made sure that diaorang tau that we were just nearby. Stabak was a strategic location. Whatever ride we took, we will pas near them, so we lambai-lambai them. Hopefully they all tak rasa tertinggal gitu.

Benda alah ni dah habis pusing, tapi Aiman tak mau lepaskan kuda ni.

We walked back to the apartment. It was nearly 3.00pm. We were hungry but the apartment still was not ready. Didn’t really care. Masuk juga. Mengomel-ngomel la si tukang cuci. Berdengkit-dengkit la kaki kita orang memijak lantai sejuk & masih basah baru dimop.

The apartment - all I can say: they swept & mopped the floor, wiped the (quite old) furniture but didn’t actually scrub the whole place. Got water heaters, cooking facilities & utensils (but due to halal issues we brought our own), kettle, iron, 3 king size beds complete with pillows & blankets. Extra bed chargeable at RM10 per set. We had additional 4 sets – ramai yang gi sebenarnya. No towels & no soap. RM450 per day was the rate for super peak for three-bedroom apartment. Down stairs has mini market and cafeteria that serves halal food at (surprisingly) reasonable price tag – nak balik baru perasan daaaa.

Panaskan lauk & makan. Petang tu, itu je la kerja nya. Makan, lepak, borak, watch TV & tido. Ingat nak naik ke Theme Park balik coz our wristbands masih valid. Rugi pulak tak gunakan sepenuhnya. Tapi memikirkan kena menapak lagi dalam cuaca camtu, tak larat la.

At night after Maghrib however, BIL who left to the theme park in the evening called and informed us there are some kereta sapu downstairs that can take us to the theme park for RM2 per person. Oh seronoknya takyah jalan jejauh lagi. So we went up again and yada.... yada... yada..... Food up there quite expensive (I was told, didn’t really check), so we just bought some finger foods with coffee & tea. We had late dinner in the apartment later.

"Sudah-sudah la tu ambik gambar ibu oii..... Orang nak susu!"

The next day had brunch in the apartment and check-out.

Ni tengahari buta sebelum naik ke Theme Park. Berkabus giler.

We left our cars there and took kereta sapu to go up again. Ingat nak gi outdoor theme park but it was closed due to raining. So, indoor lagi la. We lepak-ed most of the time in one café pas tu rasa-rasa boring, jalan-jalan, penat kalau, lepak situ lagi minum-minum, pas tu rasa nak jalan, jalan balik. We took turn jaga kerusi & meja tempat lepak tu. Sila buat cam umah sendiri je.

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Che Man beli benda alah yang tutup kepala & belit-belit kat leher

ni kat situ for RM15. Siap ada gloves untuk Aiman sekali.

Saja je kami nak feeling-feeling London.

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Kita orang buat cafe ni cam rumah sendiri.

Buat tempat makan minum, bagi anak susu, lepas lelah,

letak barang & tempat menunggu.

Left G.enting at 5.30pm after makan at B.urger K.ing.

MIL : “Berapa harga burger ni?”
Aku : “Tujuh belas hengget mak”
MIL : *Mata terbuntang*

Bye bye. Nak balik dah ni.

Sampai Klang, lepas kemas kain baju, mandi dan sebagainya, packed barang untuk balik Nilai pulak. Spent the weekend there.

Saturday night, semua orang (paling-paling aku ler tu), malas masak. Decided to eat out. My father suggested to try a restaurant where his nephew sells ayam bakar and kerang rebus. Owner of this restaurant bela unta & rusa (or is it kijang?) kat situ juga. Besar gak kedai ni. Siap ada pentas karaoke lagi. Pentas tu rasanya lebih besar daripada pentas sekolah aku dulu. Makanan pun not bad. Harga sangat la murah. Ayam bakar sangat perisa & juicy *promote untuk sedara sendiri sebab dah janji ngan dia*

Restaurant ni terletak di jalan lama Nilai-Labu-Seremban.

Nampak signboard ni kat sebelah kanan dari Nilai.

Ayam bakar yang marbeles.

