Tunggu

Bukan nya Nomi tak nak melawat.

Busy. Takde masa.

Kerja Isnin sampai Sabtu

Tinggal Ahad je.

Kalau tak balik kampung, attend kenduri

Kalau takde ape-ape, Che Man lak kerja hari Ahad

Tu la takde masa nak melawat.

Ye ke? Alasan kot?

Takkan sekejap pun tak boleh?

Bukan nya jauh sangat

Tak sampai pun 60 km.

.......emmmm

Ohhh.. mungkin selama ni

Nomi yang tak berapa kisah

Sibuk dengan hal sendiri

Lupa ada orang menanti

Nomi minta ampun
Nomi minta maaf

Tapi percaya lah...

Tak kira apa yang berlaku...

Tak kira macam mana berlaku...

Tak kira dah berapa kali berlaku...

Nomi tetap ingat,

Nomi tetap sayang,

Nomi tetap rindu,

Nomi tetap sayu.

Nomi akan cuba datang selalu

Oh Ahad

Datang la cepat

Dekat Di Hati

Sorry for late posting girls. Kerje opis berlambak. Dah tu layan deman lagi. Enjoy the not-so-clear photos.

16th August 2007

Thursday

12.30pm

Naluri Cafe

Sek. 9, Shah Alam

Amy, Julie, Myza

AMY
We were not so close during PPP time. That’s why I was quite surprise when one day we had this long chat about that-stupid-guy-who-thought-I-was-not-worth-it. The ‘counseling’ session did not stop there. You made follow-ups through e-mails too. I found myself looking forward to receive your e-mail everyday. But later, I stop coz I didn’t want you to get fed-up. Maybe you don’t remember these episodes; however, I want you to know that you have helped me to recover and discovered myself.

Do you still have that (brown?) Proton Saga which you let me tumpang sometimes. I like be in the car with you. Seeing you driving and listening to your cursing, singing and talking at almost simultaneously, amused me.

JULIE
The fist time I saw you I was like; “Éh? Winona Ryder?” I herd many mulut-mulut sumbang said you are sombong and perasan Ms. Ryder. To me you ‘look’ pendiam rather than sombong. Dia orang tu jeles kan? Kan? Kan? Lagi pun diorang tu tak ghoti cakap cakap Nogori kan ? Kan? Kan?

MYZA
I didn’t realize this until one day after I just got down from bas mini kat Siswi, one of my housemate who was with me said to me “Itu Myza. Dia tu pantang nampak kau, mesti panggil kan?”. True enough, from far you shouted. Asking me to join you in whatever borak session you were in. Aha’a la… kau pantang nampak aku kan? I am irresistible kan? Kalau aku cakap aku nak cepat, you will say something like; “Takpe kau Nomi, sombong ngan aku…”. Dah duduk tu terborak lama. I think we laughed more than we talked. Such a jovial person you are.

Kodeng, Yan, Sandra

KODENG
Kepala hotak aku selalu heran – how la you scored 100% in mathematics during ESL dulu? Anyway, tima kasih la bagi aku *ehem* pinjam *ehem* homework dulu. Cam tu la kawan kan?

YAN
We were not from the same class started from the beginning. So, we didn’t know each other well. However, who can forget the big and warm smile of yours? You never failed to say “Hi” to me. I like your ramah character. You are one of the PPP faces I remember well.

SANDRA
Remember we lepak at meja bulat in-front Blok 1? No….. we did not study lah. Besides kutuking a jerk that you used to date, we also talked about HAIR. I remember you forced me to cut your hair! After that, you went and told few people. One day, while we were talking to Sadry, you told him, “Normi baru layered-kan rambut aku. Kau nak tengok?”. Geli hati aku tengok Sadry terkial-kial kat situ. Ape taknya, kau kan pakai tudung masa tu! Gile ape?

Saje.... Untuk Tatapan Umum

I had a good time. Hope to see you all again.

Kenari Cafe anyone?

I DO Love Her

How do you feel when your younger sister tells you that she is getting married? Happy and exited right? Because you know its coming. She and her boyfriend is compatible couple. He is like one of the family members already. She told you about her plan. Logic, practical & lovely. You know she is ready. You know it’s about time already.

