Syukur

I posted THIS ENTRY more than a year ago.

Tak dapat rasanya mendedahkan perkara yang sebenar atas sebab perundangan. Cukuplah aku katakan yang waktu itu ianya adalah berita buruk yang sukar untuk kami sekeluarga percayai & lalui.

Masa tu seluruh negara sedang hangat memperkatakan satu isu dalam negara. Siapa sangka yang ahli keluarga sendiri terheret sama? It was in the newspaper and on TV. Ramai pulak orang datang bertanyakan cerita di sebalik cerita.

Waktu itu, bukan lagi soal bersalah atau tidak. Ia lebih pada soal membuktikan diri tidak bersalah.

Siang malam doa dipanjatkan. Biar yang hak tegak, yang batil rebah.

Hari ni, aku terima berita manis. Ianya sangat manis sampai aku menangis sambil memanjat rasa syukur pada Yang Esa.

Semua tuduhan digugurkan pada babak akhir episod yang malang.

Tapi mengenangkan kembali setahun yang berlalu, ada juga kebaikan disebalik semua kepayahan ini. Terang lah siapa sebenarnya kawan.

Alhamdullillah.

Cerita Si Aiman

He is now 1 year 8 months.

Perkara yang paling ketara dengan Aiman sekarang ialah, dia sedang belajar bercakap. Dia dah ingat banyak benda dan belajar sebut macam-macam. Chatter box budak ni.

Dalam kereta setiap pagi & petang about 20 minutes to / from his nenek’s house, apa yang dia nampak dalam perjalanan semua dia try nak sebut dan tunjuk. For examples; Lo..ie… (Lorry), Bash (Bus), Oto (Motor), Ka..kar.. (Car) yang paling tak bleh blah is ‘Ayah Pin’ which means ‘Airplane’!. We never teach him; but he could associate some vehicles with some names; like whenever he sees Innova, he’ll say ‘Pak Yong’ (Pak Long = my BIL who is driving Innova). When he sees a motorcycle that look likes his uncle bike, he’ll says ‘Achik’. Whenever he sees river / pond, he’ll say ‘Iskh’ ‘Iskh’ which means ‘fish’. Kekadang tu, nampak air lopak pun dia tegur "Iskh ishk"' jugak. Bila dah dekat nak sampai tol, he’ll say “tit tit” (smart tag / Touch & Go). Balik dari ambik dia, kalau kami melencong dari jalan ynag biasa kami ikut, he’ll get risau. Tengok kiri kanan and look at us. Dia tau tu bukan jalan yang biasa kami ikut. Expresi muka konpius.


He has been calling Che Man & my self ‘ayah’ and now he has started to call me ‘BU’. It melts my heart whenever he calls us coz the way he calls us is sooooo manja. Words can’t describe my feeling whenever I hear him calling us like that. Heaven! However, at times dia sengaja menyakat aku ngan Che Man by calling us ‘Pak Tam’and ‘Mak Tam’ like how his cousins call us.

So sekarang, tengah sibuk nak belajar bercakap ni, macam-macam benda dia dah pandai minta / arah. For example:
· Nak mam achik (nak makan nasi) – sambil panjat kerusi makan.
· Ting ner? Ting? (punting mana? punting?) – sambil angkat-angkat kening
· Bush tess (brush teeth) – sambil ketuk pintu bilik air
· Nak Air
· Nak cucu / mirk (nak susu / milk)
· Bik Bik / Tip tip (ambil / kutip) – sambil tunjuk barang yang dia nak.

He could counts, tapi tak pernah sampai sepuluh. Nampaknya dia sangat cepat bosan bila kita start to teach him 123 atau ABC. I can ask him to urut my legs – those lovely-so-smooth-little fingers really can make me relax. But as I said, dia cepat bosan, urut tak sampai seminit, pas tu lari.

When he plays, he likes to play with round things lebih-lebih lagi kalau benda tu berpusing. I think he is quite obsess with round things. Sejak kecil lagi dia suka tengok benda bulat & berpusing. He recognizes mcam-macam jenis kipas. He’ll say “fan fan” when he sees one. Macam tu jugak dengan tayar. Lori yang lalu sebelah kereta tu punya la besar, dia sibuk nak tengok tayar je.