Bila sehari semalam berjalan-jalan carik makan, lepak 2 hari kat kota keriangan, sambung pulak balik kampung hujung minggu dan hari-hari diantaranya mendung saja (good excuse ni) , ini lah hasilnya!

Aku : Camna nak buat ni bang?

Che Man : Pilih-pilih mana patut, hantar dobi je.
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Saya sukerrr idea bernas sebegini!

Syukur

I posted THIS ENTRY more than a year ago.

Tak dapat rasanya mendedahkan perkara yang sebenar atas sebab perundangan. Cukuplah aku katakan yang waktu itu ianya adalah berita buruk yang sukar untuk kami sekeluarga percayai & lalui.

Masa tu seluruh negara sedang hangat memperkatakan satu isu dalam negara. Siapa sangka yang ahli keluarga sendiri terheret sama? It was in the newspaper and on TV. Ramai pulak orang datang bertanyakan cerita di sebalik cerita.

Waktu itu, bukan lagi soal bersalah atau tidak. Ia lebih pada soal membuktikan diri tidak bersalah.

Siang malam doa dipanjatkan. Biar yang hak tegak, yang batil rebah.

Hari ni, aku terima berita manis. Ianya sangat manis sampai aku menangis sambil memanjat rasa syukur pada Yang Esa.

Semua tuduhan digugurkan pada babak akhir episod yang malang.

Tapi mengenangkan kembali setahun yang berlalu, ada juga kebaikan disebalik semua kepayahan ini. Terang lah siapa sebenarnya kawan.

Alhamdullillah.

Pocah Rahsio Den

I spent my extended weekend at my parents’place and did few raya visits.

My 12-year-old niece who stays next to her atuk’s house came and told me she 'accidentally' found my blog!

I was like…. WHAT????

I asked her : “Ade bagitau ayah tak?”

(ayah = BIL)

She happily said : “Tu…... ayah tengah baca”

HIYAAAAA!!!!

At night she showed me how she managed to find my blog. As she was proudly doing her presentation, suddenly her atuk datang and said “Eh…??? Apo bondo eh tu?" (mungkin terkejut tengok gambar cucu dia in some web) I quickly asked my niece to close the window and run, but I know abah will find it anyway.

Ada family korang baca blog korang tak?

The 'Culprit' in red

Pst: Abah, jangan ngadap PC lelamo, nanti mak marah! hehehehehe

Puasa & Blister

Tak terlambat rasanya nak ucap selamat berpuasa u ols. How’s things so far? Aku baru jer 2 hari dapat join you all puasa after a week off. So far so good lah. Al maklumlah, orang kerja opis – bukannya kena membanting tulang bawah pancaran matahari bagai.

IKLAN JAP

Ni kalau dapat buka posa Nasi Kandar Pelita + Teh Ais best ni...

Dilemma aku bulan puasa ni ialah pasal berbuka puasa arrangement. Ni tahun lepas. So, tahun ni aku ingat nak ikut cara yang sama. The first two days we had it at my PIL's place together with my SIL & family (temporary they stay together until raya).

So the third day masa aku tengah sibuk angkut Aiman nak balik MIL & SIL asked:

“Kenapa tak nak buka kat sini?”

I had no choice but to tell the truth:
“Hari-hari buka kat sini, Nomi SEGAN lah”

SIL laughed sambil mengeleng-ngeleng kepala. MIL clarified that, they wish for us to buka puasa with them. Lagi ramai lagi seronok. Walau selama 30 hari. They do not mind a bit pun.

Kalau camtu, okey lahkan. Haaaa… kan senang kita orang dah berterus terang camni. So, setiap hari lepas balik kerja kami singgah pasar Ramadhan beli sikit itu & ini and join everyone at MIL’s. Tak yah kecoh-kecoh redah traffic nak balik awal punya pasal.