BUT… when my sister told me that our younger sister is getting engaged in 2 weeks time, I was shocked and frustrated! Why? Because, I did not see it coming. Even though she told us about her plan earlier, but we have advised her THINK AGAIN. Why? Because we KNOW that she is not ready. Obviously, she ignored our advice.

Let just put it this way. We KNOW her – so very well. She is so NOT ready. I do not wish to elaborate the ‘not ready’ part further.

And, engagement ceremony should be a happy occasion for a family. To her especially. I hope I can refrain my big mouth from saying anything that will hurt her tomorrow. I hope she will avoid saying or doing things that will irritate me tomorrow - that..... I need.

Please God. Help me. I want to be a good sister to my sisters. Let me be the sister whose contributions will contribute to their happiness at least on their special day. Give me patient to deal with this.

She is my sister. I must love her. I must be with her. I must support her. I must help her. I must at least try to make her happy.

Dear Sis,

I don't hate you. I just want the best for you.

I hope you are making the right decision.

I hope you will prove me wrong.

Rindu Him

~EXCUSE ME PEOPLE ~

I am so windu-kan Aiman.

Mana la Che Man ni tak sampai-sampai lagi?

I cannot wait to go home to my baby la...

Macam sama comey kan? kan? kan? kan...?

Heeellllooooo....?

Aku nye baby, aku nye blog, aku nye suke lah!

Jealous meh?!

Gila

Aku bangun tiba-tiba. Terkejut. Ada sesuatu yang tak kena! Aku terjun dari katil, terus ke katil Aiman. Kosong? Kosong!!!

“Mengucap sayang…” entah bila Che Man bangun dan pujuk aku.

“Aiman mana? Aiman hilang!”Aku menjerit pada Che Man.

“Sabar la sayang” Che Man peluk aku. Dia tak panik pun?

“Apa yang abang cakap ni? Aiman mana?” aku dah mengongoi nangis.

Che Man terus pujuk aku. Aku tak paham betul! Anak kami dah hilang, dia cuma suruh aku bersabar je? Dah gila ke dia ni? Aku jadi tak tentu arah. Che Man kali ni berkeras suruh aku diam dan dengar cakap dia. Separuh merayu dia suruh aku ingat kan sesuatu.

“Awak ingat tak ramai orang datang rumah kita? Ramai orang peluk awak suruh bersabar. Awak ingat tak yang awak dah janji awak akan terima ketentuan tuhan yang ini?” Che Man tanya aku.

Ha? Ramai orang datang? Suruh aku sabar? Ketentuan apa nya? Laki aku dah gila ke? Apa yang dia mengarut ni?

“Aimannnnnnnn…!!!!” aku terus menjerit!

Aku tengok semula katil dia. Cuma ade tilam dengan alas nya. Takda barang-barang lain. Aku cari bakul kain baju nya - Kosong! Aku berlari ke ruang tamu mencari buaian - Takde! Aku berlari ke bilik air cari besen mandi dia - Takde! Aku selongkar dapur cari botol susu. Takde! Takde! Takde! Takde!

“Mana barang-barang baby?” aku tanya Che Man dalam nada separuh menjerit. Aku panik. Aku rasa macam nak rebah.

“Abang dah simpan. Itu lebih baik sayang. Tolong la. Jangan buat saya cam ni” rayu Che Man.

Apa yang aku buat pada dia? Ahg.. persetankan! Apa yang penting sekarang, aku mesti cari Aiman! Apa dah jadi pada anak ibu? Che Man peluk aku. Dia suruh aku mengucap. Entah macam mana aku cuba bertenang. Mengucap. Tiba-tiba, macam wayang gambar, aku nampak peristiwa tu satu persatu………

Entah berapa kali sejak kebelakangan ni, kadang-kadang aku nampak katilnya kosong. Bila aku datang dekat, Aiman ada pulak; sedang tersenyum kat aku atau sedang tido menyoyot punting. Kadang-kadang puas aku cari botol susu nya. Tak jumpa. Terpaksa suruh Che Man cari kan. Che Man selalu jumpa.

Apa semua tu?

