Sob! Sob!

Camera aku rosak!

Benci!

Bersusah payah aku carik warranty card camera tu. Nasib baik jumpa. Bulan depan warranty expires. Nasib baik.

Tapi takde original receipt pulak. Dah bagi kedai tu masa claim free photos dulu agaknya.

Camna ni? Belasah jer lah.

The next day aku gi jer kedai tu.

Since Che Man ada conflict ngan pekedai tu dulu (long story... I tell you), I asked him just wait for me at some kopitiam. Aku cuma nak gi hantar camera for repair, bukan nak gaduh. He.. He...

AT THE SHOP

Aku : Saya beli camera ni awal tahun kat sini. Semalam tetiba dia rosak. Gambar bergaris-garis. Gambar yang ambil sebelum semalam, elok pulak.

Pekedai : (Checked warranty card aku. Nasib baik dia tak minta receipt. Checked camera) Ada jatuh kan ker?

Aku : Takde! Takde! (Betul… tak tipu)

Pekedai : Well… jatuh tak jatuh is not for us to say kan?

Aku : (WTF?). Tell me how am I going to prove it to you that camera ni tak pernah jatuh? (nada suara dah tinggi sket)

Pekedai : Ok. Ok. I’ll give you receipt lah. Nanti dah siap we all call.

Aku : Good. How long will it takes?

Pekedai : Two months.

Aku : Hah? (Terkejut beruk). Why so long? (Mata aku terbuntang)

Pekedai : First dia orang akan assess whether this is due to your negligence. (Part ni aku hangin betul la) Then, they need to determine the real problem. Order spare parts, repair, yada. yada. yada. yada.

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Sebal lah rasa hati aku tak de camera for 2 months. Terlepas la birthday aku, birthday Che Man and anniversary kita orang. Silap-silap terlepas hari jadi Aiman sekali. Itu belum lagi aksi-aksi spontan si Aiman. Sob! Sob!

I tried to talk to Che Man about getting a new one. Member geleng kepala jer. Tak merasa la nampaknya.

By the way, ini lah rupa nya gambar Aiman guna camera rosak tu. Nampak kat sini not so bad, but sometimes teruk betul lines tu. Sampai gambar pun senget-senget.

Aiman favorite past time - showing off his teeths.

Another two are making their way out from the top.

Face that Terrorize J*SCO Bukit Raja on Weekly Basis

He won't sleep.

He doesn't like to sit still in his stroller - He wants to stand up.
If we don't want to dukung him, he'll shout; calling for attention
He always get the attention - from people around us. We segan.

When we want to eat, he wants to eat too - our food.
When we want to drink, he wants some also.

He doesn't like people blocking his view - he'll scream at them.
When I tell him to behave himself, he'll give me this look:

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"Muka tak bersalah"

Tag - 38 Questions

Name one person who made you laugh last night.
· My son, Aiman. He was so sleepy last night but upon hearing my voice, he opened his eyes and tried his best to stay awake, only to fail miserably. His face looks so funny and I had a good laugh.

What were you doing at 0800?
· Fighting with Aiman in the car on the way to MIL’s – I was trying to trim his finger nails.

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
· Hi-tea with another 2 colleague while listening to their discussion on menopause.

What happened to you in 2006?
· I got married in February and got pregnant 4 months later. Was a wonderful year.

What was the last thing you said out loud?
· “Bodoh punya supplier! Pigi dah….!”

How many beverages you have today?
· One. Coffee. Tu jer.

What color is your hairbrush?
· Black. Why hairbrush?

What was the last thing you paid for?
· My Lunch. That was day before yesterday.

Where were you last night?
· i) Clinic Bandaran, ii) Restaurant Sri Bunga, iii) MIL’s and iv) Home.

What color is your front door?
· Cokelat. Tak nak tanya warna pintu bilik ker?

Where do you keep your change?
· In my purse, in my car, in my handbag & in my tabung.

What’s the weather like today?
· Drizzling

What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
· Chocolate. Nothing can beat this man…

What excites you?
· When I see people got exited upon seeing me. He.. he….

Do you want to cut your hair?
· Oh yes! I have not cut my hair since I gave birth to Aiman. More than 9 months now. In fact I went to saloon last Saturday to do just that, but after waited for 45 minutes, I gave up.

Are you over the age of 25?
· Yes. Must I write the figure? No need? Okey. Thank you.

Do you talk a lot?
· Tengok tempat, tengok masa, tengok orang. In general; YES.

Do you watch the OC?
· No. Should I?

Do you know anyone name Steven?
· No. Sorry Steve.

Do you make up your own words?
· Yup. Baby talk with my son. But many people advise me not to continue doing that. Takut anak pelat. But hey… this is the only time I can do this. So back off! I know la when to stop. Jealous?

Are you a jealous person?
· Not really. Sket jer kot…..

Name a friend whose name starts with the letter Á’.
· Asu

Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.
· Kamsiah.
Kamsiah & Asu are actually twin sisters. My good friends from hometown.

Who’s the first person on your received call list?
· Abg 2. That is my husband’s 2nd mobile number.

What does the last text message you received say?
· “Missed Call(s) from 03778***** (9:35am 13/12) ZMS-cara baru untuk SMS dgn ikon!, Percuma hingga 31 Dis. Untuk muat turun, taip ZMS hantar ke 22022”.

Do you chew on your straw?
· No! Yucks!

Do you have curly hair?
· No.

Where’s the next place you’re going to?
· Washroom.

Who’s the rudest person in your life?
· Me. I can be very brutal with my words when I am angry. Only I don’t say it out loud.

What was the last thing you ate?
· Something from dessert counter. I think it was a malay kuih macam sagu mata ikan, but colorful with hint on kelapa parut. Sedap hingga menjilat garpu.

Will you get married in the future?
· Erk?

What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past two weeks?
· Kalau movie from DVD – Die Hard 4. Kalau tu tak aci… then, I can’t remember. Rasanya dah 10 bulan tak gi cinema.