By the way, bulan puasa ni Che Man kena masuk kerja sejam lebih awal. Terpaksa la aku tak tido lepas sahur – dengan pertolongan Mr. Nescafe pekat. Dapat jugak buat kerja-kerja rumah yang biasanya aku buat malam. Kul 7.30 pagi dah sampai opis. Kalau masih ngantuk aku belasah tido kat Surau barang satu jam. Bukan jadi kesalahan kan. Start kerja kul 9.00 pagi la.

Nak citer aku dah beli baru raya.

Asal usul nya Che Man nak beli baju sedondon ngan Aiman. Maka berangkat la kami ke Plaza Alam Central. Ini la first time beli baju raya bawak si Aiman sekali. Lepas cuba baju, dibantainya la lari kat ruang legar tu tanpa baju. Terpaksa la aku kejar sambil tangan pegang baju, beg plastic semua. Ada la couples yang gelakkan kita orang.

Korang gelak yek?

Siap la sok bila kau dah ada anak. Mahu dia lari-lari kat shopping mall pakai lampin pakai buang jer. Nanti aku gelak kan nko pulak.

Che Man jumpa kaler, tak jumpa saiz, jumpa saiz, tak jumpa kaler. Dah jumpa kaler & saiz, tak jumpa lak baju sedondon ngan Aiman. Pening la. Bila dah dapat, aku lak kecoh bawa baju tu ke sana ke mari nak carik baju aku biar sedondon. Basically, aku ambik baju Aiman, letak dekat baju-baju kurung yang tergantung-gantung tu nak carik yang sesuai. Belasah.

Jumpa la sehelai (sehelai je baju raya aku tahun ni). Che Man ngan Aiman tah dah kemana, terpaksa aku buat decision sendiri. Bila nak bayar baru Che Man jumpa aku. Sib baik, sebab duit aku tak cukup RM50 (hehehehe). Dah bayar baru Che Man tengok baju tu.

Dia tak suka pulakkkkkk!

Takde bunga-bunga kata nya. Dah la dia ngan Aiman kain kosong, aku pun beli baju kain kosong – jarang lak tu. (Tapi kain dia ada corak-corak la bang). Kalau camtu, kena la carik sehelai lagi ni. Muhahahahaha........

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Raya nanti, dua orang itam pakai baju light purple. Ambik nko.

Citer lain.

Adoi aiiiii!!! Pehal lak dengan ruam / blister ni suma?

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Dah lebih seminggu aku tanggung dah. Telinga kiri aku, kulit bahagian rahang dan leher aku tak pasal-pasal ada ruam / blister. Ada masanya, sangat gatal, pedih macam kena hiris pisau, panas macam kena tenyeh ngan cili padi. Especially, telinga aku - super sensitive, Kalau terkasar sikit je cam terkena kuku ke, boleh aku terlompat-lompat kesakitan. Dah la camtu, buruk pulak rupanya tu. Ada satu hal lagi, belakang telinga aku tu ada benjol kecik yang bila ditekan rasa sakit sebelah leher - tegang semacam.

Dah gi doctor dah. Dia cakap ruam. Dia bagi ubat tahan gatal untuk malam (pe hal? biar la saya nak gatal memalam doktor....), ubat tahan gatal untuk siang, ubat tahan sakit dan krim untuk sapu. Benjol kecik tu kata doctor adalah kelenjar yang membengkak disebabkan oleh kulit aku yang tengah radang. Ruam tu baik nanti, susut lah bengkak tu; katanya.

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MARI TENGOK DEKAT SIKIT

Gatal, pedih, panas - semua ada.

Leher aku pun bengkak sikit.

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Officemates dah perasan dah telinga aku merah sebelah, siap ingat aku ada jerawat teruk kat muka, pas tu tak pasal-pasal ada ‘lovebite’ bulan posa ni (ada satu tompok lagi kat bahagian leher depan). Cis! Ada yang kata kayap. Bahaya oooo… kang masuk dalam telinga, habis lah aku.

Aku ingat nak gi klinik kulit jer hari ni, tapi tetiba pagi ni, rasa sakit tu dah banyak kurang. Dah tak pedih sangat. Ada tanda-tanda nak kering. Kopek luka kering sangat syok.