Oh Tuhan! Anak aku dah takde ke? Dah berapa lama kejadian ni? Dah berapa lama aku macam ni? Bila Aiman 'pergi'? Apa yang berlaku selama ni, khayalan aku saja ke?

“Syukur lah awak dah ingat semula....” Che Man sedikit lega.

"Dah berapa lama Nomi cam ni bang...?"Aku tanya. Tapi tak mahukan jawapan. Aku meraung.

Aku ikut je cakap Che Man bila dia suruh aku baring. Kami sama-sama menangis. Aku peluk dia kuat-kuat. Aku nangis kuat-kuat. Hati aku rasa berkecai. Aku tutup mata rapat-rapat.

Aku dengar suara Aiman merengek. Eh? Aku buka mata. Aku nampak Aiman mendepang kan tangan nya. Menyepak-nyepak bantal peluk nya. Aku gosok-gosok mata aku yang berair. Aku cari Che Man - nak kan kepastian. Tapi…. Che Man sedang tidur!

Perlahan-lahan aku pergi pada Aiman. Aku sentuh dia. Dia merengek-rengek.

Berkhayal ke aku ni? Anak aku masih ada la! Aku pandang sekeliling. Aku mengucap panjang....

MIMPI tadi seolah-olah nyata!

Sambil aku bagi Aiman susu, pipi aku basah dengan airmata. Macam mana kalau mimpi tu BUKAN mimpi? A reality?

MUNGKIN AKU BOLEH JADI GILA!

Post Takde Tajuk

Takde tajuk yang sesuai. Nak post gambar je.

Total @ RM51.90.

Betapa syiok nye kalau Popular selalu bagi discount cam ni.

Spent 72 hours continuously with Aiman.

MIL ade hal emergency. Kiss him, kiss him, kiss him.

Puas hati aku!

Family outing at Bagan Lalang.

15 of us. Quality time. See you next week guys!

Adik-adik, niece & nephew.

(We all pantang nampak camera)

My younger sister; Nino

Aiman : "Oh Mak Teh! Stop using me.

Get your own baby for photo shooting.

(Go and get married!)"

Office

Today is (my) HARI MALAS SEDUNIA. My boss has gone to the other hotel where he is also in-charge of and the server is in migration process. So, I *ehem* excused *ehem* myself from doing some work.

As I am sitting at my so-called work station, belek-belek my camera, I realized that I never have my photo taken in the office. I've been working here for 6 years and no me-in-the-office photo? Why? Only few of us in the office. My boss, his driver (not in, most of the time), my clerk and myself. Not so happening kan? That's why no reason to snapped photos la.

But today, I snapped some photos.

Front view - from where I'm seating.

My Pc is IN my table. Patut ke? Tell me about it. Covered with tinted glass. I always have to look down. Sakit leher siut. Right in front of me is a boardroom table of 10 seats. My boss LOVE to have samll meeting. Most of his meetings and discussions are held in front of me. So, I get to hear everything. "To avoid misunderstanding between us" - as he put it. Whatever! So I attend some small meetings by sitting at my own desk and have my things near me. In the meeting, I can still (curik-curik) do things that have got nothing to do with the on-going meeting like; pick-up or make phone calls, complete some document, surf the net, etc.

Noticed the wooden door next to the world map? That is my boss' office - gambar pintu je. Kat depan aku but not really directly in front of me. He needs to walk from his desk to his door, and then walk from that door to my table. So I can buy some time there (in case I need to take cover or something, get me?)

My 45-degree-left View

On my table: My In / Out / KIV tray. My diary and quick-reference clear folder, my frequent use files and P&C documents.

Against the wall: built-in cabinet for frequent use files and my boss's collections of I-don't-know-what. As you can see, quite colorful files hah? We practice 5S in this hotel. Filing system and color coding are important issues here. If you are not sure what 5S is all about, go Google. I am malas to explain further.

My 45-degree-right View

Quite clear la. On my table: my telephone, giant calculator, desk calendar, tracing file and my boss' coffee flask (I don't know why he never keep it in his office. Every time he needs coffee re-fill, he has to walk to my table and walk back to his office - exercise ke...? checking on me?).