Is there anyone you like right now?
· Many.

What was the last time you did the dishes?
· The night before last night. I do dishes every night, but last night there was no water supply. So, biar jer la cawan-cawan bergelimpangan kat situ dulu.

Are you currently depressed?
· A little bit. Don’t ask.

Did you cry today?
· No.

Why did you answer and post this?
· Simply la. I need to appear busy ma…. but not in mood to do office work. What more, I like NiN who tagged me.

Tag 5 people who would do this survey.
· i) Wani, ii) Konot, iii) Alin, iv) Aishah and v) Jue.

Hati Sedang Risau

When I first receive the news, I was excited and anxious about it. I can 'see' a bright light enveloped the news. I waited for weekend to come anxiously.

At the end of weekend, I was a bit frustrated, that thing was not so smooth - even though I expected it already. May be I was too hopeful.

I gave myself another chance few days later. It ended-up alright but I know I should worry about another thing that bothering me for so long. Should we take action earlier there is no need for us to worry about. Now... is it too late? I tried to be positive and went ahead anyway.

This morning, I got the result. I am frustrated now. I know it’s coming and it has come. A reality that someone has tried to postpone too often. There is no need to get angry with someone. I had reminded this someone to settle it too many times already. Someone got to learn a lesson.

Che Man told me there is Plan B. He is working on it but it is not so promising. Despite the frustration that eating me inside out, I am still hopeful that we can still solve this problem as soon as possible. Key word : ‘as soon as possible’.

But what if we failed? What are the other alternatives? Should I just forget about it?

Maybe I am over reacting. I can't help it. Hati sedang risau.

Kami Kena Buli

..... oleh budak 9 bulan.

Aiman is getting better but not fully recovered.

Thank you for advices on how to handle the situation. Al maklumlah, first anak, mana la saya tau sangat. Panic tau la. In early stage, every time after minum susu, he will berak cair. Not only I have to change his diaper, I need to change his seluar, baju, alas tidur atau apa-apa lah yang in contact with his bontot at that time. Haru biru. Badan dia pun lemah, tak mau makan and meragam saja. Dah kurus anak ibu.

Now better.

Not every after minum susu dia berak, kalau ada pun tak banyak dan tak secair dulu (ok guys… if you are eating while reading this… you know what to do kan? Gross. I know!). Walau belum selera sangat nak makan, dia sudah makin energetic. Alhamdullillah. I NEED him to sembuh and sembuh fast.

Cerita lain lak.

When Aiman was 8 months, he could not crawl properly. He was on all fours but still, when he wants to move about, dia mengensot ala commando. Budak bertuah. I started to worry - Apesal la tak leh merangkak lagi ni? Then one day when I put him into his baby cot, he did these:

Tak mau baring. Terus bangun.

On his knees

Berpaut pada palang kayu & cuba berdiri

Adjusting his position

Doing his little dance routine

Pulak dah. Dia berdiri!. So we lowered down the cot’s base. But, we cannot put him in the cot anymore coz he keeps wanting to stand up. Kan baru jer belajar berdiri, tak stabil lagi. Few times, when he was practicing (with Ibu supervising him), dia jatuh-jatuh. Takut wei… kalau kepala dia kena kayu tu. Somemore, dia cuba panjat-panjat pagar tu macam dah terer sangat. So sekarang, kami tidurkan dia guna buaian and then alih ke katil in between me & Che Man.

Masalah lain pulak - Dia panjat kita orang.

Nak dijadikan cerita, this happened few days ago, Aiman slept at around 11.00pm and woke-up at 1.30am. After he drank susu, as usual he stayed up. Exited dah dapat berdiri sambil berpaut ni, dia panjat-panjat badan kita orang. Everytime after he managed to stand, he will do a little dance choreographed by himself – sangat cute okey…, then (bila dia dah penat or when we got irritated) we have to baringkan him again. This process continued until around 3.00am.

Tah camna aku tertido. Suddenly, “Bubbbbbb”, I heard something that scare the hell out of me and shortly I heard Aiman cried - so loud. I got up in panic and found him terlentang atas lantai! ANAK AKU JATUH KATIL! Uuwwaaaaaa! Panic. I took him to living room pujuk dia berhenti nangis. I checked his head, hands, legs and back for any sign of bengkak, patah and what not. Everything seems ok. Dia pun tak nangis lama.

I got to go to work that morning. So, I told MIL about happened and asked her to monitor him in case he cries for no apparent reason, to note any physical abnormality, vomit or anything perangai unusual. Until today, beside lebam kat forehead dia (alahai.. he must have had landed face down), he is fine - or should I worry? Should I take him to doctor?

My dear Aiman masih tak serik. Now is will sleep at around 11.00pm and get up at 1.30am and force us to play with him and panjat-panjat us or bantal; to stand and to do his little dance. He also uses our bed headboard as a support to stand, ended up kepala dia tertujah ke headboard – solid wood tu! He will only sleep at around 4.30am or 5.00am. Itu pun lepas Che Man puas buaikan dia. So, you know lah.... no one can really sleep these days.

He is 9 months today.

He has got 2 cute gigi bawah yang dia suka asah guna ASTRO remote control – somehow he always manages to find it; the remote control I mean. He can crawl now (finnally) and he loves his new skill coz he can get to our TV cabinet, sofa, kerusi, buaian or kaki meja faster and use them to support him while standing and dancing.

I put many big cushions kat lantai around my bed, just in case. My room is small. No space for us to bentang tilam. And to dismantle the bed and tidur bawah not really a good idea coz my sleep-fighter son will crawl to wherever he can find support for him to do his thing. I can’t imagine him doing that while we are sleeping (read : TER-tido).

No matter how he ‘tortured’ us the night or the morning before, every morning when I wake-up from my not-so-nyenyak sleep, I always feel happy & grateful because he is my boy. The one that makes me laugh, the one that makes me smile, the one that makes me cry, the one that makes me panic & worry and the one that makes me so grateful for being able to go through all these.