Asyik betul dia kalau dapat tayar

Sekarang dia dah faham yang dia mesti baca doa sebelum makan, sebelum kereta bergerak dan sebelum tidur. Tapi masih tunggang terbalik dan pelat dan omit itu dan ini. Bila orang lain baca doa, dia aminkan. Yang aku tak larat, selamba je dia angkat takbir & sujud depan bilik air. Itu alas kaki la sayang, bukan sejadah!

Tengah baca doa makan

Bila dia ambil barang tangan kiri, kami akan tanya, “Tangan mana?”. Dia akan angkat tangan kanan pas tu baru hulur kat kita. Mula-mula dulu, aku tanya spontan je, rupa-rupanya dia dah belajar dari nenek dia. Satu lagi yang dia biasa buat tapi bukan aku yang ajar; he’ll say ‘masehhh’ (terima kasih) bila kita bagi dia something atau sambut barang yang dia hulur. So cute.

Ya Allah! That is very nice word from him everyday, many times a day. He’ll say this at almost perfect tone and pronounciation whenever he sees something patah, tumpah, pecah, berselerak --------> konon-konon terperanjat sangat lah. tu. Kadang-kadang yang pecahkan / tumpahkan dia la culprit nya, dia akan just walk away and later come back, pura-pura terrrrr…nampak kesan perbuatan dia tadi and shout like he is so surprise “Ya Allah! Ya Allah! Empahhhh! (tumpah) ” Emm…... aku nak marah pun tak jadi.

Dia sekarang dah tinggi. Dah dapat capai barang dari almari dapur dan dah boleh buka pintu bilik air sendiri. Terpaksa aku takut-takut kan dia pasal hot bowl / pot / mug by saying “Hot! Hot”. Bila dengar camtu, dia tak berani usik (mula-mula nak ajar dia dulu, aku sentuhkan sikit jari dia pada hot mug). Taktik ni jugak yang aku gunakan bila aku tak mau dia kacau aku minum kopi. I’ll say to him “hot! hot!” terus member tak jadi usik mug aku. Kalau kat bilik air, he’ll say “icin icin” (licin) sambil tunjuk lantai, but he will step into the bathroom anyway.

When it comes to food, he loves spicy & hot food. He also prefer mee, pasta, roti rather than rice. But he does not eat a lot. Nasib baik dia kuat minum susu and has no problem taking his vitamins.

Suka makan sendiri

Satu yang buat aku pening. Hampir setiap malam dia tidur lebih kurang kul 1.30 pagi. We all dah tak larat dah. Macam-macam cara aku buat, dari pujuk, tepuk, tutup semua lampu, takut-takut kan dia, marah dan lepuk; semua tak jalan.

Like last night, it was around 1am, lepas kena marah ngan Che Man dia baring mengiring arah dinding. Lama camtu, ingatkan dah tido. Aku pun tertidur. Alih-alih aku sedar dia senyap-senyap dan pelan-pelan cuba melangkah aku & Che Man. Cuba nak turun dari katil. It was so funny to see him keras when I move a bit, pas tu continue his project. Sekali tu, Che Man yang sedang tidur kalih badan, Aiman cepat-cepat melompat over me to his side of the bed, pretended to sleep ------> tu kes takut kena marah ngan ayah dia la tuh! Pelakon! Cam tu la everynight.

Entah pukul berapa dia tidur, aku pun tak pasti.

This morning, Che Man told me, he found Aiman punya mainan dalam bilik. Meaning, si Aiman ada bangun (masa kita orang dah tido), ambik mainan tu dari bekas permainan dia kat living room and bring them into the bedroom. See? Dengan lampu semua dah tutup, tinggal lampu garage je, berani dia tu!

Dulu, Aiman guna buaian. Memang asalnya tak mau kasi dia tidur buai, but if you follow this blog earlier, you know how & why I changed my decision on the matter. Later, after buaian at his nenek’s dah ranap, he has problem sleeping there also. Kesian nenek pening kepala, we sent the buaian there and now we have this problem pulak! We endured for few months hoping things will get better but it getting worse.