I think you can see the office entrance door too. It is double-leaf-decorated-wooden door with clear glass in the middle of each leaf. Part of the glasses are fixed with frosted film at eye-level. It was my boss idea of good fung sui (people from outside could not see me directly). So, sesapa nak masuk tu, akan tertunduk-tunduk dulu, checking my presence. Kesian.

My 90-degree-right View

Beside me is my stationary table, where I dumped everything else. The 'thing' that blocking my view is my photocopier cum printer.

On the other side is my clerk's table. Always neat, colorful and personalized. Bagus la. Tak sakit mata aku (look, who's talking!)

My Desk

Finally, this is how my desk looks like. At the back is my filing cum store room cum pantry. I do not have personal effects around my working area. No family photos, no teddy bear, no personal posters. Just some bekas biskut raya and small coffee flask. Why? Tak biasa. Tak sure why. Errr.. suka hati aku la. Aku nye table kan? He.. he...

Aik? Still NO me-in-my-office photo? Emmmm.... lain kali la.

Few Updates

SICK

I was sick last week. Che Man woke me up at 2.30am. He said "I am too sleepy. Baby tak mao tido since 11pm". I struggled to sit on my bed. My head felt heavy. The whole body felt so sakit-sakit. My body chilled.I graped socks and sweater.

"I think, I am sick", I told Che Man. "You MC la. No way you can go to work like this", he suggested. Since, I decided to go for MC, I agreed that I will stay awake with baby and let Che Man sleeps.

From 2.30am till 8.00am, my baby only tertido for about 20 minutes. I was sit-sleeping. Siap boleh mimpi-mimpi while baby sometimes melalak-lalak. At 8.00am, we decided to hantar baby to my MIL as usual.

During breakfast, I heard Che Man called his boss asking for emergency leave. I called my dear Boss, asked for one day leave. To get MC means to spend my whole morning in Clinic. Waste of my precious time.

I slept the whole morning until 2pm. An then again few hours in the afternoon. I slept peacefully, knowing Che man is around to 'protect' me. I woke-up looking at laman's grass trimmed. Thank you Che Man.

A DEAR FRIEND'S BIRTHDAY

Sham sms-ed. Asked whether we want to join him for dinner. Dia belanja. Aik? Nape baik sangat yek? I called my friend to check something. Oo.... Sham nye birthday. Some more, just got promoted.

I felt bad. We are close friends for many-many years. But I forgot about his birthday. Since I have my baby, we don't spend much time with Sham like we used to. Not that we don't want to, but, the timing......

It was a good-happy-birthday-free-food-and-drinks session with few good friends. Happy birthday my dear friend. Congrats on your promotions.

AIMAN

There was in one morning, when my baby being his cranky-self, bila kesabaran ku makin menipis, I just put him on my bed. Suddenly, he turn to his left and meniarap! That was his first time meniarap without assistance. It was at 3.00am. Too bad Che Man missed it (because he was sleeping).

Now my baby has changed his shift; from overnight shift to normal shift. I am so happy with his new shift. That means, from 9pm to 7am, he will only wake-up 3 times for susu and tido almost immediately after susu and nappy changed. He ussually will stay awake from 6.00am until I send him to MIL's. But, that's ok. Please baby, do not change your shift so fast ok?

FRUITS FIESTA

I work for a hotel. We know all hotels ban durian and manggis for the smells and coloring right? So, instead of having them IN the hotel building, there was one van full of durians, manggis and rambutans parked at loading bay for all staffs to enjoy ALL YOU CAN EAT at FREE OF CHARGE. It was madness.

RAINING

I was excited when I received sms from a friend asking for my postal address. Nak hantar kad kahwin katanye. You see, the last time we met, he was still single - no girlfriend. I wonder, dengan sape agaknya dia nak kahwin. What more, I know I'll meet many friends there. Dah lama tak jumpa this set of friends.

But, it was raining - heavily. Since, I had to bring my baby along, I cannot even go out of the car. We parked nearby hoping for rain to stop soon. It didn't happen. I only managed to see my friends with their payung passing by my car. Of course, dia org tak sedar I was in the car la.

Perut dah lapar. Sangat lapar. We decided to drive to Summit for Lunch. By the time, rains stop, it was already 3.30pm. Still we went to meet the groom. Friends have long gone. Frustrated. No mood nak ambil gambar pun.