I guess I can only bersabar and appreciate everything that comes with 9-month-old boy.

Risau

I went through some of the things I blog-ed here. I could not find anything related to Aiman's development. Kalau ada pun cerita pasal dia tak mahu tido sampai buat aku nak naik gila. Teruknya aku.

So aku ambil beberapa keping gambar dia. Ingat nak blog about some new development just for my own record coz lately he has achieved so many things.

But still.....

Hari ni, masih tak dapat lagi blog about his achievements. Coz I want to blog about omething that makes me worry.Dah tiga hari najis Aiman cair saje. Tak tau naper. MIL said umur macam ni memang tengah nak ringan kan badan. Dua hari lepas takde la aku risau, sebab waktu beraknya masih teratur - walau pun cair semacam. Tapi malam tadi, I just cannot wait for siang to come. Everytime I gave him milk, dia berak cair, sampai takde najis dah... just yellow-ish water. Tukar diaper banyak kali. Dia nampak mengantuk sangat, tapi menangis almost all night long (until 5am!). Sakit perut agaknya. Macam kita kena cirit-birit. The last bottle I gave him at 5.oo am. Then aku pun tertido. Sedar kul 6.00pagi, I saw Aiman tido megiring sambil Che Man peluk dia. Botol susu yang kosong kat sebelah. Kesian anak ibu. Entah bila la dia tertido. Entah-entah dia menangis-nangis cuba kejutkan ibu tapi ibu tak sedar pun....

Che Man and i decided to take him to clinic tonite. Yup... TONIGHT not today! I hate the fact that I have to leave him all day long with MIL (in that condition) cause his father and I have to go to work. I have meeting early morning, so I asked Che Man to send me first to office, before send Aiman. Aiman was sleeping all the way to Shah Alam. Tak bangun pun bila aku cium dia. Terlentok jer dalam car seat. Mengantuk sangat nampaknya anak ibu. Berat betul hati aku nak tinggal kan dia camtu. Kalau la aku boleh tinggal kan saja meeting pagi ni dan bawa dia gi clinic.... kalau lah aku boleh duduk rumah jaga dia..... kalau la sakitnya tu boleh di transfer kan pada aku.....

I can't wait to go back. I want to bring him to see doctor. I hope, there is nothing serious.

Grateful

I know them through Che Man. It was in a month of Syawal; few years back. We went to their new-big-house at a new housing area. Apparently Che Man had not seen them for quite sometimes. They already have 2 daughters at that time. Their conversation was mostly about the couples’ carriers – they work at the same place. The husband works during normal hours, odd hours and long hours. Everyday. Part of it due to his nature of job. The wife who works in office will have to follow the husband working hours in order to solve their logistic problem. They however do not mind since the money is very good. Their daughters live with dear mother and only spend few days with them every week. We were amazed with the situation. I cannot imagine myself going through that on daily basis. However, the materialistic part of me envies them.

Che Man invited them to our house during last Syawal. They have 2 daughters and a son now. I am glad that this family stayed after everyone else left my house. We spent good one hour talking about our lives now.

The wife has stop working 2 years ago after gave birth to her son. The husband has been terminated from work about few months ago due to some crisis at work. They did not talk about how difficult life has been since the last few months – something I expect them to mention. They mentioned nothing like that. They are jovial couple. I forgot about how difficult life must be for them now when the husband cracked jokes after jokes.

The husband asked me to tapau serunding since his elder daughter loves it so much. She ate everything with serunding. Masalodeh, mee hoon goreng, spaghetti, nasi himpit, satay.

I asked, “Really? I tapau okey...?”

He said, “I am just joking la.....”.

Anyway, I made a mental note to act on that before they leave.

Time to leave. We walked them to their car – a car; we thought. Instead, it was a motorcycle. Five of them on a motorcycle. They left. Happily waved at us. Knowing where they live, they will be on the motorcycle for more than one hour.

We stayed outside of the house picking up some rubbish in the car porch when suddenly Che Man said “Kesian la. Tentu susah hidup dia orang skrang. Ye la... sampai ke tahap jual kereta”. That is exactly what I was thinking.

In the kitchen I was still thinking about them. How life can change drastically? How some people can still show happy faces when they are forced to change their lifestyles coz money is a big issue now?

It reminds me of myself – suka mengeluh about not having this & that, spend my precious time doing this budget & that budget (but never stick to it) and hate the fact that I HAVE to do budget at all, looking at other people’s nicer houses, cars, handbag, shoes, suits and at almost every better things they could afford and secretly envied them. Suka berangan that one day I’ll win something like more-jutaria contest and bring back RM1million in cash.

Why not grateful for whatever I have now?

Then, I realized I was staring at a Tupperware filled with serunding and packets of nasi himpit that I forgot to give them.

Sigh.

I hope they keep the house.

Sigh.

Kenot Tahan la This One!

Raya is sooooo... over!

From my previous post :

"I don't think I can host an open house this raya season"

So, what happened? Can I call it an open house? I dunno.

Some close friends suggested that we gather at my house last weekend. Many people at work asked when is the the suitable date for them to come to my house. My husband was thinking about inviting office mates to our house. I was thinking it's time to invite my ex-housemates for dinner or something.

So, Che Man and I decided that last Saturday was a suitable day, since both of us will be on annual leave.

I was the Sous Chef, the Executive Housekeeper, the Chief Steward and the Hostess. Che Man has been good to me. He tried his best to divert Aiman's attention to other things other than constantly seeking my attention. The whole morning & afternoon, I was like lipas kudung doing the preparation. At last, we managed a small-get-together for close friends and office mates.

However, I cannot accommodate Che Man's office mates request to come in the afternoon. Sorry darling, you know how tak sempat kan? I'll make it up to you.

Mari tengok gambar.

Still Raya What....