So this week, we all dalam dilemma whether or not to buy him a new buaian. And this morning, I could not stand it anymore “Beli buai dia malam ni jugak!” I told Che Man. “Esok je kita gi beli. Esok kan kita cuti” sib baik Che Man setuju.

Tinggal satu malam lagi.

Buat Entry ni Sebab Boss gi Outstation (Apa punya title daa...)

After 2 weeks, books that I purchased through eBay finally arrived.

Taaaraaaaa......!

Oh! Hati ku gumbira.

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The books are definitely second hands but the condition are still very very good. Macam baru. Tak sabar nak mula baca nih!

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Cerita lain lak.

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Hampir je aku kehilangan alternate Saturday off.

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My boss went balastic when few incidents happened during weekend. He blamed those on lack of supervision from staffs during weekends (memang betul la pun) and decided to cease the policy of alternate Saturday off - walaupun aku rasa tak berapa kena mengena dengan the group of staffs. I only prepared the memo for his signature on the next day, hoping that by the time he sees the memo, his anger already coof off.

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Cool off he did - sungguh drama. Selamat.....!

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On diffrent note, my niece has passed her UPSR with 5As - as expected. Congratulation my dear. Now she is eagerly filling-up application forms for boarding school - M.RSM or something.

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Maka aku teringat kejadian dolu-dolu:

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Aku masuk sekolah-berasrama-yang-tak-berapa-penuh a month after tingkatan satu sudah mula. Hated it so much. I cry like everyday and later jatuh sakit (demam je actually). My parents came (aku yang suh datang, sapa lagi....) and I insisted they take me home - to see doctor la konon. It was at night. Kelambu pun dah pasang masa tu. After 2 days MC, aku cakap kat mak yang aku tak mau balik asrama. Nak tukar sekolah terus. Mak ngan abah pun pi asrama tanggal kelambu, kemas barang-barang aku bawak balik.

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Aku masuk balik sekolah lama. Sampai kelas je; bebudak tepuk tangan "Welcome back! welcome back!" . Cilakak they all. Nasib baik few days after that ada 2 orang kawan aku yang mengikut jejak aku berambus dari sekolah tu.

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Aku tak nyesal keluar dari situ (bukan sekolah best pun). Cuma aku kesal tak applied for sekolah berasrama penuh walaupun masa tu ada peluang (due to some reasons; tapi aku maleh elobarate). I had a good chance to enter S.MAP L.abu (See? Nama sekolah pun aku dah tau masa tu!) Kot-kot aku belajar kat situ dulu, tentu aku jadi manusia yang berlainan sket daripada sekarang kan?

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Agaknya la.

Shy Shy Cat

Two days ago, I was lepaking with some friends and then I saw one familiar face - a popular blogger. I ‘auto-smile’ coz I feel delighted to see her. Really. I admire her beautiful face, her fashion sense and I love her blog. She once commented in my blog also. She (I think la....) smiles back. In my head “Is she smiling at me? Cannot be what… she has a smiling face, that’s all. Aku yang perasan”.

In order not to embarrass myself, aku tahan je from saying “Hi! I read your blog everyday, you know! Boleh ambik gambar sesama tak?”

It is like terserempak dengan your favorite actress. Jakun? Suka hati la!

After she left, I feel stupid.

I have this problem – it is very difficult for me to approach someone for the first time. That is why I do not want to do sales / marketing job.

Some more, there were people commented that I have sombong / garang / unfriendly face. Only later after they know me better, they said that I am actually the opposite of all that - except for garang part la.

Aku bukan garang la oiii… aku TEGAS! ---------> Mati la statement!

What happened that day bukan pasal muka aku sombong atau garang. The real reason: aku PEMALU! Tak caya tanya Rosnah – bleh tetiba kait kan kau Ros?

Macam sukar dipercayai yang aku ni pemalu kan Wani?

So, dengan muka aku yang nampak sombong dan sifat aku yang pemalu ni, I have very few NEW friends this year.

Dear Sweetthooth,
To answer your question in my previous entry:

The lady yang suddenly tersengih ala kerang busuk bila nampak you entered the Old Town Kopitiam in Shah Alam Mall that day and later buat dono / bodoh / berlakon macam tak nampak you jer…… that’s ME – the wanita PEMALU!


*sorok muka*