PIL aku sibuk tolong carik orang boleh ubatkan kayap. They found one but according the person’s description, we come into a conclusion that this is NOT KAYAP. Saper tu hari cakap ini kudis buta? Pun bukan okey...

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Now dah makin baik. Alhamdullillah.

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Pedih pulak perut ni. Aku sebenarnya ada gastric. Tu la aku perihatin pasal waktu waktu makan ni. Tapi yang peliknya, bulan puasa tak kena pulak.

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Hikmah puasa agakntya.

Ketabahan

Aku selalu rasa takjub, bangga dan terharu dengan semangat, ketabahan dan kasih sayang mereka. Bukan sedikit dugaan yang mereka tempuh. Dari perihal keluarga ke skandal dalam negara.

Apa lagi kalau perkara-perkara yang melibatkan soal anak.

Boleh ke aku setabah mereka kalau berlaku yang perkara yang sama pada aku sekeluarga?

Semoga mereka terus tabah dan diberkati yang Esa.

Amin.

Kambing Hitam

I never thought something like this would happen to my family. Did not pay much attention to one of the country's current scandals. Was shocked to know that we now part of it.

Scapegoat, we are.

You can pull our legs. You can threaten us. You can make us suffer. Surrender? No way!

Berani kerana benar.

Dear family, be strong. We are together and together we will.

'Tuhan,

Ku pohon, kau permudahkan perjalanan ini.

Ku pohon, kau kuat kan hati kami.

Ku pohon, kau hadirkan kami kawan-kawan sejati.

Ku pohon, yang bersalah dihukum, yang teraniaya terbela"

Amin

Tunggu

Bukan nya Nomi tak nak melawat.

Busy. Takde masa.

Kerja Isnin sampai Sabtu

Tinggal Ahad je.

Kalau tak balik kampung, attend kenduri

Kalau takde ape-ape, Che Man lak kerja hari Ahad

Tu la takde masa nak melawat.

Ye ke? Alasan kot?

Takkan sekejap pun tak boleh?

Bukan nya jauh sangat

Tak sampai pun 60 km.

.......emmmm

Ohhh.. mungkin selama ni

Nomi yang tak berapa kisah

Sibuk dengan hal sendiri

Lupa ada orang menanti

Nomi minta ampun
Nomi minta maaf

Tapi percaya lah...

Tak kira apa yang berlaku...

Tak kira macam mana berlaku...

Tak kira dah berapa kali berlaku...

Nomi tetap ingat,

Nomi tetap sayang,

Nomi tetap rindu,

Nomi tetap sayu.

Nomi akan cuba datang selalu

Oh Ahad

Datang la cepat

I DO Love Her

How do you feel when your younger sister tells you that she is getting married? Happy and exited right? Because you know its coming. She and her boyfriend is compatible couple. He is like one of the family members already. She told you about her plan. Logic, practical & lovely. You know she is ready. You know it’s about time already.

BUT… when my sister told me that our younger sister is getting engaged in 2 weeks time, I was shocked and frustrated! Why? Because, I did not see it coming. Even though she told us about her plan earlier, but we have advised her THINK AGAIN. Why? Because we KNOW that she is not ready. Obviously, she ignored our advice.

Let just put it this way. We KNOW her – so very well. She is so NOT ready. I do not wish to elaborate the ‘not ready’ part further.

And, engagement ceremony should be a happy occasion for a family. To her especially. I hope I can refrain my big mouth from saying anything that will hurt her tomorrow. I hope she will avoid saying or doing things that will irritate me tomorrow - that..... I need.

Please God. Help me. I want to be a good sister to my sisters. Let me be the sister whose contributions will contribute to their happiness at least on their special day. Give me patient to deal with this.

She is my sister. I must love her. I must be with her. I must support her. I must help her. I must at least try to make her happy.

Dear Sis,

I don't hate you. I just want the best for you.

I hope you are making the right decision.

I hope you will prove me wrong.