I know it is NOT a compulsory to post an entry about raya, but somehow I feel it is a must. Ye la.... it is an important event / celebration in our lives kan?

My problem is, I dunno how to summarize it. Those who read my blog regularly or know me personally will realize that I am such a long-winded woman! Yes..... I too realized that okay...? Let see.... may I start with:

The Eve of Raya (Aiyooo... ini pun citer ker?)

I took the day off ; konon-konon nak kemas rumah and pack things for long balik kampung. I ended-up going pusing-pusing Klang and Shah Alam looking for an open clinic. It started when I was garu-ing my kepala on what to do first, I heard Aiman cried lain macam sket. I checked. Badan nya panas. Nearly 39 degree. I panicked. Lap badan dia dengan tuala basah and keluar gi clinic. Masa ni la pulak all LAPAN clinics we went closed for raya holiday. I feel like throwing a stone to their 24hours signs. When we finally found one, got Aiman checked, bagi ubat and all, it was already 5pm.

Ayah & Anak yang ke-mengantukan lepas makan ubat

Tuan-tuan dan puan-puan, it was on the eve of hari raya where I was supposed to be at my mother in law's helping her with buka puasa and other raya preparation. This is my first raya to be at my MIL’s place first. Bad impression la kan? Satu helai baju pun tak kemas lagi. We reached her house dekat buka puasa time. Dah la tak bawa sebijik kuih pun..... alahai...... Anyway, maybe because of ubat, Aiman slept well. His body temperature later subsided. We went through the raya preparation dengan meriah and gelak ketawa. I guess, I am lucky to have such nice mertua, ipar duai, biras, nieces and nephews.

1st Day of Raya

Surprisingly I had pretty good sleep that night. Aiman bangun once and terus tido after minum susu. My main concern in the morning was to ensure Aiman tak deman. Make sure makan ubat, minum susu, and mandi and pakai baju raya. He was so nyenyak.

Aiman tak sedarkan diri.....

While the rest pergi masjid for sembahyang raya, few stayed back to prepare breakfast. We had breakfast – this is the first time I had breakfast with all of Che Man's family members. Salam-salam-duit-raya-ambil-gambar. BUT..... Che Man and I, we decided to bersalam bermaafan later in private, coz kita orang malu nak buat camtu in front of his family.

In the afternoon, we drove to Melaka. My MIL’s kampung. Che Man and I bersalaman dan bermaafan dalam kereta on the way to melaka, bleh?

Acara ambil gambar di pagi mulia

Brekafast

2nd Day Raya

Melaka was fun too. It was not overcrowded as I had imagined. There were so many people but it was a fairly comfortable. We went around for raya. Nice people, delicious food. On a different note; Aiman spent much of his time sleeping – could be due to the medicine I diligently gave him. Poor him that I brought him from house to house for raya in a mengantuk mode like that. This is an experience for me. To have a very young child with you while visiting other people houses, sometimes you got to forget about menjamu selera dengan selesa.

Aiman bukan main tido lagi...

3rd Day of Raya & the rest of the week

When they are many people in one house, preparing meals requires a lot of time. I took the safer task – kontrak basuh pinggan. In the afternoon we decided to singgah Nilai – my hometown for lunch before the others proceed to their own destinations. The going back journey felt so long. I missed my family so very much. We were delayed by heavy rain in Melaka.

Heavy rain & flood that delayed our plan. This is jalan raya okeyyyy...

We had our lunch at 3.30pm. It was nice. Thanks to my sister & my dear mother who had to rush with lunch preparation. They never disappointed me in that department. It was sooooo good to be home.

Che Man felt sick that night. He slept most of the time. Aiman dah tak demam. Just selsema and sikit batuk. My elder sister came back from her Kedah. Things went on slowly but with festive mood. Raya visits and all. I felt so relax, so at home. I took the opportunity to take Aiman to children specialist in Seremban too. Lucky that he was only demam selsema biasa. We also went to get his MYkid. Dah berzaman, baru lah terhegeh-hegeh nak collect. Anak aku orang Negeri Sembilan wey...!

Aiman dengan his MyKid

We went to visit my older brother at PESADA. Happy to see him, he was happy to see us. Happy to be able to celebrate raya with him, even in such situation. At least we know that he is healthier there.

Nephew, Nieces, Younger sisters and Aiman with my brother

My elder sister insisted that we shoot for family photo together before my younger sister go back to her place. It was too last minute’s notice, so you won’t see my parents and the other younger sister in this photo. Other than that, I tak ambik banyak gambar, coz I was shy to take out my camera and ask people to pose – susah la aku ni!

Mak, Abah, Adik takde dalam gambar. Isehman....!

We came back to Klang on Saturday evening.

Well, masih hari raya lagi. We did a small family gathering at my place last week, and this time I was totally forgotten about ambil gambar. Satu pun takder. Arghhhh!

I don’t think I can host an open house this raya season. Demam berpanjangan, Aiman asyik nak berdukung and and Che Man is busy with his work even on weekends. I might call few close friends for small dinner or tea and that will be in batches – rumah saya kecik! Since the raya month is almost over, maybe in the month of Zulkaedah?

ANYWAY....

SALAM AIDILFITRI & MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

Sleep Deprivation

It has been three weeks now. Kalau dulu paling lama pun 2 minggu. Mata aku dah bengkak, muka dah sembab, selsema tak baik-baik, kepala dah berat, I lost focus at work - sleepy all the time. I am Zombie.

Last night I woke-up around 4am. Aiman was crying for susu. After that he refused to sleep. Nak berdukung jer. Lansung tak leh letak.

At 6.00am, I lost it!

"Would you please stop cyring? Nak apa hah?"

Aiman answered "Uwwaaaaaaaa!!!" even louder than before.

Che Man must have heard it. He woke-up and switched on the light (for some reasons, he always think that bright room will make Aiman stop crying).

I was so sleepy, so tired and dizzy - I took flu tablet before I went to bed. I was afraid that I might drop him if I continue dukung him. I put him into his baby cot and said ; "Now... nangis lah! Up to you!". He cried louder.

Che Man took him. I went back to bed.

This morning, Aiman did not smile at me much. Senyum tawar jer. My son dah pandai MERAJUK!

I am sad and angry with myself.

My celebrity look-alikes

Sajer Jer....!

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Hemsam gak la laki aku ni...!

Kambing Hitam

I never thought something like this would happen to my family. Did not pay much attention to one of the country's current scandals. Was shocked to know that we now part of it.

Scapegoat, we are.

You can pull our legs. You can threaten us. You can make us suffer. Surrender? No way!

Berani kerana benar.

Dear family, be strong. We are together and together we will.

'Tuhan,

Ku pohon, kau permudahkan perjalanan ini.

Ku pohon, kau kuat kan hati kami.

Ku pohon, kau hadirkan kami kawan-kawan sejati.

Ku pohon, yang bersalah dihukum, yang teraniaya terbela"

Amin

Redah Jer Labu...

• This raya I am not really prepared. The preparation..... ummm... how shall put it.... better if I have more cash?. I dunno. Its my fault for not having much saving to spend for raya. So raya shopping has a 'tight' feeling. However, we tried our best to have whatever necessary for us and our love ones. I am a bit sad that I can't spend more for my family and my in-laws. Anyway, I am quite done with raya shopping (or later gi PKNS to get few more things... only few more things). Whatever it is, we cannot get all what we want kan? Thank you God for all rezeki. Next time, I'll manage properly.

• This year arrangement is something that I have never done before. Raya eve and first raya will be in Shah Alam with in-laws. In the afternoon go to Melaka - MIL's sister punya rumah. I cannot imagine. My Mak Itam has her own children and her children has their own families. All will be there. Tambah pulak lagi my family, my mertua family, my SIL's family. Aiyoo.. so ramai la. Sure berhimpit-himpit and meriah (read: chaotic).

• Aiman has changed his sleeping pattern - again! Past 5 days, he slept at 4.00am (so did his parents!) Now.... should I bring his buaian to Melaka to help us a little in that department? I will raya with headache and mengantuk head. Trust me.

• Nevertheless I am positive this raya will be very eventful compared to years before. I am looking forward to be sedondon with my beloved husband and cheeky son, to see my son wearing baju melayu for the first time, to celebrate raya with my in laws and their saudara mara, to be away from my parents during the first day of raya for the first time, to adapt to huru-hara of staying with so many people in one house, to receive *ehem* duit raya *ehem* on behalf of my son, to prepare feast for visitors, etc.
• 
  I would like to take this opportunity to ask for MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN from all of you should I have offended you in anyway personally or/and through my blog entries.
  
  SELAMAT AIDILFITRI people. Pleaseeeeeee..... take good care of yourself and your family.

Tak Tau Nak Blog Aper....

......So,

I posted video of yang tak lain dan tak bukan

my dearest Aiman Nuruddin.

Sekejap jer anak ibu dah panjang.

We spent last weekend shopping for his new clothes.

Yang lama semua tetiba dah kecik & pendek.

Today....

I am supposed to distribute my assignments. At least that is what I planned for today. I even brought this assignment home last night. Keletak, keletuk menaip sampai kul 1.30pagi. So I printed it out this morning and sent it for confirmation only to find out that the 2 people that I needed signature from are both on leave!

After that I was so eager to finish-up some work, but my boss asked me to help him with some assignments. By the time we finished, I have no more mood to do my work.

After that my boss left the office for a meeting in KL. He took his bag, his laptop, his newspapers, his laundered shirts and segala tok nenek - meaning he won't be coming back to office this evening. Yes! He said "See you next week! " Ha.. baru aku ingat.. esok public holiday. Double Yes!

After that I received sms from my best friends that her twins are admitted to hospital due to batuk yang teruk. She might not be able to attend the buka puasa get together that we have planned this Sunday. Oh.. dear. Cepat sembuh twins.

After that, I arranged for next week's meetings. After I sent all meeting notices, my boss called my hp to tell me that we need to change 2 of the meetings' dates! Argh....! Many people involve in these meetings la... susah lah camni..

After that, I checked my friends' blogs and their friends' blogs and their friends' friends' blogs until I get tired of seating. May as well I blog!

After this, I will try to finish another pending assignment. Should at least start doing it - but the problem is - to start! I should keep doing it otherwise I have to spend my weekend doing it. That will definitely spoil my plan for raya shopping.

I cannot go home early today. Will buka puasa in the hotel. I am the 'Duty Manager' for the night. I have not really seen the buka puasa atmosphere in this hotel this year. I heard we have 900 seats booked for tonight. I'll be very busy but for sure I will enjoy it.

Okay... times up.

Yang Ditunggu Telah Tiba - Part II

Remember THIS post?

I wrote :

"Aku tengah menunggu sesuatu. Sleek, cun, compact, nice, red in color......"

Ni ha.... dah sampai! Yuhuuuuu...

It is not that my desktop rosak, but in a meeting, someone buka mulut and said that I should be given a laptop. Lebih mobile gitu. Hah? My boss immediately agreed - just like that. Okay people... it is not MY laptop. It is company's. But what the heck kan? Over 70 management staffs, only 3 are given laptop (besides desktop) you know...... *mode jakun on*.

Now I have no reason for not completing my work - they expect me to bawa kerja balik rumah! But, neither I ever complaint about my workload nor anybody complaint about me not finishing my assisgment - I have desktop at home by the way.

Have a nice weekend people, coz I know I am going to have a GREAT one!

*Senyum kambing pada laptop*.

Sebak....

........ sepanjang hari disebabkan kisah ni. Bergenang air mata.....

*Al-Fatihah*

Update (22/9/07):
It is difficult to read newspaper today. My eyes blury with tears.

What Will Happen when a Mother of Six-Month-Year-Old Baby Feeling Tersangat Lazy in the Office?

1. she will blog about her baby.
2. she will post pictures of him.

SIX MONTHS AND COUNTING

Has started eating solid food. He eats well.

( So proud of him)

Nenek forbidden him from wearing this 'night gown'.

(She complained; with botak head he looks like sami!)

With his cousin, Helmi.

Err.. excuse the bedak yang bercapuk tu.

(Pandai tengok camera)

"Ibu, where is my black belt?"

(Late for Karate-do class)

"Sayang ibu....."

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8th September 2007, 5.00pm

Minum Petang at Sham's

(Gambar minuman & makanan takde coz I was busy eating)

Aiman dengan tuan rumah

Rumah Sham dah macam 'day care' hari tu

Aiman trying to convince Yasir that babies can fly!

Aiman with Ayah terchenta

Pengantin baru dengan anak-anak pinjam.

(Turut kelihatan Aiman's girlfriend's mother)

Bagaimana Ramadhan Ini....

...... I am wondering.

Last 2 years, I was single.

1. If I can go home at 5.00pm, I go straight to pasar Ramadhan. I choose good pasar Ramadhan like seksyen 18 or Seksyen 6. Balik rumah, tunggu waktu berbuka.
2. Or, if tak berapa sempat, I just go near my apartment, seksyen 16. Small pasar Ramadhan, not much variety, but still better than nothing.
3. Or, if I have to work late, I buka puasa at staff cafeteria. Free food - I have no complaint.
4. Or, if I have to work late in the first week of Ramadhan, I buka puasa at coffee house. However this one, I feel a bit guilty with chefs an other coffee house service staffs whoever on duty - syok-syok je I makan RM68 buffet without paying anything.
5. Or, with friends buka puasa together somewhere - I love this one the most.
6. Or, with my then fiancee somewhere
7. Or, with family bila balik kampung

Last Year, Married and Pregnant

1. Most of the time buka puasa with MIL & SIL family at MIL's. Makanan beli coz they are busy with tempahan baju raya. So balik kerja, singah PKNS beli food to bring to MIL's.
2. Or, buka puasa dengan kawan-kawan somewhere - did I tell you I love this arrangement?
3. Or, buka puasa with my husband in a restaurant or beli food and makan kat rumah. Tengok mana-mana sempat.
4. Or, masak on weekend
5. Or, with my family kalau balik kampung

This year, Mother of One

Not very sure how yet. So far...

First day : At MIL's. SIL masak. I bought kuih muih & drinks only.

Second day : Staff cafetaria. I was on duty assisting operation for corporate buka puasa yada.. yada.. yada.. Che Man buka at MIL's.

Third Day (Today) : Working half day. Balik kampung petang. So makan with family.

Fourth Day : Still will makan with family before depart to Shah Alam.

Fifth Day :

• Plan A - Balik from office. Beli food. Beli kan MIL something to eat. Pick-up baby at MIL's. Balik. Buka puasa kat umah. Most probably I'll reach home by 7pm.
• Plan B - Makan kat rumah MIL. The thing is aku segan la. I don't expect MIL to cook for us. Please la. Sometimes tu boleh la. Jadi satu kerja lak org tua tu nak masak kan untuk kita sekali. Mana nak jaga cucu-cucu lagi. So? I can buy and bring food to her house and buka there kan? But..... beli lauk only, booooriiiiing. I like (if I have to buy) food like laksa, soto, mee goreng, nasi ayam - jenis2 yang dalam satu bekas semua skali. But I cannot expect them to eat those things kan. Besides the RM......! Bukan la nak berkira sgt, but really, we cannot afford to buy food for everyone everyday. Also.... we are not sure, who will be there. I don't mind doing this sometimes you see. Or, we can give extra money for her to buy things to cook. But..... how much extra? Still I have to susahkan her to cook for MY family. Malu malu. No way no way.
• Plan C - Balik kerja, ambik baby, terus balik. Masak. Buka at 8.00pm! Emmm?

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I think I go for PLAN A.

Most of the days, I should just buy from Pasar Ramadhan near my office (or elsewhere, depending on masa available), buy some food for MIL, pick-up baby, go home and buka puasa. Sempat kot... insyaallah.

Sometimes, buy for everyone and buka puasa at MIL's.

Sometimes, buka puasa with friends somewhere.

Weekend masak at home. Buka with my little family.

On a weekend, masak and invite few people to buka puasa together.

Trial run this Monday. See first.....

Tag - 5

Sudah kena tag dengan satu Ratu Jamu. So here...

5 Things In My Bag (Yang aku selalu bawak gi kerja)

1. My old-fat-black-Sembonia purse

2. My black make-up pouch
3. My black old-model Nokia (company’s) hand phone
4. My Olympus digital camera in black-dunno-know-what-material casing
5. My black diary 9cmx15cmx1cm in dimension attached with black gel pen

(OMG : All black meh?)

5 Things That Are In My Wallet
1. Duit sket jer..
2. MyKad
3. Credit card
4. Jusco Card
5. Bankcards

5 Favorite Things In My Bedroom
1. My queen-sized bed
2. My pillows
3. My dressing table
4. My baby’s cot
5. My big cupboard

(In summary, I love my bedroom set - furniture only).

5 Things I Wish To Do
1. Get rid of this itchy thingy – on my hand, on my back (tah ape benda tah!)
2. Entering an easy contest and win RM1m
3. Watching DVD while eating lunch – kan tengah posa ni.
4. Sleeping on my favorite bed with no one in the house
5. Shopping for ‘S’ size clothes – this one more like berangan

5 Things That I Am Doing Now
1. Thinking… Typing… Staring
2. Blogging from my office feeling uneasy coz kerja banyak tak siap
3. Staring blankly at papers & files on my table
4. Wondering what is my little Aiman doing at his nenek’s house
5. Doing a mental list of what are the things /work to do after this

5 People I Would Like To Tag
1. Juliah
2. Amy -kalau hang belum kena lagi la...
3. Aje
4. Konot
5. Shell

Yang Ditunggu Telah Tiba - Part I

From my previous post :
"Aku tengah menunggu sesuatu. A bit bulky, comfy, nice, dark chocholate kalernye..."

Yesterday, I GOT IT ALREADY! Yahooooo....!

Ramblings

Timbangkan, Seimbangkan

• Aku ter-lebih berat! I want to go on diet. Tapi masalah problem nya kat sini, aku memang kuat makan. Sangat-sangat sukar untuk tidak makan or makan sket. Last time, takde problem sangat - rasa dah gemuk; I exercised. But hey... skrang takut lak nak exercise. Terbukak lak my c-section camne? However, lately I found my (big-sized) jeans loose. Rerupa nya I have lost 5kg. How come? Mesti pasal jaga baby ni. Another 5kg to go.
• Ade banyak kerje opis pending. Aku malas tahap gaban. I had briefing about audit this morning. Haram jadah aku tak paham satu bende pun. Tak teringin pun nak gi tanya balik. Naper ngan aku ni?
• Dah lebih sebulan selsema aku masih tak baik. Sok sek sok sek - rimas gile. Dah banyak kali jumpa doctor, sampai aku malas nak gi lagi. In the evening, selalu demam. Kalau pagi elok sket (habih camne nak dapat MC?). Telan je la panadol.
  
• Belikat aku sakit gile - petang je. Sangat sakit until I feel like crying. I can't event carry my handbag sebelah kanan. Sesapa tau kat mana nak urut?
  
• Dah tengok gambar Erra bertunang? Tak cantek kan? - Apesal aku sibuk plak ni? Lantak kat dia la... dia yang bertunang!
  
• Dah tengok video 'Ella & Jojie'? Jojie aku tak berapa perasan muka dia, tapi.. Ella... sejibik! Adik beradik tu, cameraman, the two jantans and Allah saje la yang tau.
  
• Aku tengah menunggu sesuatu. Sleek, cun, compact, nice, red in color......
• Aku tengah menunngu sesuatu. A bit bulky, comfy, nice, dark chocolate kalernye.....
  
• Emmmm... should I buy baju raya now? Or should I wait till I lost few kgs? - Boleh ker?
  
• I have a list of things I want for the house - stick onto my fridge. Betul kata orang. If you want someting, write it down and paste it somewhere where you can see it easily everyday. No need to read - just glance at it everyday. Now... I am going to get them one by one. How I manage to do that? When there is a will, there is a way.
  
• Looking forward to meet friends this weekend. Can't wait.
  
• Must have more saving! More saving! - only to spend it for Raya. *Aduh*
  
• Bila nak naik gaji ni? (errrr... kerja malas!)
  
• Must cook nice food this weekend. Must kemas rumah. Must move some furniture.
  
• Looking forward to bagi Aiman makan myself. Selalunya, nenek dia yang bagi. This weekend is my chance - jgn lupa ambik gambar (suka hati aku la).
  
• Okay. Must stop now. Must start doing that blo*dy minutes.

So? Why am I writing all these in here? Because this is my blog. Aku nyer pasal la...

Blessing

So.. did solid food & buaian make him slept well last night? No!

But at least I am happy coz he has no problem swallowing his first spoon of solid food. In fact, MIL gave him twice; at noon and in the evening. I came back a little bit late. When I reached MIL’s he had just eaten. Later we went to Jusco and purchased buaian.

Bofore: Nak tidurkan mesti guna bouncing chair

After : Dalam Buaian

He slept at about 11.00pm. Few times he woke up and cried. Buain-buai, he tido. After all the house chores, I put Aiman into his baby coat and I climbed my bed at 1.00am

1.30am Aiman woke up and cried. I put into his buaian, after sometimes he stopped crying and slept. I lie down; more like merengkot atas kerusi. After 10 minutes he started crying again. I have to dukung him for about half and hour and put him to sleep again. This cycle went on and on until 4.00am. In between of coz bagi susu & checked dyper la.

Dah tak dapat buka mata, I asked Che Man to take over and I slept. At 5.30am Che Man asked whether I can take over. Dalam mengantuk aku sempat membebel “No! I stayed up for 3 hours and you only stay up for 1 and half hour? No way!”. He.. he… I was really sleepy you see. This morning, according to Che Man, Aiman finally dozed off at 6.00am. Let see what will happen to night.

My friends said: count your blessings. Of course! Not able to sleep properly at night is nothing. Some people are not yet blessed with a child - walau dah bertahun kahwin, some people have to stay up at almost every night - their child need constant monitoring due to some kind of illness. Some don’t even have chance to have a child – 50 years old and not married yet. Some people ada anak yang cacat – needs full attention. Some people don’t have enough money to provide for their children - minum la budak tu susu pekat manis / air kanji ehsan orang lain. Some people ada anak takde husband – divorce, pass away, never been married, etc. Some people disingkir family - perkahwinan tak direstui, having anak tak sah taraf or they simply don’t care. Some people tak dapat jaga anak properly - meroyan after gave birth. Some people gone crazy - laki decided to disappear with other woman. Macam-macam lah!

Myself, I am blessed with a cheeky son, sempurna physical & mental - insyaallah. Walau tak kaya, rezeki kami masih mencukupi untuk memeliharanya secara teratur. Takde masalah tak cukup duit beli susu, lampin, baju, ubat atau apa-apa keperluannya. Ada husband yang memahami and cukup sabar layan kerenah isteri & anaknya. Ada keluarga (dan keluarga mertua) yang very supportive. Sihat tubuh badan (& akal fikiran), able to work, do house chores, stay up to take care of baby, bermesra with anak & laki.

Jadi…. I am not complaining here. Aku cuma perlu bersabar. Ikhtiar or at least adapt to it. I have listed down the possible causes of this problem. I have also listed down my action plans. I will check one by one.

So friends, if you cannot comprehend my entry today, never mind. It is not your fault. It's me – drowsy and sleepy.

Dia Buat Lagi...

I know its happening again. He showed me the signs 4 days ago.

Yup! My Aiman has changed his shift (again!). I think, last Sunday & Monday was his trial run. He woke-up at wee hours and cried for no apparent reasons. Sesekejap bangun, sesekejap tido. Day time, he slept like nobody business. Kena kejut kan dia for susu. Itu pun mata masih tertutup.

Tuesday – 4th Sep 2007
He was still awake at 1.30am. Che Man and I dah tau what is going to happen. So we made this arrangement:

1.30am to 3.00am - Nomi
3.00am to 5.30am - Che Man
5.30am onwards - Nomi

Finally Aiman dozed off at 7.00am. I was too sleepy to take shower and ended-up sleeping until 8.00am.

I was 5 minutes late for 9.00am meeting. Aku tersengguk-sengguk tahan mengantuk. Dah lambat kan gi kerja pagi tu kan, mana sempat nak minum kopi. The next half of the meeting, I closed my eyes (zzzzz….). Nasib baik meeting tu my boss tak masuk and it lasted one and half hour only. I quickly went back to my office (sebelum sesapa sempat menanyakan apa-apa) and drank coffee. Then I blog, blog-hopping and served the net sampai petang. When I tried to do some real works, my eyes shut! I did la little bit here and there (in between blog-hopping) and called my boss to check this & that. At 5.30pm, I told my assistant “sesapa carik, cakap you tak tau!”. I went inside my boss’s room and slept on the sofa until 6.15pm. Damn! The aircond was too cold. Aku start demam!

Wednesday – 5th Sep 2007
Che Man woke me up at 3.00am. Dia nak tido plak. Aiman masih tak mau tido since 11.00pm. Berjaga la aku sampai kul 5.00am. Not too bad coz I slept at 11.00pm, last night. No need to kejutkan Che Man coz baby finally dozed off at 5.00am. When I opened my eyes again, it was 8.15am! Aiyoooo….. sudah lambat nak pergi kerja. Express discussion and decision made. We called (Aku sms je) our bosses to ask for half day leave. Lucky Aiman terus tido sampai kul 10.30 pagi – we all sambung tido / bayar hutang. Lepas mandi kan dia, kami bersiap and sent him to MIL. Sempat lunch kat MIL's. I reached office at 12.45pm.

Today is actually new beginning for Aiman. He will start eating solid food today. I will miss it coz MIL will do that *Ibu kena gi kerja sayang*. We plan to buy buaian for him tonight. Hopefully, solid food & buaian will do well to his sleeping schedule (and ours!).

Note:

Errr... my boss has not reply my sms yet la.... this is so not him. Takut lak aku!

Cukur Jambul

Finally we had it on 1st September 2007.

At planning stage, we were worried because this is the first time kenduri at my MIL house (they lived elsewhere last year). I was worried about the budget too - It is not cheap to have small kenduri these days. SIL advised that I should not think too much. Tentu ada rezeki Aiman.

One week before the majlis, we found out that a neighbor have decided to hold a wedding kenduri few houses away – the same row. It was their last minutes decision for reasons only they know. FIL was furious but refused to change the date. Aiya.. how la? Tak kan kita tengah marhaban, dia orang berkaraoke? Tak kan lah kita tengah bertahlil, dia orang berkompang? Won’t people get confused with the khemah and all?

We started the morning as early as 4.30am. Aiman was not well. Still sick with flu. He did not sleep well the previous night and that didn’t help to ease my migraine. Rasa macam nak pecah kepala okey... sampai termuntah.

I was a bit sad that I didn't get him baju melayu. I thought I could get it beli-siap, but after rounds & rounds of searching, I accepted the fact that beli-siap nyer is for at least one-year-old baby. I wanted to buy the smallest size, but Che Man tak approve. To tailor-make: already too late. *(Raya nanti ye sayang... )*.

We started the marhaban at 10.00am. I missed the part where Aiman was circling the buaian - poor him, one auntie had to carry him - ibu was no where to be seen! I only took my place when Aiman was already in the buaian. The marhaban (by almost 50 ladies) was beautiful. Aiman felt asleep in the buai. I had to wake him up so take they can cut his hair, tepung tawar him, bubuh bunga rampai on his head, tabur beras kunyit, etc. I was surprised to see one bakul filled with ang pau. I was not not aware that people will give money to the baby in this ceremony. (Alhamdullillah - his rezeki). SIL was behind me distributing paper bag with some souvenirs items. Aiman behaved himself until I put him back into buaian when they sang lagu-lagu nasihat for him. Lunch started at 11.30am. Ladies first - men were inside the house for tahlil.

I was happy coz :-

• At last, we managed to do this for Aiman.
• As we started early, we finished early, therefore not clashed with the other kenduri.
• Not only my family came, my grandmother, my auntie, my cousins and my mum’s cousin also managed to come.
• Few close friends were around – that’s why I call them close friends.
• Aiman – despite not feeling well, he behaved himself until end of the ceremony and slept the whole afternoon, when we busy berkemas.
• Food was nice, plenty & enough for everybody.
• My BIL acted as financial controller and we ended-up sharing the expenses at agreed portions - lighter budget for us.
• Despite my earlier objection on buaian part, SIL made an effort to make it happened.
• Weather was good. It was only raining in the afternoon, but that only made our coffee & teh tarik nicer.
• Things went on smoothly. (I should do sujud syukur).

Marhaban Group.

(Usually only ibu will sing for him)

Aiman yang jarang-jarang tido dalam buaian, was a bit nervous.

"Ayah... what is happening here?"

Aiman didn't care about people cutting his hair or throwing bunga rampai at him.

Yang penting pose for the camera.

"Oh no! They are so jealous of my beautiful hair"

(I am so tempted to call him 'Aiman-botak')